ENDLESS LOVE

About childhood

Emir

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After come out from the canteen Bashika told me that she need to attend the call. I hope and come to the ICU. today I really feel low but the presence of Bashika give me too much strength. Today she also promise me that only death can separate us. And I promise to her that I never allow death to come to her. When I am desperately waiting for the operation done. suddenly ICU room light of and finally Oliver come out from the operation room.

I have no patience left. I desperately ask him ------  what happened. What is the result.

I saw that he hesitate for speaking something. I feel more and more fear. ------ Oliver no matter what happened to the operation room tell me everything.

He remained silent. His silent can Crush me. This time I cannot control my anger. I held his shoulder and ask ------ Oliver I told you last time don't check my patience. Tell me what happened.

His silence can feel me that the news is bad. ------ Oliver if the operation is not successful then told me it's clearly. I promise I do not blame you. I know you give your best to this operation.

You are wrong Emir. The operation is absolutely successful. ------ Oliver told. I cannot believe in my ear. That's why I asked him again ------ what you told right now tell me again.

I told you that your father is alive. The operation is successful. Sister in law is right. 15% chance is enough for survival.

I am very very very happy to hearing this. This all because of the Bashika's positivity. She is absolutely right. Today her believe is win. Right now I am waiting for her and finally she come. I run and hug her. I told her about my father condition. She is very happy to hearing this.  I do not want to break the hug. But I remember that is the hospital. She congratulation me. I want to spend more time with her but suddenly my phone rang and saw the familiar number.

I told her I have a important call to attend then I went out from the hospital. I press the button and receive the call. 

What's wrong.----- I ask.

Sit Jone wants to talk to you. I told her that you are busy today. But he told us that he have a important information to give you.------ my secretary told me.

Give the phone to him. ----- I said.

Sir.------ Jone said.

I have not enough time today. Tell me what you want to told quickly. ----- I order him.

Sir. I am not the person who hired him. He is Zain relative. Zain is our old employee. Zain himself told me that his brother need to a Urgent job. I check all the documents which is completely correct. After checking everything I allow him to come to the work. I have also a copies of his documents. if you want I can give this to you. In the morning when I try to contact Zain his phone is not reachable. But I know his address. He have two addresses and I know all of them. Can you want this sir.------ he explain me everything.

I also not believe that Jone can floating against me. It's not because I am blind about him. Is that in the seven years of his journey he always take his life on risk just for me. Everytime when I get any attack he is always standing to protect me. Without any security how can I I doubt about his honesty and royalty. just because he higher the the security incharge that mean not he is the one who is behind all of this. Maybe somebody use him to hide himself.

Good. Then go and find the man by yourself. Bring him to me. I am waiting for you. ----- I told him.

Sir... I ------ he ask confusingly.

Yes you. ---- I said.

But sir I am in under house arrest. And by the way nobody can believe me.------ He said.

I am your boss. And I will believe you. I think it's enough for you. You no need to clarify Yourself to anybody else. Now give the phone to Sam.------ I told him.

Hello sir.----- Sam said.

Follow his instruction. Whatever you want to go follow him. Take some mans with you. And also inform the police before reaching any place.----- I order.

Ok sir ----- He nope then I hang up the phone.

Today is a very special day for me. I do not want to waste my time to the outside. I just want to go back to the hospital and spend time with my father and wife. So I go back to the hospital. Bashika still standing there and waiting for me. I ask her ----- why you not sit. Why are you standing.

I am waiting for you.----- she said.

Did they shift my father to the normal word.---- I ask.

Hm. ----- she said.

Let's go I want to see my father ------- I said and held her hand.

Emir ----- she call my name. I turn to face her ----- yes.

She hug me. I don't feel anything strange. I also hug back her. But when I break the hack and saw her face , tears is drop down from her eyes. I never like her crying face. I wip the tears and say her ----- what's wrong. Why you are crying. Did anybody told you something. 

I really thought that may be Neha again told her something. Just above I say this she blast out with tears. I really thought this time maybe Neha cross her all limits. She maybe hurt her very much.  I held her shoulder and ask ------ Bashika told me who make you cry. Did it again Neha bully you.

No. I want to talk to you along. Can you bring me outside.  ------ she request me.

I want to see my father but this time I thought she need me more. So that I decided to go with her.

Yes of course. come with me. ------ I said.

We both hold each other hand then come out from the hospital. We go to the hospital lobby. I saw that she is little bit absent-minded. I ask her ----- did you like the outside view.

Hm. Emir I want to told you something. ---- she said.

I smile and said her ----- what do you wait for. Tell me what you want.

First promise me you cannot give any reaction until I complete my sentence. ------ she demand.

I nope my head. She hug me again. This time I feel little strange. She is the one who cannot get close to me in front of public. But today she herself hug me in front of so many people. When I busy to my thought I hear her voice ------ Ashok uncle is alive. The operation is successful. But his body is completely paralyzed. Without his head he cannot move any other part of his body. Even I cannot talk.

"Paralyzed" this word can broke me completely. I don't know how to react. Can I laughed on myself or I crying. I broke the hug immediately.

