Damned

Chapter 6

The last two months of living in the mountains have been a blur. Drinking from the lake of purity, eating wild berries. What Angel had done hurt more than being stabbed on a battlefield. I don't know why he betrayed me and left me to be taken. I wonder day in and day out what would've happened if I stayed. I also know he kept trying to find me cause I got the tug from our soulmate bond to let him be pulled to me. I have been out here for two months and because I have given no answers back he could think I was as good as dead. He did stop trying and just sends the tug once to twice a week now just stating he misses me. But I think it's just to get me out of hiding if I am alive and to them I'm not. Not mentally at least. Living out in the sacred forest has taught me alot. Not having someone manipulate my powers and having no one holding me back. I learned alot about my powers and I'm still trying to get them under control. I made myself a bed in a cherry blossom tree high enough to see the rest of heaven. I take baths in the waterfall of youth that flows down between the two mountains into a stream that flows into the lake of a purity. I only go to the lake at night since it seems everyone is in bed by night.

As I enter the opening of the overview of the lake I hear two people giggling and laughing. I stopped in the shadows of the trees and looked out as the moonlight bounces off them. My heart sank and tears formed in my eyes. I watched Lucifer, my Angel, kiss and say I love you to someone else. I am officially forgotten about. I was about to leave when I heard Atticus holler over at him with Lilith clasping his hands. From here I could see their energies and knew that Lilith was Atticus’s soulmate. Together their auras created this reddish-gold around them. I became numb. I put this thought in my head that maybe they were all after me in the end. As I was about to walk back deep into the forest Lucifer's light shone through the trees and before I could run Atticus was in front of me.

I just stood there as I became numb with emotions. The switch finally flipped and I no longer felt, no longer starved, no longer cared. I looked up and met Atticus’s eye level. He was stern and asserting dominance over me. I took a deep breath and stood tall, chin held high and beckoned him to speak first. I felt Lucifer’s presence as long as Lilith’s behind me and that skank Lucifer was with. I then felt Lucifer grab my shoulder. As he placed his hand on my shoulder I whispered a chant I learned in the forest and my body became ice. His hand started to freeze up and I swung out of his grasp. I was about to break the icicle of a hand he had when Lilith swung at me. I flew back avoiding the hit and surged up a ball of energy and swung it at her. The energy melted the ice on Lucifer's hand but burnt them both up badly. I stayed in a dominance stance etching them to keep these attacks coming. Atticus finally spoke out.

“Evelynne, Is that you?” Then they all went out of a fighting stance and stared at me hard. I slowly went out of a dominant stance. I looked at all of them, nodded, then flew out of there. I heard them all screaming and shouting for me to come back but I kept going. I realized they were following me now so I flew higher above the clouds where all the pretty colors of the night skies were. I heard them below me trying to find me.

When I came across my home I dove into the window and ran into the bathroom. I locked the door and started the bath water. When I entered the steamy water I realized how disgusting I was. I took a bath three more times until the water stayed clear. I finally felt normal and at peace with my inner self. I grabbed a black robe off the door and quietly entered my room to find Lucifer and Atticus in there waiting.

I closed the bathroom door and leaned against it waiting for them to speak or leave. Atticus moved to block the bedroom door and Lucifer blocked my window. I sighed and sat on my bed beside Lucifer who was sitting on the window sill. As soon as I sat down I was crushed by Atticus’s grip as he was hugging me. I didn't know what to do so I just sat there and let him squeeze harder and harder. When he finally let go I felt all my bones he just broke pop back into place. He looked at me horrified. He just broke that many bones by a hug but i was just laughing at the pain. Lucifer came down off the window sill and stood beside Atticus. Atticus’s face was long and filled with sorrow.

“Evelynne, I thought you died… So when I told mom that I was most likely the cause of you getting killed she left heaven and got herself killed by a demon.” I stared at him for a few minutes before speaking and processing everything.

“I’m sorry for your loss” was all I managed to say. All I felt was nothing still. This just made it more bitter and easier to not want to feel. He looked at me in disgust.

“Do you not care at all that our mother is dead? What the f**k is wrong with you. You're as useless as when you didn't have powers,” He began to walk away “By the way, this home isn't our home anymore. Pack your shit.” Then he left. I turned my head to stare daggers into lucifer. He has not kept his eyes off me this entire time. I got up and went to grab clothes when he grabbed my hand. A wave of energy burst through my veins coursing into my brain. Then I saw everything and how it had to go down. This was all part of the plan to get Atticus thrown out.

When the memories that Lucifer provided to me finished he was gone. But I knew what had to be done and what had to happen. I grabbed some random clothes and then packed everything I needed. I flew out my window and saw Atticus in the training field. I lowered myself down to meet him.

“Atty… I’m sorry I just… I was gone for two months, it seemed no one cared to even find me. And when I saw you again I panicked. Then you told me about mom and it's too much to process all at once. I’m sorry I can't be a better sister but I'm trying. Atty, I have nowhere to go. Can I please stay with my big brother till I find my own place?” he turned around swiftly with a surprised look on his face. I haven't called him atty since we were 5.

