Chapter 006
1036 Words
Elsie's Pov
My mind was racing with thoughts as I let my phone slide down onto the bed. My hair was an utter mess, I could still feel the throbbing in between my legs.
"No, no, this can't be happening." I let out, grabbing the sides of my head in panic. I couldn’t believe I and Adrian...
No, no, no...I couldn’t even process the thought.
My heart was pounding loudly in my ears as I dashed into the bathroom to wash off event from last night off of me. But the more I tried to forgot about what had just happened, the more distraught I became.
Memories from the previous night kept crashing into my mind like waves.
Geez, how could I have slept with my own step brother. I splashed water onto my face, breathing fast. I reached out to something to hold onto as my legs were threatening to give way.
"This...this isn’t real, Elsie. You didn’t sleep with Adrian, you couldn’t have slept with Adrian." I said out loud, trying to convince myself.
But the text message from him had confirmed it, the bite marks on my necks, my swollen lips...they all confirmed what had gone down last night.
I quickly had my bath and got dressed. There wasn't any extra clothes for me to wear so I had to repeat the clothing I had come into the hotel with. I had no idea how I'd ended up in the hotel, there was no memories of that. The last thing I remembered was falling asleep after I came.
I felt my inner thigh tighten at the thought Adrain hovering over me, the feeling of him inside of me.
"Focus, Elsie." I forced myself to snap out of it even when all I wanted to was to sit back and reminisce about last night. I could still feel the warmth of his touch, his lips against mine, the way he moaned in my ears and held me like I was the only thing that mattered to him in the world.
Despite all of this, I knew this feeling was wrong and what we did last night was wrong.
I swallowed the guilt and headed out of the hotel. The ride I booked back to the house took was taking forever. Eventually I arrived at our house, but I couldn't bring to myself to walk into the house.
I knew who and what was waiting for me. I summoned courage and walked into the house. Fortunately, my mother and step father weren't in, that meant, I was all alone with Adrian...again.
I felt a light swelling in my throat. I smelt him, even before he arrived, his cologne was registered in my memory now.
"Elsie." His voice boomed across the room.
I couldn’t tell why but for some reason, I felt anger simmering just above the surface the minute Adrain appeared in sight.
When he tried coming closer to me, I screamed inside my head to step back away from him, but my body stood rooted to the spot. The air in the room had become taut, I was struggling to breathe.
My irritation at what we had done was rising gradually in my chest. But a conflicting emotion was overwhelming me. I still craved for his touch.
"Elsie...I'm..."
"Why didn't you stop?" I said immediately, cutting him off.
"I...You..."
"You knew I was drunk, yet you take advantage of me."
"Elsie, i begged you to let me go, but you insisted."
"I'm your step sister!" My tone was rising with every word, "what if our parents find out, what do you think it would do to them?"
"Elsie, what's the matter with you? You were literally all over me last night, it's not like I wanted this to happen either!" Adrain spat out. I could see the regret etched in his gaze.
"Look, let's just pretend this never happened."
Did I hear pretend? I just f****d my own step brother and he here he was asking me to pretend like it never happened. Maybe that was easy for him to do, but for me, I couldn’t pretend that we never kissed and made intense love to each other, the memory was too burrowed in my brain for me to 'pretend to forget'
"Look, none of us was in the right frame of mind when it happened. It was a mistake. I'm sorry I got wrapped up in my emotions, you were just too tempt..." he caught himself before he could say the remaining words.
He reached out to grab my hand but I moved to the side.
The last thing I wanted right now was to feel the warmth of his touch.
"I'm really sorry about..."
"There is no need to apologise." I said, my emotions battling to overwhelm me. My eyes stung with tears as I ran straight into my room.
"Of course, there isn't." The defiant tone, the same one he used whenever he spoke to me returned.
"You practically begged me for it. I tried comforting you after what happened with Ryan, but you turned it into something else."
My eyes bulged after he said those words, he wasn't even holding back.
"Look, Elsie, you just have to accept that what happened has happened. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would wish that I hadn't tried to comfort you."
The words stung me harder than a bee's sting would.
If he could turn back the hands of time, he wouldn't wish that he had slept with me, he wouldn't wish that he had allowed me to get so drunk to the point that I couldn't think straight. He only wished that he hadn't tried to act as a brother for once and comfort me.
I nodded my head as the thought of it grounded me. I turned back around and ran straight to my room.
"Elsie, wait." I could hear him calling after me but I ignored.
I slammed the door shut and jumped onto the bed as I bawled my eyes out. For some reason, I thought Adrain would come knocking on the door. He didn’t.
I cried until I found it hard to breathe again.
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