It's been a week since that happened and I haven't heard from him. Joel said he left. My heart ached and I knew why. I pushed him away myself. I pushed him away so why am I hurt? No woman wants to be a hooker. I never dreamed of that. I love him so much and it will only stay that way. If I have to lie all the time, I will do it just to keep him away from me forever. So it's a good thing he's gone so I can go back to my normal nervousness. I am a sinful woman. I grew up disowned by my mother. Growing up with so many judgmental people around me. I can live alone. I can live without a man. I can take good care of myself. I accepted my own mistake and walked away. Saturday, my day-off. I thought of taking my son to the market. We only do this once in a while and now is my chance to bond wi

