Snowfall

chapter four

Amelia Rose Whitaker did not die on a battlefield, but the war killed her all the same—slowly, piece by piece.

After Elijah’s death, she moved through the days like a ghost. She cooked, cleaned, tended the few chickens that remained, but her eyes stayed fixed on some distant point no one else could see. Her father, lost to grief and whiskey, barely noticed. When Union forces fully occupied the county in early 1864, he decided they could no longer stay. They sold what little remained and joined a wagon train heading north.

Amelia carried only two things of value: Elijah’s journal and the silver locket that now held the gold ring as well. She wore it always, hidden beneath her bodice, the metal warm against her skin like a second heartbeat.

They settled in a small Pennsylvania mill town, where the air smelled of coal smoke and the rivers ran black with dye. Amelia married at twenty-two—not for love, but because her father was dying and the storekeeper, Daniel Ross, offered security. He was kind in his quiet way, never demanding more than she could give. She bore him two children: a son in 1869 and a daughter in 1872. She taught them to read using Elijah’s journal, though she never explained why her eyes filled with tears at certain pages.

Daniel died in 1898. Amelia lived on, keeping a small garden, baking bread for neighbors, attending Methodist services every Sunday. She never spoke Elijah’s name aloud again, but every Christmas Eve she walked to the nearest river—frozen or flowing—and whispered the same words into the dark.

“I’m still waiting.”

She passed in the spring of 1918, carried off by the Spanish influenza that swept the world like a final battlefield scourge. On her deathbed, fever burning bright, she clutched the locket and smiled at something only she could see.

“Found you,” she murmured. Then she was gone.

The locket went to her daughter, then granddaughter, then great-granddaughter, passed down with vague instructions: “Keep it close. It belongs to someone special.”

Souls do not linger long in the space between lives. Elijah’s moved quickly after the snow-covered road in 1863—drawn, perhaps, by the strength of the promise. He was reborn in 1867 in a Maryland farming family, grew up strong and quiet, married young, fathered four children, died in 1942 of heart failure while plowing a field. In that life he dreamed often of a girl with auburn hair by a river, but the dreams faded with age.

Amelia’s soul followed different paths: a nurse in World War I who tended soldiers and felt inexplicable grief at every young face; a teacher in 1930s Chicago who collected river stones; a young mother lost in the London Blitz who clutched a child and whispered apologies to someone whose name she couldn’t remember.

Each time they were born, lived, loved others in smaller measures, and died—always near water, always with a sense of something unfinished. The locket stayed in one family line. The journal, lost in a house fire in 1923, became only memory.

Centuries turned. The world changed beyond recognition: steam engines to automobiles, telegraphs to telephones, lanterns to electric lights. Wars came and went—some larger than the one that had separated them first. Virginia’s battlefields became quiet parks where schoolchildren picnicked. The James River kept flowing, carrying silt and secrets southward.

In 1990, in a Boston hospital on a warm July morning, a boy was born to ordinary parents—Sarah and Michael Hayes. They named him Ethan James, after no one in particular. He came into the world crying loudly, fists clenched as if already fighting for something he couldn’t name.

From his earliest years, Ethan was drawn to water. His mother laughed about how he’d sit for hours at the edge of any stream, skipping stones with unnatural skill for a toddler. At night he had dreams: smoke and fire, a girl’s voice calling his name, the sting of snow on his face as he fell.

He grew up kind but restless—good at school, better at drawing, best at being alone. He dated girls who liked his quiet intensity, but nothing lasted. There was always a hollow place no one filled.

At fifteen, on a family trip to Virginia to visit Civil War sites, Ethan stood on the banks of the James River and felt something shift inside him—like a lock turning. He didn’t cry, didn’t speak. He simply stared at the water for a long time while his parents called him to lunch.

On the drive home he asked his mother if she believed in reincarnation. She laughed, thinking it was teenage philosophizing. His father said reincarnation was for Hindus, not good Irish Catholics.

Ethan didn’t argue. But he started reading—books on past lives, regression therapy, reincarnation research. He filled notebooks with fragments of dreams: gray uniforms, a silver locket, the name Amelia Rose.

By twenty-five, the dreams had become flashes—vivid, painful, undeniable. He saw himself dying in snow, felt the promise burn in his chest. He knew, with a certainty that terrified him, that he had lived before. That he had loved before. That he had lost before.

And that he had sworn to find her again.

On Christmas Eve 2015, at age twenty-five, Ethan sat alone in his small Boston apartment, snow falling outside just as it had that fateful night in 1863. He held a cup of cocoa he wasn’t drinking and spoke aloud for the first time.

“I remember now,” he said to the empty room. “I remember you.”