Secret Lovers

THE AWARDED TICKET

- Come here. - Felipe pulled me to the front porch, after dinner I thanked him for saving me from my mother's constant interrogation. Already

it was all disassembled: no heels, no expensive, sexy clothes. I got into sweatpants and a loose T-shirt and braided my hair.

I sat with him on the porch, each in a rocking chair, looking at the lit garden in front of us and the moon shining in the sky. Even the air in Brazil is

different, more pure, with a smell of nature.

- It's great to come home. - I turn to him.

- Yes wonderful. Tomorrow I want to show you everything I've already managed to prepare for the wedding.

I don't get excited about it, but I smile.

- Yes, tomorrow. Today I'm just dust. Completely ground. I hate to travel. "I get up and sit on his lap, cuddle up and lay my face on his shoulder.

- I have something to tell you. Or rather, show. - He speaks after a while in silence, making me imagine that it is something like: "invitation templates". Felipe has courage for both of us at this wedding.

- What? - I inquire without giving importance. I'm really tired and my thoughts are in my bed.

- I go to a club. The one I told you about.

I pull into my memory something related to the subject and I remember it vaguely.

- Queen of Hearts. - I mean.

- No. Lady of Hearts.

- Does not make sense.

- What?

I pull my face away from his shoulder and look into his eyes.

- The name. The correct one is Queen and not Lady, of the suit of the deck.

- It's just a fancy name. - He laughs, pinches my nose and mends: - I didn't call you here to discuss the name of the club.

- OK. - I'll put my head back on.

Felipe starts stroking my hair and I close my eyes. This calmness is wonderful, with no worries about concerts, rehearsals and interviews; listening to the crickets in the garden and a tasty cafune in the head. There is no better life.

- As I was saying, I participate in this club, and there will be a party there on Saturday. I want to take you.

I look up a second time. This caught my attention.

- Party? I do not know. I came to be quiet at home and not show up at events, at least for now.

Felipe laughs and makes a negative gesture, shaking his head.

- Not any party. It will be the fifth year of the voyeur special. It will be like intimate meetings of couples or just watching the performances of others. I squint my eyes. He had already told me aloud that he is a voyeur. He has a hard time seeing other people having s*x. It was normal for me to hear that. s*x is something that encompasses a lot and, really, I am an open-minded person for s*x, in fact I am almost an addict, if there are three things I love most: s*x, feminine luxury items and playing the cello.

- Um ... I don't know. - I reflect a little - A bitching party ...

- Lav, I know you're open-minded about s*x ...

- Just ordinary s*x, Felipe.

- Yes I know. But ... I don't know, I kept thinking a lot and I have a fantasy that involves you.

- Me? A s****l fantasy? - My lips start to open in a smile of pure irony, because I didn't expect to hear something like that. he never told me that he has a fantasy for me to perform.

- Yes. That's why. - He reaches into his pocket and takes out something like a gold card. - This is a winning ticket. I won.

- Were you at that club? - I look at the note and at him. - Doing what?

- Yes. But I only watched it, that's what I do when I go there alone. I don't touch anyone.

I nod and take the note from his hand.

The beautiful, well-drawn letters say: “King of Clubs for a day”.

- What is it for?

Felipe gets excited and announces victorious:

- I won a day with everything paid for. I will be able to enjoy anything from the club, I will be able to take companions and I will be able to request any of the employees or even of the members to serve me, as I want, I will give the cards, I will be like the owner.

- Look how nice it is! Drink released?

- Yes. All cleared. At the club we pay a monthly fee, but several things there, which we consume, are added to the account to be paid at the end of the month. And as I and three others won the winning ticket, it will be all on the house.

- Then I'll go with you, of course I will. Felipe gives a "yeh" celebrating and kisses me. I kiss him back and lay my head back on his chest.

- Tell me more about the club.

- OK. - He clears his throat and starts telling me how it works. As each member enters only by invitation, what are the rules and when can someone be

banned from the club ...

The club has a quartet of members and a majority who would be the owner of the club, Felipe does not go into these details, since I am more interested in hearing about the social hall he mentioned. Where orgies take place.

