***Ivy***
I sat here writing in the small notebook that Dr Cater gave me last week; she told me she wanted me to write down my feelings at the moments they happened. She wanted to know how I felt, how it affected me, and my thoughts to why i felt that way, We go over them every time i go see her, Butch sits in with us now, I have only had that one meeting with her alone and since then she had Butch in there and i will say it helps, with him there i dont feel so hidden I can open up and talk to her more and give more of a explaintion to why i had those different feelings,
We talked about my bond with Butch and how I felt it was different from what I felt with Brandon, When i was done I was like a light switch had gone off in my head, but then i felt so stuipd for thinking the way i had b
