My name is Elle Astrid Hernandez. Spanish/Filipino. 21 years old. Born and raised in Barcelona, Spain. But my family and I migrated here in Sydney, Australia 7 years ago. I have 2 sisters. Olivia Avery and Lara Jeanne.
About 5 years ago we met a family that invited us to go to church, Louise's family. Louise Dee was my sister Avery's best friend here in Sydney. At church, we met the boy I liked for 4 years, Elvo Jeffrey Santos. and his cousin Criz. and for 5 long years, we were close friends.
Despite me having feelings for Jeff and him knowing it didn't ruin the friendship. I wasn't expecting that he'll return the feelings or whatever, anyway. and I know that I'm like a little sister to him. He's 3 years older than me. Anyway, it didn't ruin anything we stayed friends.
Sleepovers, movie marathons, going on beaches, long drives, videos edited by Louise, Gym buddies, etc. The 5 of us did everything together. We were happy and reckless.
Then the most tragic thing happened.
ADULTING.
One by one each of us got jobs and got really busy. Louise received a job offer in Milan, Italy as a Graphic designer. Criz got a job while still finishing Civil-Engineer Degree. Jeff got a job at Heinneman and might be looking for a promotion to be an HR manager. Avery got an offer as Food Nutritionist Assistant while also finishing her study. And I got a job at Qantas Airways! My job includes traveling a lot which I love the most.
Anyway, while we slowly drifting apart, I notice Jeff and my sister Avery has been hanging out a lot with just the two of them. My sister was well aware of my feelings for Jeffrey. So when I started to notice and feel things were happening between them. I started letting go of my feelings for Jeff
My sister and I talked and she admitted that she's having feelings for him as well and that he also likes her. So I had to really give up, I meant completely give up my feelings for him. I told her I completely understand and support them and that's a truth. I said I completely moved on from Jeffrey so many times before but after the talk with my sister, I guess that's when I realized that I cannot ever in a million years have feelings for him ever again.
It did hurt but both of them likes each other, so can't compete with that. But I guess what really hurts the most was whenever they hang out they felt the need to lie about it whenever I ask where they've been.
I felt like I wasn't their friend anymore, I mean I kinda understand the whole 'they didn't want me to get hurt' kind of excuse. That's what everyone says. But for me, it's easier to just talk to me and tell me the truth. We've already talked anyway, I'm not against it. They know that, but they still chose to break my heart for lying to me, their friend and her sister.
When I got the job at Qantas Airways that's when those issues happened. So I signed myself up to that international thing at the company where they can send me to work in a different country.
Few months after the issue with my sister. I got sent to Melbourne for work training and classes. I spent almost half a year there.
While I was in Melbourne, of-course with work training and classes I realized something good came out from what the issue with my sister. I got out of my comfort zone. We've lived in Sydney for 7 years and those 4 people were my only close friends. I've never really gone out with other people.
I just turned 21 years old and I've never gone out for a date. Because I've only looked at one guy and it turns out he's looking at my sister.
I've longed to move out, to live on my own, to experience that whole living on my own thing and finally it happened.
I mean the first couple of months in Melbourne on my own is horrible. I miss my parents, my mum going in my room every night with vitamins and water and kiss goodnight, free food that is almost always ready when I get home, not paying rent, and of course them.
But hey I'm experiencing it.
INDEPENDENCY.