Awake // jinkook

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Nothing has changed.

Seokjin doesnt think that he would ever forget what happened to him. If ever, he's always reminded by what happened— how painful everything is.

The only improvement that ever happened to Seokjin is that, he's finally going outside of his room but he's still talking less.

Seeing him like that, lonely and miserable. It hurted both Erin and Lee.

They doesnt even want to leave the house that much, they doesnt want Seokjin to feel like he's abandoned or something.

They will try their very best to relieve Seokjin's pain even just a little bit.

Jungkook is always at their house everynight trying to talk to Seokjin but he always failed. Though, sometimes the younger would answer a few questions but that's that.

Taehyung didnt get the chance to visit Seokjin but he's always calling Lee to make sure that the younger is alright. His parents drowned him with a lot of business trips and meetings to make sure that he would avoid associating himself with the beauty.

Seokjin embraced himself squinting his eyes as he stared at the night skies at the big glass window in their living room.

He looked at the people passing by the streets, a lot of teens walking side by side laughing heartily with one another.

The way he looked at the world changed.

He doesnt want to take a step outside of their house. He doesnt want to risk his safety of his heart, he doesnt think he could endure another pain if ever— he wants to avoid it as much as he can.

Seokjin bit his lower lips shutting his eyes closed slowly, he clutched onto his chest when he felt it getting heavy all of a sudden.

He massaged his temples and clenched his fist after when his vision got blurry, he almost fell on the ground if it werent for his Aunt who immediately held him by the arms.

"Im okay..."

He tried to stand up properly trying to even out his breathing.

He's been like this for two days already. Dizzy and he sometimes doesnt have appetite.

"Dont you think we have to rush him to the hospital?" Lee worriedly asked.

Seokjin immediately shook his head tapping his Aunt's arms motioning that he was fine.

"Why? What happened to him?"

All of them looked behind seeing Jungkook rushing towards their direction with a worried look on his face.

"It's nothing, im fine now." Seokjin said letting out a tight-lipped smile.

Seokjin stood up with the help of his Aunt, he shook his head a little when his knees starts to weakened. He tried to fight it but his vision turned into pitch black.

Seokjin woke up crinkling his nose and immediately massaging his temples.

He sat up resting his back on the headrest of his bed. He looked around and saw his Aunt on the corner of the room crying with her arms crossed.

Jungkook on the other hand who's sitting at the couch immediately went to his side sitting on the edge of the bed.

"How are you feeling, hm?" He worriedly asked.

Soon after, Lee opened the door going inside holding a tray with a bowl of fruits and a glass of water.

Seokjin furrowed his brows when he saw that Lee's eyes are puffy and Jungkook's worried looks never seem to falter.

"What happened?" He curiously asked.

Jungkook gulped down avoiding Seokjin's gaze. He looked at Lee who looked down then at Seokjin's Aunt who's still crying.

Erin shut her eyes closed trying to gather all of her courage before finally walking towards her nephew.

Jungkook took a step back giving a way for Erin so she could sit at the edge of the bed. She held Seokjin's hand so tight before kissing the back of it for a couple of times.

"Seokjin, sweetie..."

Erin stared at Seokjin's face, he looked at how innocent his nephew looks and how kind is heart is, he doesnt deserve any of what's happening.

"Aunt, why? Is there a problem?" He asked, worried about his Aunt already.

She cupped Seokjin's cheeks caressing it for awhile before holding his hands once again.

"How are you feeling these past few days, sweetheart?" She asked, "Arent you dizzy, losing apettite but sometimes craving? Dont you feel much tired than usual?"

"Yes..."

Erin gave his hand a slight squeeze, another set of tears falling from her eyes.

"That's because you're pregnant."

Seokjin's eyes widened in surprised as he shook his head vigorously not wanting to accept what he just heard.

"No, no, no. You're lying! No!" He screamed, his veins popping out.

He stood up and ran to Jungook. He forced the older man to looked at him.

"Jungkook! No, right? She's lying. Tell me, please!" He begged crying his heart out.

He glanced at Lee, "Hyung, you tell me. That's a lie, right?" He said stomping his feet out of desperation.

Jungkook caressed Seokjin's arms up and down trying to calm him down but the younger just looked at him with pleading eyes wanting to hear the answer that he only wants even if that's not the truth.

"You.. you are pregnant, Seokjin." Jungkook confirmed.

How Seokjin's hopeful expression changed into something so miserable as if what he heard just literally broke his heart made Jungkook want to go back in time and never leave him again.

"No, no, no, no." He yelled.

He cried his heart out screaming in anger as he keep on hitting his stomach with both of his hands.

"I dont want this monster! No. Get rid of this. No!"

Jungkook pulled him into a very tight hug making him bury his face on the older's chest.

"Shh, Seokjin. Calm down first, okay?"

He shut his eyes closed. He understand as to why Seokjin is being like this.

Maybe the younger thinks that having the baby would only remind him of his nightmares.

Though, the baby is innocent and doesnt have to do with all of that.

Seokjin is still a rape victim. He wont really know how Seokjin feels. He may have an idea how painful it is but he would never know exactly how everything is taking its toll on the younger.

All he could is to stay next to him.