Teaching A Thing Or Two

Chapter 15 Freeing Feelings

Finley's POV

That was intoxicating.. I never act promiscuous like that, and I just thought it would be fun to tempt him since he already saw me practically naked anyways, and there's nothing I can do to change the past.

So, somehow stepping out of my comfort zone and trying something new is so out of ordinary for me that it ends up being addictingly exhilarating for myself.

Just by the way he was staring at me, it made me want to do that over and over again because I'm just assuming he liked what he was seeing by his reaction. At the risk of sounding crazy, I really liked his reaction too, letting me feel sexy and pretty, keeping him on his toes.. The nervousness was so adorable, I do love knowing that he feels like I do, so I don't feel so weird for feeling nervous too.

My heart is racing as if my body is going into overdrive at that action alone, I don't know where this unknown confidence came from, especially after tonight. But that was so much fun either way. I even had to stay an extra minute longer in the room just to calm myself down.

I let out a deep breath as I stepped out of the bedroom, making my way down the stairs, looking around. No one is in the front room, so I keep going into the kitchen. Jameson is setting food down on the table for all 3 of us as Sunny whispers to him. They both smile and nod as they notice my presence that makes them instantly stop talking.

"Is everything alright?" I ask as they both nod vigorously, making me smile at their suspiciousness. They're pretty adorable together.. you can tell they have a great relationship. "Yes, please have a seat, Finley." Jameson instructs me as he pulls the chair out for me. I hesitantly take my seat with him pushing me in.

"I'm sorry I had to heat up the food, I don't know if it will taste as good just because it's cold, you know, with everything that happened.. So if you need anything to help with the consumption of it, then just let me know." Jameson states to me as I quickly reply. "Oh, don't worry about it.. I'm a very easygoing person.. it takes a lot to offend or bother me.. I'm sure it will taste just as good as it looks, but honestly, I love food all around, so you can give me almost anything, and I will love it.. there's not much that I would turn down."

"Well, Daddy is the best cook out there.. he used to be a chef for a little while. He likes to make up dishes, and we try them out... most are amazing!" Sunny states to me, now smirking my way. "Really? I use to serve for a little while at this Italian restaurant and the chef was my friend so he would do the same thing just making up dishes and would share it with me because I love trying anything new.. I'm an ok chef, nothing amazing.. but I can make a mean gumbo." I state smiling at them as Sunny says. Well, then we should invite you over for our next food experiment nights, and you can try it with us."

I glance up from my plate at Sunny, and I then glance over at Jameson next. They are both smiling while staring at me. "I wouldn't want to intrude no matter how amazing this dinner is." I say in a humming tone, just loving this lasagna.

"You wouldn't be a bother whatsoever." Jameson says to me as I smirk over at him, staring for a long moment. "Ok then.. we will have to try to plan something out as long as I'm not bothering anyone." I say, still staring at Jameson, just locked in with his gorgeous blue eyes that entice me every single time.

"Thank you both for having me here for dinner.. I would like to discuss the plan of attack for Sunny since that is why I'm here, if you don't mind." I suggest as they both nod. We end up spending the rest of dinner discussing what positive steps we are going to take to try to keep Sunny separated from the twins that keep tormenting her as much as possible. To make sure she can pass all her subjects as well and I even suggested helping her if she doesn't want to sign up for the tutoring that's offered at the school.

After the delicious meal is over with, I help them clean up the dishes. "Ok, Sunny, it's about your bedtime, and it's a school night, so you need to say good night to Finley and head up to bed." Jameson says as Sunny finishes washing off her dish.

"Yes, Daddy. " She says, coming up to me and giving me a big hug. I, of course, hug her tight as I say, "Have a good night's sleep, and I'll see you in the morning."

"See you tomorrow.. Good night, you two.. I love you, Daddy." She says, leaving my embrace for her father's, and I completely understand that.

They hug for a second as she whispers something into his ear, causing him to smile and shake his head before stating, " Good night, Sunshine."

We watch her walk up the stairs and out of our sight. "Well, thank you for an.. unforgettable night.. and I'll make sure to clean your clothes and bring them back sometime soon." I say to him, opening his front door standing in the doorway.

"Well, thank you for the good night."Jameson says to me, inching a little closer to me. "Good night? It was an awful night, I ruined things with your ex, and I'm sure you're going to hear about that later.. and the attack put a huge damper on the night." I say to him as he shakes his head.

