FIRST LOVE

Episode Three

I didn't say it too instantly, still. Yeah, kinda. That was the scotch talk. No. Come on. What? Come dance with me. You have to dance with me. I don't like dancing. And nobody else is dancing. But you're so good at it. You're forgetful. How so? It's our anniversary. I'm sorry. I... I was just... Give me a happy anniversary.

21 years. Hm.

I love you, Kay. Happy anniversary.

I love you, too.

Does

this change anything?

What would change?

Nothing.

I love you. Do you

want me to do your hair tonight? No, thank you. Do you think you'll see Jim this summer? Why wouldn't I? Well, I just, I don't know, I thought, you know, with you heading off to college, I didn't know if you'd start thinking about that. I'm so proud of you. I mean you couldn't have gotten into a better program.

There's gonna be um exciting new teachers and new people. Why are you saying this? I'm just um

You seem unhappy. I thought it might be because of Jim. I don't want your happiness to depend on just one person, especially a boy. You know, I remember your grandfather gave me this gorgeous set of china when I was your age. And he told me, I'll never forget it, he told me that I didn't need a man. I didn't need to get married in order to have nice things.

This whole new life is about to start for you. Do you hear me? It couldn't be brighter. A world of... Possibility and experience. I just, I don't want you to miss out. I want you to be available for all of it. No

looking. I don't want it to look bad. You're not supposed to control it. That's the point. I

love it. My turn. How should I look? Just like that.

I got into school. Where? New York. That was your first choice? Mm hmm.

Congratulations. Hey, we should celebrate. You want to do something? I'm telling you because I didn't know what it meant for the future. What do you mean? For us.

I don't get it. We'll be apart.

What do you think?

I'm sure it'll be hard, but we can call and plan trips. If you want to. You don't? I don't know. I guess I hadn't planned this far ahead.

We don't need to figure it out now. It's a long time away, right? Yeah. Yeah. I just want to keep things light.

What does light mean? Easy.

I handle our taxes, and I know that we've already filed for two extensions, but um, I'd like to discuss the possibility of a third. There is no third. And given that, we're now going to have to look into things. I understand.

Is that last year's return? Uh, yes. Can I see this? Don't

need that. Or that. I see copies. And a bank statement. Is your husband sick? Why is he not working? He was laid off last fall. He's searching. They're trying to get him back to work. If he's not sick, he needs to find a job. Anything. I understand that. But a minimum wage job would cancel his unemployment. Even a minimum wage job would look better on the record than things do now.

Well, we're hoping to find something that would be equal to his history. Sure. Look, we need to see a strategy how you'll get out of this. We need to see clear attempts. Have you considered downsizing? Moving, I mean?

Yes.

It's been six months.

How would you feel if, if I got a second job?

Why? I looked at our budgets for the fall and, um, I just think it would be easier on all of us. I've got more callbacks this week. I know, I know, I know. It's just, you know, plan B.

Are you scared? No. What is it, then? We just need to have a plan in case... Things don't get better? At least for a while.

Okay. What do you want for dinner? Nothing, I'm fasting. What? I'm fasting every Sunday now. They say it's good for you. Well, I don't like that idea. Well, what do you like these days, Kay?

We need to talk about making big changes.

We're not selling the house. We agreed. If change doesn't come soon, we will have to. Let's just not jump the gun. We might not have a choice.

What do we have to offer them now? We can't protect them. Jim should do like Casey. Get as far away from us as possible. Is

Ann home? No, she's not. Did she know you were coming over? No. You know when she'll be back? Hey, Mom. I was just telling Jim that you were going out. It's okay.

Hi. I

just wanted to see where things stand.

I don't know. Things are, um...

Can I call you?

I guess.

We're done. Yeah, you don't have to say it like that. I care about you. We had fun. Is that all this was to you?

Where is the pleasure in life, which is unmixed?

Where is the glory which on earth has stood firm and unchanged? Mother of the never setting sun. Preserve them that set their hope in you. That repose may be granted her that now is departed.

Oh, I, uh, didn't tell you, but I got an internship through my dad. You did? Where?

Payne Waterhouse in New York. Payne? No way. Congratulations, man. Man, I can't wait. Starts in three weeks. Three weeks? That's soon. Happy for you. What about you? UCLA. Why didn't you tell me you got in, asshole? That's awesome. Thank you.

I'm gonna keep on running, you know. See how I do.

Forget her.

Forget her, man. Yeah. Yeah, I will.

Hey! Hold on, man. I got a question for you. Yeah? What?

How'd you get in that panties? Huh? Damn, bro, I mean... It's your advice. I've been trying for weeks now. I haven't gotten anywhere. Oral or nothing. You two, you two did it, right? Oh, wait. Hey. Hey! What's wrong? Stop! Get off me! Stop it! Get off! What is wrong with you?

Party was a drag. Oh yeah? Was Anne there? No. Hey, son. Um, your mother and I were talking. And, uh... We were hoping to discuss something with you, but if now is not a good time. No? We've been looking to simplify things, make things easier for all of us, so we've decided to sell the house.

We're moving? Well, your mother and I are moving, but we'll be starting at UCLA. Mm hmm. It really doesn't change anything for your semester. Okay, so where are you gonna live? We haven't figured that out yet, but don't you worry about us. You keep your head down, you focus on your studies. That's what's important.

You okay? Mm hmm. You sure? Yeah. You want me to make you something?

I'm okay, I'm tired. Wanna go to bed? Okay.

Any for your thoughts, son? Nothing. I'm fine. Come on. I can read you like a book. What's going on?

How are you and Ann?

I'm sorry.

I don't know what to do now. You know? I keep wanting to call her.

Yeah. I know the feeling. Let's just give it time. How much time?

If it's meant to be. She'll come back. And if not?

You, uh, drink coffee now? I feel like you have to in college.

So how's the work search? It's fine. I do odd jobs here and there. We're lucky your mom has the position she does. Mm hmm. Anything I can do to help? Nope. Don't worry about us. We just love having you here. I

should reach out to Uncle Randall. Maybe he has something. No. People don't answer your call when it's like this. They know why you're reaching out. Your poor mom. Her brother hasn't even called over here since this started. The van lives 20 minutes from here. You just cut her off.

Family can be cruel.

None of this is your fault.

Of course it is. Whose fault is it?

So how you holding up? Trying to find happiness in the little things. Sometimes the really little things.

It's hard to watch your dad right now. He says everything's fine. He won't spend a dime on anything.

Scared me the other night. He said, um, They're worth more dead than alive.

Well, that's a lie.

Not for him to see that. You know, he just feels like... He

feels like he disappointed you and Casey. But all things turn out, you know. Want

you to take this, Mom? What's this? I sold a computer and some sports stuff, so... Oh, no, no, no. I don't want this. Please, Mom. I don't want you to go selling stuff. I want to. And you don't have to tell Dad. Just take it, please. I want to help. Hey. I'm so sorry. It's been

a long time. I was just listening to the album you made me and thought of you.

I want to tell you that I'm sorry I did what I did. You must hate me. I've grown since then.

If you ever want to talk again, I'd like that.

Hello? Hi. Hi. It's good to hear your voice. I don't hate you. That's nice of you. There we go.

Cheers. Cheers.

So what's the latest? Caught up with Anne.

Like Anne Anne? Yeah. Did you do the thing again? We were just talking. Has it been good? Yeah. Okay.