Blame it on me...
1534 Words
The rest of the week passed by quickly,but most importantly,quietly...Anthony and I saw each other 2 times,each one in his office...
The next week came and I was a little down...I assumed it's because I'm waiting for my period so I wasn't worried...but today is the third day I'm late and I'm freaked...it's always on time...I never had trouble with my period before...I decide to call the doctor and arrange an appointment immediately...luckily,he has time for me this afternoon...after the last lecture of the day I go to the doctor...
After an hour,we're done and I go to his office to know the diagnosis...
"So miss Cara...everything is good!" the doctor says when he sits down
"yeah?? so why is my period late?? I never had any trouble..." i ask confused
"well...u have a tiny human growing inside u..."he answers smiling and I freeze...
"what?" I ask
"u're pregnant,miss Cara..." he answers again
"how??" I continue asking confused
"I think we both know..."he says
"yeah ok...but I mean...we use condoms and if not,I take my birth control..." I explain
"sometimes neither of these work...It just happens..."He explains and I start panicking
"can I have an abortion?" I ask
"of course...u are pregnant for only 2 weeks so u have plenty of time to think about it...we're legally allowed to perform an abortion,till the first trimester...but there are other solutions too.. ."he explains
"yeah ok.. .well thank u...I'll call u when I'm ready..." I say and I get up...he gives me a copy of my blood test and I go out...I pay at his secretary and I leave the clinic
I get into my car and I stare in front of me...my first thought is to call my dad...but then I change my mind and call Anthony
"hey babe,how did it go?"he asks when he picks it up
"where are u?" I ask
"on my way home...everything okay?" he asks worried
"we need to talk..." I reply
"tell me!" he says
"not now...in person..." I continue
"Alexa tell me what the hell is going on now!"he demands
"I'm pregnant..."I blurt out and the last thing I hear is a big crush
"Anthony??" I ask but I don't get an answer
"Anthony????" I ask again shouting...when I don't get a reply I realize what happened...I immediately call the police and tell them his phone number so they can trace him...After that, I start driving to the nearest hospital to wait for them...
On the way, they call me from the hospital to tell me I'm his emergency contact and that they're on their way
"I f*****g know that! I was the one who called the police and I'm coming too!!!!" I reply and then I throw my phone on the back seat...after a couple of minutes I arrive at the emergency and so does the ambulance
"Hey Hey!!! Is he ok???" I run to the paramedics and ask them
"Please step away ma'am..." A paramedic tells me
"Don't f*****g tell me to step away! I'm the one who called the police!!!! I'm his emergency contact! I deserve to see if he's ok!!!!" I yell with tears falling down my cheeks
"We have it under control..." He continues as he tries to hold me back
"Anthony????" I yell as I try to pass through him
"He can't hear you ma'am...he's unconscious..." He tells me and I freeze
"No....no he isn't!!!!!!" I say after a few seconds
"Yes he is...now please go to the waiting room until someone comes to speak to u..." He tells me and leaves...I stand still there for a while and then I move my car to the parking lot...I run to the waiting room to wait for a doctor to come talk to me...after a few minutes a police officer comes near me
"Ma'am,good evening" he starts
"Seriously? Good evening?"I ask sarcastically
"I'm sorry...can I ask u a few questions?"He replies
"Is that really necessary? " I ask,looking really sad
"I'm afraid that yes..." He says and I sigh
"Fine..." I give in and he starts asking me about the accident...I explain to him that I had called him to schedule a meeting,because he's my professor and i have questions about the subject he's teaching...then he asks me why I'm his emergency contact and,even though I had no idea about that,I say that he's dating my mother that lives in Seattle and that since I leave closer he gave my name...God,I don't even know how I manage to lie that fast...after we're done with the questions about his identity,they leave...
After a couple of hours, a doctor comes to me
"Are u family?" he asks
"kinda..he...he's dating my mother..." I answer
"Well,then I'm sorry...I can't talk to u about his situation..." He apologizes
"Oh please...!!! I called the police to tell them about his accident and I'm his f*****g emergency contact,so cut the crap and tell me what the hell is going on..." I yell and he gives in
"Well...he has severe head trauma,causing him to bleed excessively and some broken ribs...He's in surgery now trying to control the bleeding..." He explains and I feel my legs weak
"Is he...Is he gonna be ok?" I ask with a trembling voice
"We don't know yet...It's too early to say something..." He answers and tears start falling again
"Ok...thank u doctor...please keep me posted..." I beg and he leaves...I go to my car to take my phone and call my mother...I really wish I shouldn't but the cops are gonna do it anyway...she doesn't pick up so I feel kinda relieved...I go back in,I sit on a chair and I decide to call the girls...after I tell them everything they start coming here...
After half an hour they're here,but John is with them...
"Alexa??? are u ok?" he asks when he sees me as he hugs me tight...this is the last person I'd want to hug now...
"Yeah...I'm fine...just socked..." I explain
"How did u all come together?" I ask
"We were in the library studying and waiting for you to notify us about the doctor..."Emma answers
"What happened?? Why were u calling him?" He asks after we break the hug
"Please John...not now..." I beg him as I put my hands on my face to cover it
"ok ok...want me to get u anything?" He asks and I nod
"Yes please..." I say and he leaves...the girls come closer
"What happened Alexa?? and please,tell us the truth..." Kate asks
"I went to the doctor as I told u...and I found out..." my voice breaks again
"U found out...??" Stella asks
"I'm pregnant..." I say and they all freeze
"Tell me u're joking..." Emma says
"I wish I was...and I called him to tell him I wanted to talk to him and he got worried and kept asking me what happened and then I told him and then..." I stop and start crying
"f**k!!!" Stella says and hugs me...I bury my head in her neck and cry
"Is he ok???" Kate asks
"I don't know...all I know is that he has a severe head trauma causing him to bleed,a few broken ribs and that they're fixing his head now..." I answer as I keep crying
"I'm so sorry..."Emma says as she rubs my back while Stella still holds me tight
"I can't stop thinking that if I hadn't called him...He'd be ok now...It's all my fault..." I say and I start sobbing
"Don't say that...he was the one that pushed u..."Kate says
"Yeah,but he didn't know what I was gonna say to him..." I reply
"He knew it was something bad..." She continues
"A pregnancy is not bad..."Stella scolds her
"I mean,something serious..." She explains
"U're right...a pregnancy is bad..."I say
"No, it's not..." Emma says and I turn to look at her
"If I wasn't pregnant he wouldn't be in the OR..." I answer...I see John coming
"Here...I brought u water and coffee..." He says as he reaches us and hands them to me
"Thank u..." I say and I drink from the water
"Do u wanna tell me what happened now?I'm sure u told the girls and the cops..."He says and I say exactly what I said to the cops
"I also called my mother but she didn't pick up...I'm sure she's somewhere spending his money while he is in surgery,bleeding to death..." I say and I start crying again
"And why are u crying now??? It's not like u liked him..." He says and we all turn to look at him
"U did not say that...."Kate says pissed
"Are u f*****g stupid???He is a human being...also,I was the one calling him...it's my damn fault...so excuse u if u think it's wrong for me to cry,just because "It's not like I liked him..." "I reply yelling
"Alexa calm down..."Stella says
"Didn't u hear him???" I ask frustrated
"I did and it was stupid AF..." She looks at him
"But u shouldn't react like that..it's not healthy..." She continues
"I couldn't care less about that now..." I say
"wanna stop calling me stupid and start telling me what are u talking about,instead??" He asks
"I'm pregnant..." I blurt looking him straight to his eyes...
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