My ex is my soulmate

Chapter five - Telling them everything

Ally's POV:

Already one week has passed since Austin came here. I won't lie, it wasn't easy for me. We haven't done anything, but I feel bad. We even went to a party, but he acted a bit weird. I don't know why he walked away like that. Maybe someone has told him something. I have to say that the movies were a mistake. We used to cuddle a lot, but this was before. Now, it's awkward. I chose one of our favorite movies to make him feel better. I don't know about him, but I felt bad. I didn't want to break down in front of him, but so many memories came to my mind. We had a great relationship and I won't lie that I still miss everything that we did. That's why now it feels weird. We could try to be friends, but that would be impossible. I will never be able to look at him only as a friend. For me, Austin will always be something more. When we were still dating, we used to spend a lot of time together. Maybe this is the reason why it's so hard now. I can try to distance myself from him. It won't be easy, but this is what I can do. At least until I figure out what we are. I don't know how he feels, but it's visible that for both of us it's awkward sometimes. I would gladly move out, but I have nowhere to go. I can pretend that he doesn't exist, but I feel like I will fail. Austin was the best thing that has happened to me since I met my two best friends and I want us to have good relations. 

I woke up and saw that Austin was still sleeping. I carefully got out of bed and went into the bathroom. After all, I don't want to wake him up. When we were dating, I used to wake him personally. Well, only when we were sleeping together. Then he tried to get mad at me, but it never worked. No matter what I do, he will never get mad at me. Neither me at him. Now, everything has changed and I don't know if he will react the same way to things as before. It passed enough time for a person to change. 

I walked back into the room and looked at Austin. He is still sleeping cutely. I know that it's creepy to watch how someone is sleeping, but I can't help myself. I sat on the ground in front of his bed and looked at him. You have no idea how badly I wanted to kiss him, but I won't do anything. I slightly rubbed his cheek and saw how he moved. I quickly got up and went to change myself. I put on a shirt and started looking for my pants. Where did I leave them? I looked up and saw that Austin was awake. He chuckled, which made me confused. Then I realized that I was standing in front of him with only a shirt on. I quickly found some pants and put them on. 

- You don't have to hide. I have seen less. 

- That was before. Wait, when you have seen less?

- When we were swimming. I have to say that you haven't changed. 

- Um... thanks. I don't know if this is a compliment. 

- Yes, something like that. 

I made my bed and sat on it. I pulled out my phone to see if anyone had searched for me. There were no missed calls or unread messages. I still haven't told my parents about Austin. Mostly, because I don't know how they will react. As I was checking my social media, Austin came and sat in front of me on the ground. 

- What?

- Do you have plans for the day?

- No, why?

- Now you have. 

- I won't go out with you. 

- I am not asking you. 

- Austin, I don't want to go anywhere with you. 

- Why? Because it's me. 

- Not only. I planned to go out with Macy. 

- Can you stop making excuses?

- I'm not. I will text her.

I sent Macy a message, and she said that she would go with her best friend, but I am invited to join them. The same is for Austin. It's not what I wanted, but it's better than being alone with him. I started getting ready and noticed how he looked at me. I don't need to give him explanations. Moreover, we are not dating, so he doesn't need to know where I go and with who. This is not his business. 

- Where are you going?

- With Macy.

- I asked where not with who. 

- Go get ready. You are invited as well. 

- Ok, give me five minutes. 

When both of us were ready, we walked out. We met Macy and Toby in the backyard. There is a door through which you can go to the town. I'm glad that we can go around the town. I don't want to stay only at the university. I have no idea where we are going, but I think that my friend has a plan. I saw a smirk on her face. Let's hope that I won't regret this. I don't want to be rude, but if she is only going to talk with her best friend, I will go back into my dorm. It looks like they completely forgot about us. Soon we arrived at a shop. It looks like a craft store. 

- Can I know what we are doing here?

- I want to decorate my dorm. - Macy said

- You mean your part of the dorm. - Toby said

- Same thing. 

All of us walked inside. It's not like I will buy something. I will only look around to see what people sell here. On almost every item it said that it was handmade. That's a lot of effort and time. If I was this talented, but I'm not. I looked at Austin who was standing by the door. He looked bored. I walked up to him, and he looked at me. 

- Hey, are you ok?

- No, I'm not. First, they completely ignored us and second, we are watching how your friend is shopping.

- Maybe the rest of the day won't be that bad. 

- Well, you'll find out. 

- What do you mean?

- I am going back to our dorm.

- Wait, you can't go. 

- Just watch. 

- Austin!

- Leave me alone. - he said and left

Great. Just great. What do I have to tell them? I'm sorry, but he got bored and walked back to our dorm. I don't want them to feel bad. Soon Macy came with a bag full of things. 

- Where did he go?

- To our room. 

- Why?

- I don't know. 

- Ok, let's go. The mission failed.

- What were you planning to do?

- I wanted to leave you and Austin for a while, but I guess that it won't work. 

