Impossible Love

9. Date Out

Mira’s POV

It was Friday after work when I finally decided to talk to my mother about going out over the weekend with my friends. My mother is a no-nonsense kind and I knew it wasn’t going to be easy to convince her. Jay had asked me earlier if I had confirmed our day.

After supper, I approached mum and talked about it. I told her I had something to do in town too, so that she wouldn’t say no. Honestly, I wanted to join them. I didn’t want to miss out on whichever fun they were planning on having.

My request came as a surprise to my mum because I rarely go out with friends when I am at home. I actually didn’t have friends from around, so she was a bit reluctant about letting me go. I finally convinced her to let me go when I told her they were female friends from work.

After a long conversation with mum and a lot of caution, she let me go up to rest. I wanted to send a message to Jay to inform her about the following day, but I decided against it, and instead I informed Ally. I don’t know why she makes me so nervous. It’s not that she doesn’t have my number already! I roll my eyes at how dumbly I was behaving right now.

Ally texted back letting me know the time we are meeting tomorrow and that she had already told Jay. As always, her nosy ass wanted to know why I didn’t let Jay know myself, or I didn't have her number. I had to remind her to mind her f*****g business. She can irritate you to death sometimes. How does Jay survive this woman all day?

Being tired from work, I rested early, knowing tomorrow was going to be a long day. I was so excited about it for some reason unknown to me. The fact that Jay would be there with me made it feel great. I wouldn’t go if she was not going. That was for sure.

On Saturday morning, I woke up a bit earlier than I usually do over the weekend. I do my laundry because I might be out all day and tomorrow I will be in church, leaving no time at all. I was so excited that even my mother saw it, and my little sis teased me about going on a date. I smiled nervously, thinking to myself, wishing my boyfriend was great enough to take me out. What if it was a date with her? Damn it, why am I even thinking like this?

Since the day I saw Jay drooling over me, I have been thinking about it a lot. I keep asking myself if whatever I was suspecting was right or not. I keep getting her staring at me and every time I catch her she smirks at me or smiles, which I end up returning. I knew I was playing with fire.

I don’t know why I did that instead of reprimanding her. She is always complimenting me when I get to work. Today you are so smart, you look so beautiful. It’s all she says, but one could tell it’s not all she wanted to say. She was all I was thinking about while preparing myself. My lips curved into a smile at their own will.

Maybe I should put on that black dress today and see her reaction. Without any hesitation, I picked the dress from the closet and put it on. Why am I even thinking about her this way? I never do this, even with my boyfriend. That is absurd! I walk to the mirror and I take a look at myself, pleased with myself. I am so sexy. It was stunning. The dress is gorgeous and the way it hugged every inch of my body, showing my curves. I could tell why they reacted that way.

I was done, and anxiously waiting for them to pick me up. It was past the agreed time, and I was growing impatient every minute. Thirty minutes had gone by, I now thought they were not coming and didn’t have the guts to tell me.

After almost an hour, my phone buzzed, it was on the stand in my room. I picked it up quickly, my heart was racing thinking they had canceled our day out. I saw it was a text. I unlocked the phone and when I saw who sent the text I froze. Jay.

Are we going?

She finally texted me. My heart was pounding in my chest. Why am I acting like that? It was a mere text message! I stood there staring at my phone not knowing I had stared for so long until it buzzed again. It was her again.

Are you ready Mira, are you coming? Did your mum change her mind?

Shit, she thought I was not going and the way I was excited. I got out of my frenzied state and managed to reply,

I will be right there.

I guess they were waiting for me on the road. They couldn’t come home. They have never been to my place.

I took my handbag and rushed out shouting “I will see you later,” to mum and my siblings. Before I was out of the door, I heard mum shouting back, “Don’t stay out till dark Mira, it’s not safe.” "OK Mam". I found them waiting for me on the road near our home.

Ally was the first one to see me. I don’t know what Jay was doing on her phone. When Ally whistled, Jay looked up to see what was happening. God, the look in her eyes made me weak to the knees, the smiles they wore on their faces. I would give anything to see them again, especially Jay’s smile, which was priceless.

Ally reached to hug me first and then Jay gave me a tight hug, she held on to me a bit longer than usual, and her scent was left on me. I love this scent. Her spray fragrance is strong and sweet. Ally gave us a side-eye and I smiled silently and wouldn’t dare say anything. They complimented me and even made a joke that I would steal all the show.

I got you today too, I see. When I looked at them, they looked stunning. Ally was in a white sun dress with red floral patterns and Jay was in some black jeans, a white V-neck T-shirt which hugged tightly on her toned body, showing off the muscles in her arms, and white sneakers. God, she is so cute. Does she work out? Those toned muscles are impressive! I was tempted to touch them. I have never seen her in fitting tops, her tops were always loose.

We were going in Ally’s car. It was Jay who was going to drive us since she was the one who knew where we were going. I was about to take the back seat when Jay opened the co-driver's door. The look in Ally’s eyes was priceless. She winked at me and went to sit in the back.

I just hoped in blushing crazy. The way this lady treats me leaves me with a lot of unanswered questions. The fact that she doesn’t treat Army or Ally the same as me makes it weird. Could it be that she likes me? I couldn’t help but think about it again. I have had suspicions about it, but every time I push it out of my mind because it seemed impossible to me.

