Mr. Blue and Me

Day 50: Ocean Blue Eyes

I left the building running...I got into my car and started the engine...I was driving without knowing where I was going...I light a cigarette and keep driving...on my way to my unknown destination I was thinking about what happened the last few hours...

After an hour or so I find myself heading to a beach...I pull over and I get out of my car...I take my purse and go sit on the sand...suddenly my phone rings and wakes me up from my thoughts...I pick it up

"Hey...where are u" stella asks

"On a beach..." I answer

"On a beach??? Why? Didn't u got to Mr Asshole??"she asks again

"I did..." I answer

"And??? U don't sound well" she mentions sounding concerned

"I'm not..." I answer and my voice breaks a little since tears start falling...

"What did he tell u???" She asks...I don't answer for some seconds and I finally start sobbing...I tell her what happened and she stays silent for a moment

"What are u gonna do now?? " she asks socked

"I don't know!!! I'm confused" I answer while lighting another cigarette

"Confused why?" She asks confused as well

"Because when he kissed me I felt things..." I admit

"Yeah...anger,frustration..." she says

"No...I felt my heart racing..." I correct her

"Yeah because u were pissed!" She insists

"No!!!! " I yell

"Alexa...get it together! He is damaging you!!!! He messes with your life just for kicks! u can't be feeling something positive about this guy!!!" She says with a serious voice almost shouting

"I know!!!! But I do...and it's killing me" I admit And my voice breaks again

"also u have John...who is the best bf ever!!!" She reminds me

"I know it,god dammit!!! He is the best thing that has ever happened to me...I don't wanna ruin it!!!" I reply

"Then don't! Get your s**t together and come here...u need distraction!!!" she says

"ok I'll come..." I inform her

"That's my girl" she says and hangs up

After a few minutes I get in my car and return to the university

                     ~Α few days later~

Everything was running smoothly...Anthony hasn't bothered me much except from a few messages begging me to go talk to him and some phone calls...of course I was ignoring them and I wasn't showing up at his lectures

This Saturday our university orginises a party at a local karaoke club and of course me and my crew will be there...I love karaoke and my friends too...so the Saturday came and at 21.00 I was ready and leaving my house

Outfit: a flouncy light blue top that falls low on the shoulders, wwhite,high-waisted pants and light blue pointed on the front heels...Plus a little mascara,eyeliner and some lip gloss,with my hair left to their natural curvy shape

21.15: I arrive at the club and I get in to find my friends and boyfriend

"Alexa here!" I hear Emma's voice and I turn to look at her...she's waving her hand and I go there

"Hey" I say smiling and I hug everyone...John's friends are there too

"How are u doing?" Stella asks whispering when I hug her

"Holding up" I reply and I go to hug and kiss John

"Missed you these couple of days,doll" he mentions

"Yeah,sorry,cowboy, I drove to my mom's yesterday to pick up my cats,now that my house is finally done and I stayed in to make sure they are fitting in the new place" I reply apologeticly

"I understand! It goes without saying,that I'll come to see them!!" He says

"U can come tonight if u want to" I tell him and I wink at him

"I'm already there,doll" he smiles and kisses me...

We get a drink and we enjoy the "party"...of course there are those who can't sing,but their careless mood entertains the people in there...finally it comes my turn and I run on the stage

"Hello y'all!" I start

"I'm Alexa and I'm gonna sing Gorgeous by Taylor Swift" I say and the music starts playing...as I sing,my friends dance and sing with me,but suddenly I see Anthony coming closer to the stage watching me...

"Ocean blue eyes,looking in mine,I feel like I might sink and drown and die" I sing while staring at each other...luckily no one from my crew sees that...after that verse I continue the song...

"...I think I'll just stumble on home to my cats...alone...unless u wanna come along..." I sing at the bridge of the song looking at John and winking...I continue at the refrain and then the song ends...my friends clap like crazy and whistle...the crowd screams demanding more

"Fine fine...another one and then I'm going to my friends..." I say and I talk with the DJ for the next song...

