Awake // jinkook

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It's almost an hour since Seokjin sat across of his vanity table that is personally made according to his liking, every detail of the said furniture was his idea.

He stared at his arms through his reflection seeing small and deep wounds that will surely leave a scar even his legs has scars.

He examined his face and he clenched his jaw when he saw that his face is free from any kind of wounds.

He shut his eyes closed remembering how much the bastard caressed his face while looking at him with lustful eyes.

Seokjin slapped his face. Once, twice, thrice over and over again until he couldnt keep the tears from just streaming down his face.

"Disgusting..."

He washed his face with his barehands, his shoulders visibly trembling as he cried his heart out.

He shut his eyes closed everytime his hands will land on his sensitive skin, it already stings. He could see a little bit of blood already.

The fact that his face is only the one without any bruises is the evidence of how much his face is a curse— it is far from a blessing or a gift.

"Seokjin! Seokjin!"

He couldnt hear the screams of the people outside even with the loud knocking on his door.

It's as if the pain made him blocked all the words to be heard, he wants to close everything. He wants to be locked in order to feel safe.

The door opened and Seokjin didnt even noticed that, he's too focused with the pain that he's feeling. The unbearable pain and misery that seems to never go away.

Seokjin's eyes is pulled back into reality when he felt a pair of strong arms enveloping him, his shoulders visibly trembled because of the unknown person behind him.

His eyes widened in surprised as he struggled to get away with the touch while crying his heart out begging to be let go as he trembled in so much fear.

"Shh, shh. It's me," he whispered, "Jungkook." He said caressing his back.

Seokjin swallowed the lump forming in his throat looking around searching for Jungkook.

The older sighed as he cupped the younger's cheeks making their eyes met. In an instant, Seokjin shut his eyes closed and let himself collapsed on Jungkook's chest.

"It's me, okay? It's just me." Jungkook keeps on whispering while kissing the top of his head.

Jungkook looked at Erin and Lee who's just standing outside looking at the both of them nervous because of the sudden breakdown of Seokjin.

Jungkook nods his head at the both of them assuring that Seokjin will be fine with him so Lee and Erin already closed the door to let Seokjin rest already.

Seeing the younger like this is very much heartbreaking, he looks burned out— alnost giving up any moment unlike what he looks like before, his eyes used to be filled with so much hope and happiness for the places he wants to explore and the things he wants to know about.

Jungkook carried him with utmost care, he put Seokjin on the bed making him sit as his back is leaned against the headrest.

The younger is just looking at his every move with his stoic expression. Jungkook couldnt read him, he doesnt have any idea what the younger is thinking about.

"What are you doing here?"

Jungkook looked at the younger meeting his ice cold eyes, he bit his lower lips and sat on the edge of the bed.

"For you..."

Seokjin smirked even with the tears falling from his eyes, he looks cold and it seems like he doesnt have any emotions.

"I am disgusting. Your family will tell you to probably leave me alone," Seokjin shook his head, "That's what you always want, right? Why would you stick with me? I am dirty." He said.

Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows reaching out for the younger's hand caressing the back of it before intertwining their fingers together.

"I like you even more now, Seokjin." He kissed the back of his hands.

The older swore he saw the pained expression on the younger's face when he blurted those words out.

"You shouldnt..."

All of his life, he got all the things that he needs to live a comfortable life. They did everything just so he would be physically flawless.

He grew up without having any kind of wounds, his skin is smooth and free of any kind of scars, he's flawless just like what they wanted it to be.

But now, he got the biggest scar that wouldnt be healed even if it takes a lifetime, it will forever linger in his heart and mind.

Jungkook stayed next to Seokjin until he made sure that he's already sleeping.

He got out of the room being careful not to make any sounds afraid that he would wake up the sleeping beauty, he doesnt want to disturb him from resting knowing that he's probably emotionally and physically exhausted from everything— he needs a proper rest.

He went downstairs and saw Seokjin's Aunt who immediately walked towards him with a small smile gracing her lips.

"Thank you for being with him this time, sir Jungkook."

The man let out a faint smile already shaking his head, "No need to thank me, Ma'am," he said, "And please do call me Jungkook." He said with a smile.

Erin let out a genuine smile happy that there is someone other than them who's more than willing to stay next to his nephew in this kind of situation wherein Seokjin needs someone the most, a person who will accept him fully and wont ever dare change him.

"Also, im trying my best searching for the bastard who did this to Seokjin." Jungkook said.

He clenched his fist remembering how Seokjin looked so terrified and how his body trembled in so much fear remembering that son of a b***h.

"Isnt it dangerous, Jungkook? What if Seokjin would be in danger because of all of this?" Erin asked.

"If there is someone who should be scared, it's not us. He should be scared of what we can do to him."

Jungkook will do anything to find that man, he wouldnt let all of this passed just line that.

He wouldnt let the person who scarred Seokjin for a lifetime walked in this place freely without facing any hardships, he needs to pay for the mistake that he comitted.

He will surely make him regret messing with the wrong person.