Snowfall

chapter two

By the fall of 1863, the war had dug its claws deep into Virginia. Fields lay fallow, fences torn down for firewood, livestock confiscated by one army or the other. The roads were choked with refugees, wounded soldiers, and deserters hunted like dogs. What had begun as distant thunder two years earlier now roared overhead every day.

Elijah Harper stood in the Whitaker barn on a chilly October evening, lantern light flickering across the rough-hewn beams. He wore the gray jacket of the 18th Virginia Infantry, faded and patched, the brass buttons dulled by months of marching. Three days’ leave was all they’d granted him—barely enough time to walk home from the train depot in Richmond.

Amelia was stacking firewood against the back wall when he slipped inside. She froze at the sight of him, arms full of split oak, eyes wide. The wood clattered to the floor as she ran to him.

He caught her, held her so tightly he felt her heartbeat against his ribs. She smelled of woodsmoke and the faint lavender she still kept in her drawers. For a long moment neither spoke; words seemed too small for what they felt.

“You’re thin,” she said finally, pulling back to study his face. The boyish roundness was gone, replaced by sharp angles and shadows under his eyes. A new scar traced his left jawline—thin, pink, still tender.

“So are you,” he answered, voice rough. He brushed a thumb across her cheekbone. “You been eating enough?”

“Enough,” she lied. Rations were scarce; her father traded what little corn they grew for salt and coffee. Meat was a memory.

Elijah glanced toward the barn door. “Your pa know I’m here?”

“He’s in town till tomorrow. Trying to sell the mule.” Her mouth twisted. “Union quartermaster might pay Confederate scrip if he’s lucky.”

They sat on a hay bale in the corner, shoulders touching. Elijah pulled the silver locket from beneath his shirt and opened it. The tiny photograph of Amelia was cracked across one corner, but her face still smiled out at him.

“Kept it through everything,” he said. “Chancellorsville, Gettysburg, all of it. Thought it might bring me luck.”

Amelia touched the locket gently. “Did it?”

“Got me home to you, didn’t it?” He tried to smile, but it faltered. “Though not for long.”

“How long?”

“Train leaves day after tomorrow. Back to the Army of Northern Virginia. They say Grant’s coming south soon. Big fight shaping up.”

Amelia’s hand tightened on his. “Then we have tonight and tomorrow.”

They talked until the lantern burned low. Elijah spoke carefully of camp life—the endless drilling, the bad food, the way men sang hymns around campfires to keep from thinking too hard. He told her about the boy from Albemarle who played fiddle so sweetly it made grown men cry. He did not mention the screams after battles, the piles of amputated limbs outside field hospitals, the smell that clung to everything.

Amelia told him about home: how the Yankees had taken the last of their hogs, how the church ladies knitted socks for soldiers until their fingers bled, how she woke some nights certain she’d heard cannon in the distance.

Later, when the barn grew cold, they spread an old quilt on the hay and lay together fully clothed, sharing warmth. Elijah traced the line of her collarbone through her dress, memorizing her the way a drowning man memorizes air.

“I’m scared,” he admitted into her hair. “Not of dying, exactly. Of leaving you alone in this world.”

Amelia pressed her palm over his heart. “Then don’t leave me alone. Come back, Elijah. You promised.”

“I’m trying.” His voice cracked. “God, I’m trying.”

Outside, wind rattled the barn doors. Somewhere far off, an owl called.

The next day they stole every moment they could. They walked to their river spot, though the willows were nearly bare and the water ran cold. They held hands and spoke of the future as if it were certain: the orchard they’d plant, the porch swing, the names of children they hadn’t yet conceived.

At dusk, Elijah gave her his most treasured possession—a small leather-bound journal he’d kept since enlisting. Inside were sketches of camp, pressed wildflowers, and letters to her he’d never mailed for lack of postage.

“Keep this safe,” he said. “If I don’t—”

“You will,” she interrupted fiercely.

He kissed her then, long and slow, pouring everything unspoken into it. When they parted, tears tracked silently down her cheeks.

The following dawn, Elijah shouldered his musket and knapsack outside the Whitaker gate. Amelia stood wrapped in her mother’s old shawl, clutching the journal to her chest.

“Write when you can,” she said.

“Every chance I get.”

He started down the road, boots kicking up dust. After twenty paces he turned back. She was still there, small and straight-backed against the rising sun.

“I love you, Amelia Rose,” he called.

“And I love you, Elijah Harper,” she answered, voice carrying clear. “Always.”

He nodded once, turned, and marched away.

Amelia watched until he disappeared around the bend. Then she opened the journal to the last blank page and wrote in careful script:

October 17, 1863

He came home for two days and two nights.

He is gone again.

I will wait.

I will always wait.

She did not know then that the next time she saw Elijah, he would be wrapped in a blood-soaked blanket, carried on a makeshift stretcher by strangers.

But the river kept flowing, and promises—stubborn, impossible promises—kept breathing in the dark.