“I miss you calling me that… of course you can stay with me. I'm also sorry for taking my frustration out on you. I know this is a lot to process all at once. I love you Evly.” I smiled and nodded and as he motioned for me to follow him.

We entered Atticus’s home and he led me up the stairs to a room that seemed like it was an apartment. It had its own kitchen, a gathering room, and a hallway leading to a bedroom. All the windows were facing the front of his home. I turned to speak to him as he just stood there and nodded.

“Yes Evly, this is your own complex. You may have guests over. I'm putting full trust in you. Don't make me regret it.'' Then he turned around and left. I walk over to the windows and realize there's a balcony where the bedroom is. I quickly run to the bedroom and go out on the balcony. I see Angel walking up the stairs with Lilith. I slowly back into the bedroom and start to unpack. I want to keep myself distracted and busy.

An hour went by and I finished unpacking everything. I looked around and realized I needed furniture so as I was leaving, so was Lucifer. He looked mortified.

“What's got you so terrified looking?” He looked at me startled and then began shaking his head as I heard the moans clear as day started to echo down the hall. “Oh, let's get out of here.” He nodded and practically dragged me out of there at super speeds.

Once we entered outside he grabbed me and flew up above the clouds as the northern lights danced around us. He let me out of his grasp slowly as my wings guided me across from him. He took my hand and didn't let go. We stayed up there hand in hand watching the lights. He then came a little closer and stared down on me as the moon shone through the lights making them radiate a goldish tone. I slowly turned to meet his gaze. His blonde hair swaying in the breeze as his eyes lit up to an amber color against the moonlight. The scar on his eyebrow practically dissipated in the light. His pink lips trembling as his wings glowed a red hue. His skin has a silver aura in the moonlight. He was gorgeous in the sun but in the moonlight he was unspeakable. Nothing I could do or say make him look or feel more real than to actually touch him and know he isn't part of the imagination. He kept inching closer and closer into me. His body radiates more heat than the sun. I could feel his breath on my neck and I started to get weak. I wanted nothing more than to feel his touch again to feel his hands travel across my body, sending goosebumps to every nerve. I wanted my Angel back. The one I've loved for so long. The one I could never get out of my head. Just as I was about to give in and feel his lips against mine again, I remembered. Remembered the betrayal, remembered him with someone else. I stopped him and pulled away. As the lights danced around us I just stared at him as tears started to leak out of my face. He rushed over and embraced me. Holding on and whispering in my ear it'll be okay, I'm always here for you. But if he really meant that then why, Why did he do it? I know he showed me a bunch of memories telling me why but was it true? Did he manipulate my mind like the one lilith learned in class?

When I finally got the tears to stop and the courage to ask he just stayed still, staring into my eyes and never breaking eye contact. When he spoke it was calm and collective yet loving and painful.

“My dear sweet piccola, I never once wanted to hurt you, I never once wanted to put you in a position where you question my every doing. Amy means nothing to me. She's just someone I feel I could trick your brother with into thinking we are soulmates so he won't suspect us hanging out. And before you say anything like but you thought i was dead so why would you hang out with her type of thing… I always knew you were alive, I always knew where you were. Did you really think I wouldn't go out to find you? I searched top, bottom left and right for you. I would not rest till I found you. Then one night I couldn't sleep. I went to the purity lake and saw you floating watching the lights as the moon shone down on you. You were absolutely gorgeous and I was about to make my presence known to you when I heard you sobbing. I stayed hidden and followed you through the forest to the cherry blossom tree. I watched you cry yourself to sleep. I went up there and held you and kept whispering in your ear your safe now and you have an Angel always watching over you. I went back every night so you wouldn't be completely alone.” I listened to him intently and realized that's why after 3 weeks of me missing, the bed I made in that tree was oddly warmer in the morning, Why I did always feel more safe and secure. But, why didn't he just make his presence known? Why did he keep me believing I was forgotten about? I looked at him as the questions swirled around my head. His eyes glowing amber into mine as my soul boiled with anticipation. He took my hand and guided me towards him his wings wrapping into mine as we slowly plummeted down from the clouds and lights. The wind making me collide with him into one form as his lips breached mine and the spice berry purple once again puffed out all around us. My lips on fire with his touch my body slowly grinding against his. His hands now pulling my hair back as his other was caressing my cheek. We finally landed in the lake of purity as the sun was setting. The water surrounded us, suffocating us, but the touches I felt from him our tongues entwining each other was everything I needed. He was my air. My light. My life. My soul wanted to be fully bound to him. He finally let go as we swam up to the surface holding onto each others hands. We swam ashore and watched the sun slowly disappear as the moon started to shine its beauty through heaven. I looked over at him as he stared down into my eyes. His eyes twinkling with lust and love. He smiles down at me. His white teeth glistening. Just as we where about to collide with each other once again we heard Atticus and Lilith running up the path. We stared daggers at each other to try to come up with a plan.