Exhausted I felt it all the way down to my bones , mentally I don't think I could handle much more today. Looking at the clock at the side of the bed 4am we had only got back and hour ago. After Diana had been stabilised enough to be moved to the hospital. Looking up at the ceiling tears fill my eyes , Diana if i had been there still he wouldn't have done that. He wouldn't have laid his hands on that innocent young girl. The weight of that felt like it was crushing me. Pinning me to the bed and not letting me up.
The suffocating feeling as I'd walked through that house, felt just the same. It had been my home for over twenty years , yet I felt no connection. I felt more at home here , strangers house where I probably wasn't welcome forever. Every room had a dark memory, a discipline to