People having s*x in front of everyone. But there are also private rooms, which do not have showcases to be observed, just to make the couple feel at ease. I liked these. Despite being very modern, I don't know if I have the courage

to venture into this world of perversity.

Having s*x with people looking at me ... must be disturbing. I am a woman who needs to maintain her appearance, maintain her good image

girl, although I think it is wrong, we live in a patriarchal and sexist world in which women are constantly labeled and judged for their most banal acts. People have the terrible habit of labeling women who are independent and

likes pleasure, s*x or parties. This for a man makes him experienced, since the woman becomes a w***e. I keep my cases in complete secrecy, away from my professional life.

Before I started dating Felipe, about a year ago, I was totally against relationships. I really just wanted to have fun; and s*x is something that really moves me. I really love it, and I, being Lavínia Torres,

I could very well choose my partners for the night. I am already thirty, I am resolved with my life, my body and my choices. Therefore, these perverted things that I can find in the club do not scare me.

- Would you have s*x with three? - I focus on Felipe's voice again. His hand

it goes up and down slowly on my leg.

- Threesome?

- That.

- I do not know. I mean, I was already curious, but being with two men. I don't know if I'd run into a woman.

- No?

- Ah, Felipe. I'm really female. I like man. I think I would totally lose the l**t.

"So would you have s*x with another man and me?"

Without looking up to face him, I keep thinking about the possibility. Of course, I was already excited when that chance came to me, I even had this conversation with Pedro and Isabelle and they both think they would like to try it one day.

- I think so. Depending on the occasion and if the preliminaries made me want to continue.

He shuts up, clears his throat and as I know him, I know he's a little embarrassed about telling me something. Finally, he takes courage and says:

- What if it's one at a time?

- Like this?

- You would have s*x with a guy ... randomly ...

"Hmm." I look up and squint, waiting for him to continue. Felipe clears his throat again, coughs falsely and is clearly embarrassed.

- Would you do it? - Reinforce the question and I notice that he is very serious.

- Are you wondering if I would betray you?

- No. You know what a voyeur is, don't you?

- I know, so what? - The tension took over my body and I can't hide my distrust.

- Would you f**k a guy for me to watch? - He asks at once in a single breath. I didn't jump off his lap or slap him on the face. I just went silent, with an expression of shock, as he looked at me a little apprehensively, waiting for the answer.

Have I heard of it? Several times. He tells me about the voyeurism cases he participated in. But now, including me on the roll, the thing is in

another level.

- Our. Then you took it hard. - I mess with my braid, thoughtfully - This is very strange ... seriously, man. Very bizarre.

- But it's a fetish. It's a fantasy. What if that was what I wanted? Would you like to ...

"First," I interrupt, "I would never do anything without being interested, just to please a man sexually." The woman has to please herself first. I care about my pleasure and giving pleasure.

- I know that. Of course.

- Second, it's not like that, like a p**n movie. The person arrives shakes hands and is already kneeling in front of the guy's fly.Felipe laughs.

- You are awesome. - Kiss the top of my head. - But if that happened, of course there would be a conversation with the person, the three of us would be in a reserved place, just the three of us, just me watching you. And there are rules, such as not having intimacy, not knowing about the personal lives of both those involved. - That is, it is as if it were casual s*x on a first date.

- That. It is like when two people meet at a party and, if they are attracted, go to the next step. Or are you one of those who don't have s*x on the first date?

- It never occurred to me, but I believe I have a choice of not accepting, making candy or being wanton.

- Then think about it. We are going to the club and I will introduce you to someone there. He is totally discreet, he has been working there for years, he always does that, I always watch him and I can say that he is totally professional.

- Call boy?

- No. Club employee. I can try an hour with him.

- Do you have to make an appointment? - My eyebrow raises in bewilderment - Are you a luxury kid?

- That's more or less. But as I have the winning ticket he has to serve me. The only difference between this and the ménage is that in the ménage I would be with you in bed. I laughed when I imagined that the man really had to serve me, if I accepted. I think this idea, although strange, very modern. There is the

swing, which is the exchange of couples. It is enough for the two to be in agreement. I think about it a lot. I think if it were something that made me feel comfortable and attracted me, I would definitely try.