- Please don't do this ever again. 

- Why?

- Just don't. 

Nothing else was said. Our next stop was a fast-food restaurant. Macy wanted French fries. I only ordered juice. I don't understand why Austin left. It's visible that it's not because of Macy and Toby. Maybe it was because of me. He could've said no to the invitation. I didn't force him to come with us. Toby went to take our orders, and Macy used the chance to talk with me. Maybe I have to tell her everything. I'm not mad at her for what she did. I mean that she doesn't know what is going on between us. 

- Ally, will you tell me the truth? What is going on between you and Austin?

- Here you go. Your food. - Toby said

- Thank you, sir. I'm so hungry. 

- How long can you keep a secret? - I asked

- Long enough. Why?

- Because I can tell you everything, but I don't want the whole university to know about this. 

- Ok, we won't tell anyone. 

- That includes Austin as well. 

- Our mouths are shut. - Toby said and Macy chuckled

- Austin is... he is...my ex-boyfriend. 

- What? - both of them said in sync

- Yes. He went back to our dorm because he was bored, but I'm not sure if this is the real reason. 

- Now everything makes sense. - Toby said

- It's just hard for me to stay in one room with him and pretend that there is nothing. Especially when I still love him.

- Why did you two break up?

- Because both of us were stupid. We let one argument end our relationship. I said some things, he too. We realized what we did after we did it. None of us meant any of these things, but it was too late. I hadn't seen him until he came here, which is more than three months ago. 

- Have you tried to talk with him?

- No, I couldn't do it. I thought that he would be mad at me. If I had known that he would be here, I would have chosen another university. 

- But you didn't.

- When that time came, we had already broken up.

- Look, I don't want to say it, but it looks like you two still care for each other. 

- Why do you say it?

- Ally, do you want to know why Austin left the party? - Toby asked me

- Yes, but how do you know?

- I'm not sure that this is the real reason, but it looked like that to me. 

- Ok, I'm listening to you. 

- Austin saw you when this boy tried to do something to you and got angry. I don't know what happened next, but it was visible that he didn't like it. You two might not be dating anymore, but this doesn't mean that he has stopped taking care of you. 

Austin got jealous? I can't believe it. Why didn't he tell me anything? Now I understand why he was so weird. If this is the real reason, I have to say that it's sweet. Well, I didn't like it when I saw a girl around him, but I wasn't jealous. To be honest, I was hoping that something could happen so he could be happy again. 

- Toby, are you sure about this?

- I already told you. There is no other reason why he would react like that. 

- It's ok. Thanks. 

- Look, I think that you two have to talk. - Macy said

- I know, but I don't know what to tell him. 

- Tell him how you feel. I'm sure that he will respond the same way. 

- I don't know. I think that it will be better if we stay away from each other, or at least for now. 

- Why are you hurting yourself? If I was in your place, I would talk with him. 

- What? Since when do you like someone? - Toby asked, which made me chuckle

- I said if I was in her place. I don't like anyone. Well, except you, but you are my best friend, so that doesn't count.

- Thank god.

- Ally, without talking, you two will never be able to understand each other. I know that it's hard for you, but don't you want to know how he feels?

- I do, but I don't think that he will tell me. 

- Why are you so sure? You need to be more positive. 

- Can we talk about something else? I don't feel comfortable talking about this. 

- Sure. If you want, we can go back to university and sit under one of the trees. 

- Why not?

- Ok, let's go. 

All of us went back to university. Soon we arrived, and I noticed Austin under a tree. It hurts me seeing him like that, but I can't do anything. He doesn't talk much, so I can't help him. Toby said that he would talk with Austin. Macy and I sat on the ground. We were close to them, but not enough. It's better if we don't listen to their conversation.

- Macy, can I know what is going on between you and Toby?

- Nothing, why?

- Because he looks very protective of you. 

- He has been like that since the day we met, or since we became best friends. I don't mind it. I like that there is someone behind my back. That way I know that I won't fall. 

- Are you sure that he doesn't like you?

- Positive. I mean not the way you think. I helped him once with one date, but it didn't end well. Toby never told me what happened, but it was visible that something went wrong. I know what you are trying to say, but he is only my best friend. I can't look at him the other way. It's weird. 

- Not more than Austin and me.

- You two need to talk.

- One day this will happen as well. For now, I will try to keep it friendly. 

- If that is possible. - she chuckled

Later, Toby and Macy went into their dorm. I walked to mine, but Austin wasn't there. I am starting to think that he is avoiding me. Maybe it's better if we stay away from each other. It's visible that we can't talk normally, or be friends. I don't want to change my university just because of him. Somehow, we'll find a solution. With some luck, he might find a girl and I don't need to worry anymore. Well, probably I won't be completely happy, but at least I will know that he has moved on. I don't want us to argue or be mad at each other. If I didn't have feelings for him, this would be easier. What I can do is wait and see what will happen to us. I am hoping for the best.