Eros Remorse shunted through me as I stood at her closed door, begging to be let in. What had I done in my jealousy? Why didn’t I believe her? She had saved her virginity for me, and I destroyed everything between us. “Anacá, please, can you open the door once? I’m sorry.” I waited, but there was no response from inside. Did she lose consciousness? Guilt ate me up. How did I let the monster in me take over? All my life, I had lived recklessly with no one to teach me a thing about relationships. I f*cked available who*es who expected nothing but a rough ride. It had become a habit only to fulfill my needs, but tonight was different. Anacá was my wife, my better half. She didn’t deserve this. I had let my jealousy control my mind and body. How did I stoop so low? I had waited for so

