Mr. Blue and Me

Day 59:Are you ready for it?

I spent the rest of the day doing chores and studying to keep my mind distracted...

~A week later ~

After my last intimate time with Anthony,he never bothered me again...it feels weird,like he plans something...anyway...I don't care...we had a moment and now it's over! I don't even feel bad about it...there was no emotion so no biggie...also now I know he's full of shit...he just wanted to f**k me...now that I think of it, I feel weird... I never was that type of girl...I always had serious relationships,at least from my side...I've never had a one-time thing again...what is he doing to me?? Did I believe that he actually cared about me? Was I such a fool??? I suddenly feel exposed again...I let him play with me...gosh! Now I'm pissed!!!!

"Babe??" John wakes me up from my thoughts...I turn around to face him,as we are still in bed and he is hugging me from behind

"Yes?" I reply

"Maybe we should get up..." He mentions and I look at the time

"Yep...I agree..." I say and I get up

"I'm going to take a shower...wanna come?" He offers But I decline...

"No we don't have time...I'm gonna make breakfast" i reply putting On a fake smile

"Fair enough" he replies smiling too,but for real...I put on his t-shirt and I go to the kitchen...thank god he didn't put up a fight...it's the last thing I Wanted now...don't get me wrong,I like him a lot and I love being intimate with him,but now I feel Like s**t, so...I leave my thoughts behind and start making breakfast...after a while I feel his arms wrapping around me from behind and I smile

"Just in time!" I mention and I Kiss him as I turn around to put what I made on the kitchen table...after we eat I take a shower myself and I get dressed...john has some clothes here,for when he sleeps over...

After half an hour or so we arrive at the uni and we go in the auditorium...it's monday so it's still a bit empty...after a while my friends come and we all start talking...I sit on the professor's desk just to mess with Anthony when he comes and see me,but the others don't dare

"Anyway...I just think she doesn't do a good job so that's why he is so uptight every day..." I say about Anthony and he hears it,since he gets in the auditorium at the same time...

"can you please step away from my desk?? "He asks a little nervous

"Point proven..." I say as John puts his hand on my ribs to get me down

His P.O.V.

When I saw her sitting on my desk my mind started going wild...the things I could do to her on this desk...but I immediately snapped out of it and I asked her to leave...I had heard what she said but I didn't mind,since it was true...the problem is that after our moment,her mom seems...not enough...she is not her...I can't do anything with her mom without thinking of her...but I can't run after her anymore...I have to let her understand what she wants... I can't chase her like a dog...she has to think without distractions...I just wish she hasn't forgotten our moment...

"Oh yeah??" I ask her after her last comment And she turns to face me

"Yeah..." She answers,leaving her perfect lips a little open...damn those lips...I snap again and I move my shirt collar to show her a hickey her mom gave me last night...I see her eyes widen and her fists tighten

"Tell my mom not to suck u that hard..." she finally says and my jaw clenches... I'm left looking at her socked and when she moves to her seat I look at the auditorium that's almost full...I don't even know if they heard her...but looking at their face I understand they did...

My P.O.V

When he showed me the hickey I felt my heart skipping a bit...she leaves marks on him...he's not even hers...she can't do that...she ruins his perfect skin...

"Tell my mom not to suck u that hard..." I said and I saw him freeze...then I moved to my seat...

In the afternoon,when we finished our lectures I said to John I'd stay to study in the library,knowing he couldn't stay with me,since he had to work...of course i lied...I mean,i tried to study but I couldn't stop thinking about her mark on him...finally I decide to go to his office...on my way I think of what I should say...and then it hits me...I don't know why I'm going there...am I going to make a scene?? Why??? I don't feel anything about him...or do I??? I stop in the middle of the road

"I'm in love with him..." I admit to myself and then I keep walking to his office...when I arrive I knock on the door...I wait a few seconds and when he doesn't answer,I turn to leave,but as I turn I hear the door open and i turn again...

"hey..." I say nervously

"Hey..." he replies surprised but happy

"Can I come in???" I ask shyly

"Yeah of course..." He answers and leaves me room to enter...when I get in he closes the door

"Won't u lock?" I ask Teasing him for the previous times

"Should I?" He asks with an eyebrow raised

"I don't know...if u think that someone may burst in while we talk..." I answer And he locks

"Where's your bf?" He asks While standing at the door

"Work..." I reply as I take my jacket off

"I see..."he says

"So...for what I said in the morning...I didn't mean it...I said it just to make them think I hate u..."

"u talk about the thing u said when I got in or about what u said in front of your classmates???" He asks and crosses his arms in front of his chest,leaning against the door

"About the first one..." I answer

"Ok...and u said u wanted them to think u hate me?" He asks and I nod for yes

"Don't you?" He asks again

"No...I don't..." I reply

"And the other thing???"

"I...I kinda meant it..." I answer looking at him

"Why did u say that??" He asks coming closer

"Because I can't stand the thought of her touching you,feeling you...she doesn't own you...she doesn't have the right to mark you..." I say yelling and moving my arms around

"Finally u admit it..."

"Yes, I do...!!" I reply going closer...he then comes and grabs me by the back of my neck pulling me into a deep,passionate kiss...after a couple of minutes we break the kiss and gasp for air...

"Was it so hard?" He asks smiling at me...I smile too and lean in again...

"Take me..." I say on his lips with a soft voice and closed eyes...he picks me up,I wrap my legs around him and carries me till the couch he has in the office...he lays me down and starts unbuttoning his shirt...I try to take my top off l,but he stops me

"Don't...I want to undress you..." He says softly...after he takes off his shirt he climbs on me and takes of my top...he leans in for yet another deep but soft kiss...I place my hands on each side of his face continuing the kiss...then I move my hands slowly on his body reaching for his pants...he reacts under my touch and I smile...I unbutton his belt and then his pants...he sits up to take them off and then he climbs on me again...he takes off my sweatpants slowly like I'm about to break... I watch him undressing me while stroking his hair...after that he starts kissing my leg moving up... I close my eyes and enjoy his lips on my skin...damn it feels so good...He leaves a gentle kiss on my sensitive area above my thong and then he continues his way up...he kisses my stomach while removing my bra...he continues his way up reaching for my lips while stroking my whole body...I feel goosebumps all over me and I moan a little...he kisses my neck as he takes off my thong and opens my legs placing himself between them...I do my head back giving him access to my neck as I push his boxers down with my feet...he moves a little to take them off and then he positions himself between my legs again

"Look at me" he demands softly and I open my eyes...he pushes himself inside me while we keep eye contact...I finally give in and close my eyes again moaning softly...his moves are gentle like I'm made of glass and he's afraid he's gonna break me... I open my eyes and I see him watching me...He leans in and we rest on each other's forehead as he continues his gentle moves and I continue moaning quietly

After some moments we finish and he leans on me...I wrap my arms around him,but in a sudden move he turns us,so I'm on top of him...I land on his chest hugging him...he hugs me too and strokes my hair

"Stay with me tonight..." He begs

"Ok..." I answer and he kisses my forehead

"It won't be easy u know..." I mention

"I know, sweetheart..." He replies after he lets out a sad sigh...