How could it be that a woman likes me? I am straight and I have a boyfriend. I have heard of same-s*x relationships mostly back in high school. There were a few cases, but I never witnessed one. There were rumors. I have seen quite a number of movies though, so I am not that green about it, but personally, I haven’t seen it with my own eyes. I assumed it was only in the movies. I always thought I was overthinking, but as days went by I felt like it could be true.

I didn’t know I was looking at her all this time. I was lost in my thoughts. It was Ally who touched me from the back seat to tell me. Jay asked about what we wanted to do first. Oh s**t, this time I was the one who was caught staring. I was embarrassed when I saw the smirk on Jay’s face.

We agreed to go have something to eat first because it was almost lunchtime, and then we could go to the park. It was a one-hour drive. We reached the restaurant Ally had suggested to us. I had never eaten there. Jay pulled up, and Ally and I got out while Jay drove off to find a place to park the car.

She was back in a minute. Ally led us in and we found a place to sit. Jay pulled a chair for me. I sat in the middle of them. Everyone ordered food of their liking. I asked for spicy chicken marinade and some fries. When Jay saw my food she said she wanted to taste my chicken, before I could say anything she took the piece I was eating and started munching on it.

When I looked at Ally she had a smirk on her lips but didn’t say anything she knew better not to. I just watched as Jay was eating with a smile on her lips as if nothing happened. She’s enjoying this, isn’t she? I smiled at her when she caught me staring and I went back to my food.

We ate while talking. The food was so sweet we enjoyed it. When we were done, we tried to pay, but Jay beat us to it, saying it was her treat. All this time, Ally was smirking and smiling crazy. What is with this one today? She is behaving weirdly! I just rolled my eyes at her. We left for the park.

In the park we found a spot to sit, we had bought snacks and we were enjoying ourselves while sharing stories about our lives. Ally is the crazy girl in this circle. Her stories were weird and crazy. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Sometimes it took a few glaring warnings from Jay for her to filter her words and hold on to the stories that I guess I shouldn’t hear. Why is she always protecting me?

Jay shared her story and I found out she wasn’t dating anyone at the moment. She talked about her family and her friends, not forgetting her daughter. Most of them she had shared with me, I guess she was saying because of Ally, although she didn’t share everything she had told me. I was happy to know that she trusted me. I then shared, although not everything because of Ally.

Afterward, we went to play games around the park. It was past 5 in the evening when we decided to get back home. I was riding in the front seat with Jay. She paid for everything today. She said it was her treat. I couldn’t help but admire her, she treated us so well today, and I felt so lucky to have her as my friend.

While she was focused on the road, I found myself watching her. She’s a careful driver. I like that. My mind wandered to why she hadn’t shared anything about her past relationships, not even with me. I had shared about my ex-boyfriend with her at some point, but she didn’t. What could have happened in her previous relationship, she had said her relationship ended a few months ago.

She’s so cute to be single. Was she dating a guy or a woman? But what guy can really manage her? She seems more independent and to need a man in her life. But what if it was a woman? I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t realize we were already at my place.

Jay parked by the road for me to get off. Before I could open the door, she was already at my door opening it for me. The way she’s treating me is making me feel things in my heart. My poor heart was a mess. I got out of the car and said goodbye to Ally, who was looking at me like I was some awesome show.

Before I could get on my heels, Jay told Ally to wait for her for a minute. She wanted to talk to me. I halted in my tracks, then Jay led me a few meters from the car. When we were far enough she began talking.

“Mira, thanks for coming with us. I hope you enjoyed yourself?” the smile she had while talking to me, and that soft voice. Damn it Mira, hold yourself.

“I should be thanking you really Jay, I couldn’t have gone anywhere if you didn’t come up with the idea. Thank you and yeah I enjoyed every bit of it.” I couldn’t hold the smile that was plastered on my lips. I saw her eyes lit at what I said.

“I actually wanted to talk to you. Could we have another date out soon, just the two of us?” Jay said nervously. I know she was tense. I tensed up too with the thought of us alone.

“Why?” I blurted out before I could control my mouth. She looked sad but masked it so quickly.

“I have something very important to talk to you about, but it’s okay if you don’t feel comfortable.” I could feel the sadness in her voice. I felt bad for making her feel sad. It wasn’t my intention. Why does it bother me so much to see her sad?

“I have to go to town next weekend to get my glasses. Maybe you can take me? I said without thinking twice. I was going to ask her to accompany me anyway.

“Really? It will be my pleasure to go with you.” She was so excited and I could feel the sadness in her had disappeared. She hugged me abruptly and whispered in my ear.

“Goodbye Mira, it was awesome spending time with you outside the hospital.” I could feel her hot breath on my earlobe. I was a mess from blushing when she let me go. Holy s**t! Why does she do this to me? Why is my heart racing like this? I knew Ally was watching us, so I composed myself and turned to face them.

Jay was almost in the car when I called her.

“Jay, thank you. I really had an amazing time with you.” I turned on my heels, as I waved them goodbye. I saw Jay grinning ear to ear, the smile she flashed my way was priceless, she was watching me as I walked away waving back at me. That look in her eyes was something else.

I walked home all smiles. When I got home, everyone was watching me suspiciously. I had to excuse myself. I didn’t want to answer their unasked questions. I went and lay down thinking about her, the strange woman who was messing with my heart. I admitted to myself that her cuteness was strikingly amazing. I watched her the entire ride back home. What is wrong with me? I felt like I was losing my mind. “And my heart,” I said to myself in a whisper.