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"thaku thanam thimi... thanaku thanam thimin.... tham thanam thimim.. ......

kalinga narthana thillana is playing through the tape recorder..... it's early in morning a girl may be at an age of 22 is dancing as the song progress..... she is an absolute beauty with an perfect figure which is neither too Sexy nor simply igrorable by a onlookers, Sexy kissable lips which is always tempting and a long hair up to her waist... cute oval face with long eye lashes and beautiful eyes. her brown eyes having unknown sadness and infinite depths which can suck anyone's soul when she looks......

even her sad eyes is extremely beautiful.. like a rose with dew drops...

finally the song end .... she stays as stationary folding two hands as praying...

and a small drop of tear run down thorough her eyes...

"kannaki" some one called her when kannaki turned her face she saw her guru sree Lakshmi. sree lekshmi is an acclaimed classical Indian dancer all over the world. sometimes kannaki thinks that their meeting was a miracles. considering kannaki's family financial conditions they cannot even afford to send her school. but one day lekshmi mam found her dancing with the beat of drum in a festival. from first move till last one lekshmi admired a younger kannaki and asked her family to let her join the school. after long talking and persuration her father accept dance school. but still kannaki was destined to have a bad faith... during the day of her first performance she lost her mother in an accident. even though she is an innocent victims like other her father blamed for her bad luck is the cause of her moms death.till now she remember his words, " a sparrow cannot became an eagle your mom's death is a reminder to you from God so stop dreaming "her moms death and her little sister at that time just a toddler stoped her from attending dance School. even now when ever she get time she try to dance in front of nataraja and always ask "Lord why I am this unfortunate".but it is still a secret to other. for the world kannaki is rough and arrogant.

"kannaki" one more time her master called. but this time she snapped out from her dream world.

"yes mam".. she replied

"dear what happened. why are you always zooming out" asked the older lady

"nothing mam just this and that ....nothing serious "replied kannaki.. even though she new her guru can read her like a book she intended to keep quiet like always...

"i know kannaki something is bothering you, remember dear the people around are her to help you out"

also lekshmi knew kannaki never say anything since she was a little child. try to find solution all by herself. insted asking further lekshmi said " remember everyone face problem and God give everyone the ability to overcome it. . . it is up to you whether you want to face it or flew.my prayers are always with you and remember even if everyone one in the World crucifie you I am here for you. okey dear now it's time to start class"..

"okey mam thank you".. kannaki hugged her master and bow to touch her feet.

after mom's death kannaki saw her teacher as her mother sree lekshmi also consider kannaki as her own even though she never gave birth. so before any big decision kannaki visited her teacher and God nataraja . for kannaki "kalamadapa" the dance school is where she studies to walk. . this is where she consider as home.

she escale deep breath and with a definite smile and strong decision kanaki walk past the front gate of kalamandapa.