"Ok...now I'll sing a personal favorite...Don't play by Halsey" I notify them and the music starts...after I finish the song I get off stage going to my crew

"Why didn't u tell us about that voice???" Kate asks

"I hear her regularly though..." John says proudly making my friends frown and look at me weird

"What??? I sing after sex...especially when showering after s*x" I say justifying myself

"Too much information!" Kate says and we all laugh...

"Anyway...excuse me I have to go to the bathroom..." I say and I leave...when I go into the bathroom I erase the fake smile I had on and start taking deep breaths... What is he doing here anyway?? There are only students in here...I ask myself and I put my head down...when I pick it up I see Anthony from the mirrors behind me and I scream scared

"Are u nuts?? U scared the crap out of me!" I yell at him as I turn to face him, putting my hand on my heart...he comes closer without saying anything,grabs my arm and throws me in one of the toilets and Locks the door

"U have an issue with locking the doors, aren't ya??" I ask sarcasticly but pissed

"U slap me and leave after our kiss,which BTW u didn't try to stop,u don't answer my texts or calls,u don't show up at my lectures,but u show up here,and don't get me wrong u have every right to be here,and u sing gorgeous??? Really???" he asks...I'm freezed and looking at him with wide eyes

"Are u implying that I sang it for you???I didn't even know u were out there,until I saw u coming closer to the stage..."

"Yeah right...that's why u picked that song..." He replies

"And what does this mean???" I ask confused

"Ocean blue eyes,looking in mine..." He quotes the lyrics

"Oh...don't full yourself...I just like the song..." I reply crossing my arms in front of my chest

"Oh yeah??? That's why u looked at me when u were singing that verse" he mentions...

"Ok yeah I did that,but it doesn't mean anything...I also gave an open invitation to John to come to my home after..." I defend myself

"What do u even see in that guy???" he asks...

"Well,he is hot,he is nice,caring,treats me like a princess and is GREAT at s*x" I say emphasizing at the last one...he clutches his jaw and turns me to the right so that my back touches the wall....then he puts his one hand beside my head

"I know u like older guys..." He says smiling

"And how do u know that??" I ask trying not to show him he is right

"Your mom told me about the 28-year-old ex bf of yours..." He answers smiling like he found something big on me

"Damn her...anyway...that doesn't prove anything...I date whoever makes me feel good..." I tell him

"Oh sweetheart...I can make u feel good...!!!" He says and bites his lower lip...I open my mouth a little and I take a sharp breath,while staring at his eyes

"I only need permission..." He continues almost whispering, brushing his lips on mine and putting his other hand around my waist pulling me closer...I place my hands on his chest to push him,but I instantly regret it,so with one hand I grab him by the back of his neck and crush my lips on his...I open my mouth quickly,putting my tongue in his mouth and we start kissing like we're about to eat each other...I jump on him,putting my legs around his waist...he grabs my ass with his both hands...as we continue our wild kiss,he starts rubbing himself on me,causing me to moan a little in the kiss

"Alexa??? Are u ok???" I hear Stella asking while coming closer...we stop the kiss,he puts me down,unlocks the door and after looking at me with a grin on his lips followed by a wink,he opens the door and leaves...Stella watches him leaving and then she turns to look at me...I'm out of breath and unable to move

"What the f**k Alexa???" She asks confused as hell

"I...I..he...followed me here...and..." I stutter

"Ok ok come here..." She says and comes in the toilet,takes my hand and gets me out...

"Wipe your mouth and take a few breaths..."she continues and then fixes my hair

"I...I can't go outside..." I finally say

"Why???" She asks

"Because I can't look John in the eyes...I almost f****d with Anthony in there..." I explain

"Yeah...but u didn't...so get it together and let's go..." She demands and after a few seconds we go out

"Hey what happened? I was worried...!!" John says when he sees me

"Sorry...I just saw an old friend of mine so we started talking and I got destructed..." I apologize

"Oh! Ok!! I'm glad u're ok!" He says smiling...I feel bad about lying to him,but the truth is so much worse...