I hear a steady beeping coming from somewhere in the distance. It sounds like a machine. Opening my eyes, I look around I see a room in all white. I try to move my arms and the beeping becomes faster. I take a few deep breathes and continue scanning the room. I see my sister asleep in a chair. I try to speak but the words won't come out. Only a scratchy noise that hurts my throat. She shakes awake and looks at me. Getting up she runs over to me “Hi, can you hear me?” I shake my head yes. “Hi. I was so worried!” I try to talk again. But she shakes her head “it's fine you don't have to talk; I just am so glad you are okay. If I would have lost you, I don't know what I would have done” A single tear runs down my cheek.
She reaches for the tear and wipes it away. “Do you remember anything” she pleads. I shake my head yes.
“Let me get a nurse, maybe she will let you eat or drink some juice” she leaves quickly and brings an older nurse back in with her. “Hello sweetie, you took quite a spill. Do you think you are ready to eat or drink?” I squeak “yes” “alright, we will start out with some juice and see how that works out…sound good?”
“Yes” I realize the less I speak the less pain I feel. I try to move but notice I'm in more pain than I thought.
“You broke a few ribs, your face was pretty cut from the glass, also there were some other cuts to your arms and legs. You were in a coma for 3 days, and for good reason. Your body was trying to heal itself” I sigh. That would explain the pain I feel in my abdomen. The nurse sits me in an up position and hands me a glass of apple juice. Also handing me pills I take both and swallow. My sister looks content that I am awake. What the heck happened… “The last thing I remember was screaming and bright lights” “you climbed out of your car after you wrecked. Which was in a way good because the car caught fire when the police and ambulance arrived."
“Work” I speak. “Your boss is aware of the situation he stopped by yesterday to check up and see your progress”
“he is a nice man” the nurse states with a sparkle in her eye and I feel a slight pang of jealousy hit me. But I had a feeling she just thought he was attractive. Not that he wasn't. I feel myself blush…
“We will keep you overnight to continue to monitor you and if you feel better tomorrow, we can talk about you going home” I nod. I feel a haze fall over me and realize the nurse gave me some pretty heavy pain meds. Trying to keep my eyes open I fail and let the darkness come.
I feel the bed lower back down and the nurse shuffle out of the room. In my dreams I keep reliving the crash… how could I be hit so hard. I was just turning into the parking lot. It wasn't a busy street. I try to remember if I saw a car approaching. Then it hits me in my dream when I look forward, I see a truck a driver who I don't recognize speeding towards me through the parking lot which caused me to ricochet backwards flipping in the process. My heartbeat monitor speeds up and my eyes fly open. My sister returns to my side. “It's okay”
“I don't want to sleep, I keep seeing the crash” “it's okay, I'm here. You need to rest so you can come home” she frowns. I close my eyes and try to ignore the image trying to slip back into my brain.
The next time I woke up the sun was shining on my face. I turn my head to look around the room and I see my sister and her boyfriend standing at the door. He is hugging her, and she looks sad. I cough. She looks over at me and walks away from him. “Hi” she tries to smile but I can see the worry in her eyes. “What's wrong”
“Nothing, I just don't like being in hospitals…” “I'm sorry” I look down. I remember what it was like when we found our mother.
We sat in a hospital for days before the doctors gave up. I sigh. “I'm just glad you are okay” she grabs my hand lightly rubbing my hand trying to avoid the iv and heart monitor cord. “When can I go home?” I ask trying to move. “We are hoping today but we shall see. Everyone wants you out of here”
“I need to get back to work and take care of Bella” “Your boss just wants you to take your time and Bella is fine, when you have been asleep, I go home and take her for a walk. She is worried sick about you” I frown. The nurse walks in checks my vitals “you are looking a lot better. Your face and ribs are going to take some time to heal but other than that you should be good to go home. You will be getting a prescription to help with the pain and prevent any infections "she takes out the iv and disconnects the heart monitor with a quiet beep… I sigh. I get to go home.
I get to sleep in my bed and see Bella. I miss my floor and my mom's clothes. The nurse leaves and my sister walks up to the bed holding a duffle bag. I look at her, “here are your clothes, go and take a light shower and change so we can get out of here” “will do captain bossy” she laughs lightly and looks at me. I move slowly grabbing the bag and shuffling into the bathroom. Taking off the robe the cold hits me and I shiver in pain. I see my body in the mirror covered in bumps and bruises. I wonder how many stitches I had to get. I avoid looking at my face and see the big bruises encircling my ribs. Reminder to self; need to be careful. If only I had a big burly man to take care of me, I scoff to myself