"You can't do anything to change that attack, but I was there before anything happened, so we will just leave it at that, especially since they got arrested too. But don't worry about my ex-wife, she has had a problem with me for a very long time so this makes no difference. But I can think of a couple of things happening tonight that made it a great night, at least for myself." He says in a sexy tone as I shyly smirk up at him. "Well... yes... there were some things that happened that I would find more memorable than others. That's for sure." I reply without hesitation, making his smile bigger.

"Well, I didn't know for sure because you were being a little standoff-ish with me during the rest of dinner.. so I wanted to make sure everything was ok with you." He asks me sympathetically, moving a little closer now just leaning in the doorway, almost hovering over me, and I don't mind one bit. He smells too good for this to ever bother me..

"Well, I was really nervous about everything because I thought I might have started to scare you away, you know, coming off a little strong.. so I had to have a talk with myself and I said self.... and I knew it was me because I recognized my voice and I was wearing my underwear." I state humorously making him burst out laughing as I continue, "But I said, self you need to slow your roll before you get hung up on another man that will probably not want you like all the others.. so don't throw yourself at him like you want to.. just take a breath and think things through this time before you do the one thing you don't want to and end up scaring them both off in the process." I explain to him as he responds pretty quickly, "You're hilarious. I just love a woman with a sense of humor... But.. What if I said you're not freaking me out at all or coming off too strong.. I like it.. I'm just more of scaring myself because I haven't done this in a long time, and I don't exactly know how to start anymore. But I don't know how you could think I wouldn't like you like the others. I'm not like them." My heart starts to beat out of my chest at realizing what this is meaning or at least what I think this conversation is meaning.

"I can tell that you're not like them, that's why I'm very intrigued by you.. but I do have to tell you something to consider before you make any decisions about me.. I don't want you to waste your time with me if this is something you're not interested in.. so.. here it goes.. I.. can't have children.. so that's why most men have left me because they don't think I'm worth the time because they want families of their own. It's a medical issue and there's nothing I can do about it.. I'm just broken." I say to him, probably way to honestly but I think he deserves to know so neither one of us will waste our time.

I feel the sadness hitting my features because this is a soft spot for myself.. Out of nowhere, I feel his hand reach to my chin, lifting it to face him.. but I can't, so I look away.. I'm ashamed of my condition because this is something I have wanted for so long and can't have. He keeps hold of my chin, turning it back again as I feel my eyes welling up.

"Hey, no judgment here.. It's ok.. it wouldn't be a waste of my time because I think you would be worth it.. if we ever got to that point in the relationship, then I'm sure we could always talk about adoption or something if you wanted.. Sunny has been wanting a sibling forever.. but you're not broken, so please stop beating yourself up about it. Some of the most beautiful stones have to be broken to be able to see the beauty within.. doesn't mean there is anything wrong with them.. just like you." He says this so sweetly to me, making my heart soar at him being so empatheic towards me.. that's a first.

"Really? You don't think less of me for it?" I ask curiously as he shakes his head. "No not at all you seem like a great woman so any child you have will be lucky to have you and just as amazing as you, it doesn't have to be biologically yours to get the same love and treatment. You can still be a great mother without having one yourself.. you already are a great influence with Sunny." He says to me as he lets out a deep breath then continues. "But.. if we are being honest with each other, then I have to tell you something too." He says to me as I nod, just waiting for him to continue.

"Earlier tonight.. when we got back after the attack, I came upstairs and heard you talking to Sunny.. I.. heard about your medical condition before you even told me.. I'm sorry for not making my presence known. I just wanted to hear how you are with my daughter when you thought no else was around and you were amazing.. you really treat her better than her own mother does." He explains to me as my mouth drops open.

"You heard all that? Wait.. You think I was amazing?" I ask him curiously as he nods as I can feel my face blushing at this extra attention. "Well, that's sweet of you, Jameson.. just take some time to think about this.. with us.. and just let me know what you decide, but I want you to actually think about what you want because I don't want this chemistry between us to decide for us.. I do too many things in the heat of the moment that I wish I hadn't.. so think about this and let me know what you decide.. you know where to find me." I say sweetly to him as I step on my tippy toes and press my lips to kiss cheek lightly. "Thanks again for everything tonight." I say in a whisper to him being in such close proximity as he nods and says once again, "Anytime Finley.. Sweet dreams and see you soon."

I smile, then nod, just waving at him as I walk away to my car. Getting in and driving home for the night.. I need to get some sleep because I have had way too much excitement for my liking.