Cursed
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Chapter 1
Alpha Erubas
Rays of sunlight pierces through the window, and I squint my eyes open, trying to adjust to the morning brightness. My bones are too weak and lazy to rise from the bed.
Casting a side look on the bed, Lisa is sleeping peacefully beside me, and I bite my lips as nervousness ran through my veins, draining the color from my face.
Sitting up on the bed, I try to touch her, but I remove my hand again as many thoughts flood my mind. What if she's dead, just like others? I just hope it doesn't happen.
I finally muster courage and reach out for her face with my hand trembling nervously. My hand finally reach her face, and I gulp down nothing.
"Lisa... Wake up, it's morning already," My voice cracks as I tap her cheek gently, while hoping that things don't go bad as always.
"Lisa... It's morning," I utter for the second time, tapping her cheek, but she only lay there like a log of wood, while still having her eyes closed. Now that I look at her closely, she looks a bit paled like she has been sick for a long time. Even though I already know what is happening, I still convince myself that it's not the case. I do not want to believe that she died too.
"What are you doing, Lisa? Can you wake up already, please?" I grab her hand and try to pull her up this time, but she's so heavy that I can barely raise her. Her hand is as cold as ice, which only mean that she doesn't have a life anymore. Still finding it difficult to believe that this happened again, I put my fingers on her chest to feel her pulse, and she's really not moving.
"s**t!" I curse under my breath as I run my fingers through my hair. How could this happen to me again? Just yesterday, we were rejoicing here in the pack that I was mating her, and now she's no more?
I stand up from the bed and quickly wear my robe which was lying carelessly on the floor where I threw it last night that I was about to mate with her. I remove the duvet covering her naked body, and use it to wrap her body, before I pick her up in a bridal style. I storm out of the room afterward.
I walk briskly down the verandah, praying silently that miracle happens later. This can't happen again.
I finally arrive at the priest's doorstep, and I barge in without waiting for him to usher me in, after I announced my presence.
"Alpha..."
"I'm in trouble, Ares. You need to do something, please," My heart beats rapidly against my chest as I drop her on the floor, turning to face Ares, who has an unbothered expression on his face.
"Are you listening to me at all? She's dying, can you do something, please?" I scream at him.
"You shouldn't try to save her, Alpha... She's already gone," He releases the bombshell, and my heart sinks into my stomach. Yes, I was aware of it before I brought her here, but I was hoping that he would be able to do something about it.
"Wh... What are you saying? You need to do something!" I yell at him, even though I know that there's nothing that can be done about it. If he could do something, then maybe the ones that died in the past wouldn't have ever happened.
"I'm sorry, Alpha," He shakes his head.
Slowly tilting my head to look at the lifeless Lisa that's lying on the bare floor, a drop of tears slid down my cheeks. My knees suddenly become so weak, that I fall on them when they can't carry me up anymore. My hand tremble as I tuck the strand of hair on her forehead away, revealing her beautiful face. How wicked of me to have killed this innocent lady that did nothing but love me? How could I be so heartless to have harmed her?
"I... I... I told you I didn't want to do this... I told you I didn't want to take any life again, but you talked me into this... Why?" My lips tremble, and my voice cracks as more tears stream down my cheeks. Just what have I done to deserve this from the mood goddess? Why would she punish me this badly? I regret being an Alpha... I regret being born into this world. How would you feel, knowing that three women have died because of you? Miserable, right? Well, I feel more than miserable right now. I thought this was all a joke in the first place, I thought Ares was just being stupid when he told me that I was cursed and destined not to never have a mate, but he was right.
First, it was Emily, the woman I loved so much with everything in me, but she died the same way. She couldn't live to see the next day of our wedding. Then the second one was Amy, who died immediately after I consummate our marriage, and now, Lisa, all in the space of five years? I know you would wonder why I kept mating them knowing this would happen, but I just wanted to live like every other werewolf, I just wanted to have a mate and live a normal life like every other Alphas, but turns out that I have been greedy and selfish all along. I only thought of myself and never about the innocent lives that was going to be lost.
I am Alpha Erubas Xander, the thirty-three years old cursed Alpha of Crescent Pack.
"You need to calm down, Alpha..."
"Will you be calmed if you had killed so many innocent people?" I cut him off, while holding Lisa's lifeless body tightly to myself.
"It wasn't your fault, but fate..."
"Don't try to make me feel good, please. This would've been avoided if I didn't insist on having a mate... This wouldn't have happened if I was not so desperate to be with someone," I cut him off, feeling guilty.
"Just break this curse already, please... Just set me free, please," I cry painfully, as if he can help me out of this situation I am in right now.
"For how long is this going to happen? For how long do I have to continue to live like this?" I yell at him for the umpteenth time, while he just stares back at me helplessly.
I stare down at Lisa's body as it slowly disappears and soon turn into ashes, leaving behind the duvet I had used to wrap her body.
"Forgive me that I can't do anything about this, Alpha," He says to me, but I am just too weak to say a word to him. I am broken, my wolf is broken, I can feel him struggling inside me, just to be fine, but this is just too much on us. Losing three mates in the space of five years is something disheartening.
"I will give up, Ares... I won't ever be with any woman for the rest of my life. I can't take anymore innocent lives," I feel my wolf growl in pain as I utter those words. I know he doesn't like the idea of us staying forever without a mate, but it seems like that is the only thing we can do for now. We can't keep hurting innocent people to satisfy our desire.
"But, Alpha..."
"I accept my fate, Ares... Don't try to convince me," I cut him off...
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