Emir ------ she wants to talk to me. But I am not in the mental stage where I can hear anything. I left her along to the lobby and directly getting to my car without my driver. I hear she shouted by my name. But I cannot stop the car and few hours later I come to my home and lock myself into my room. I do not want to talk with anybody. I just want to stay alone. All the memories of my dark and along childhood can come  reflesh in my mind. How I spend my life along without any mother and father. And today when I have a final chance to get back my father my fate again give me a big tragedy. In this few years I never saw my father. never behaved politely to him because of my anger but today I really decide that I have been polite with him but now I cannot hear me. Because he cannot speak. And I also cannot fulfill the promise which I give to my mum that I always keep my father well. Thinking about this I am loudly laughed to myself.

But suddenly I hear some noise from outside. The familiar voice which is come from outside is none other than Bashika.

Emir open the door. I want to talk to you. ---- She said.

I do not want to talk to anybody that's why I cannot give her any answer. But she keep knock the door hardly ----- Emir please allow me to come to the room. Otherwise I keep knocking the door. And you know my hand is already hard. it's almost going to bleed. ---- She told me seriously.

I know very well how mad she is. She can do anything. Even hurting herself is not a difficult job for her. I know very well she already hurt her hand for knocking the door hardly. I am afraid that she might be hurt herself more. So I quickly get up and open the door. Without giving me any chance to say anything she jump on me and blast out with tears. ------ what the hell are you doing. Did you have any idea how much tense I am for you. I know you are angry on me but that mean not you leave me along to the hospital.

I close the door again.. pulling her to my embarance I say her ----- I left the driver to the hospital for picking you up.

She push me to the bed. I sat down to the bed. She set in my lap. She kiss my forehead then ask ---- are you angry on me.

No. Why did I will be angry on you. It's nothing is your fault. ---- I said.

Then why you leave me alone to the hospital. ----- She ask.

Because I want to stay alone. ----- I said.

She hug me. ----- you are hurt.

 I am not like the men who show his emotion in front of anybody. But this time I can not hold back my tears. I could not believe in myself. I am the one who told her before marriage that she marry me because of my money. But now I am the one who is becoming emotionally depend on her. I don't know why but the emotion which I press down to my heart till my childhood suddenly blast up. I hold her to my embarance tightly and said her ----- don't leave me  Bashika. don't. Never and ever leave me. You know everybody leave me. The person which I love most always leave me. But I do not bear the loss of you. Promise me you never leave.

Don't worry. I never leave you. ----- She said.

She told me that she never leave me. but I want to know if she knows about my past then what is her reaction. That's why I ask her ------ and what's wrong if somebody told you anything about me. if you know the darkest secret of my life can you leave me. Did you will leave the outsider gossip about me. ------ I ask. 

I ask everything on clearly. Because I do not want that he knows about my past. It's not just complicated but also messy. I don't want that my past can be hurt her.

No matter what I always believe you. I Marry you not outsiders. Why did I believe in their word. Until you can not tell me anything in your mouth I do not believe about the gossips. ----- She said.

I know her answer very well. Her straightforwardness is not a known for me. I know she is not that kind of girl who will leave easily outsiders talk. That's why I feel relief.

You know Bashika about my childhood. Did you want to know. ---- I ask.

Hm. ----- She said.

My childhood is not like the simple child's life. My father is Indian you know this. He come to London because of his business. He wants to build up his business here. But it's not easy. Success is depend on hard work or shortcut. My father choose shortcut. My grandfather is the top most businessman in London. But my mother always down to earth. We cannot like luxurious lifestyle. Once a day she and my father meet. She is badly love my father but my father just use her because of money. He is already married before coming London. The women Priya is not his first wife. His first wife attend suicide after knowing about his extra marital affair. But thank god my mother is strong enough. After knowing the real identity of a father she can Broke completely. But this time I am in her belly. She does not want to give me the punishment which my father done. She give me birth. My grandfather wants to taught my father lesson. But my mother love him very well that's why she cannot allow my grandfather to harm my father. But my father never care about my mother. He run away to Indian. Even he cannot give a small thanks to my mum for saving his life. My mum raise me along. ------ I pause.

Why you stop. Told me everything. Do not take anything in your heart. You know you feel relief after telling me everything. ----- She said while hugging me.

You know Bashika I always want my father. Because I always saw my friend. They always come to school with their mother and father both. But in mic is I have no father. I know I am in three years old. Suddenly I hear my friend call a person father. Hearing his voice the map pick up him. I thought that if I call Father then somebody also pick me up. So I started shout father father. But nobody give any response. My kindergarten teachers pick me up. They call my mother. In my school nobody can Bully me because they all know about my grandfather position. Maybe that's why they are strictly instructed them to not to bully me. Always give good relation with me. In spite of this thing I always feel alone. The Absent of a father really painful for a child life. I always ask my mother about my father. but I get no response. Once a day I literally shout on my mother. This day I stubbornly ask about my father to my mother. This day I really miss behave to my mother. I thought that she does not allow my father to come to me. I thought that she did everything purposely. This day I got a slap from my mother. This is the first time my mother raise her hand on me. This day both of me and my mother cried badly. I thought that in my life I never see my father. But one day my father come. He come to my school for picking me up. But because of the tight security of the school the guards cannot allow him. But when my mum arrived to the school in front of my mum he claim himself my father. I ask my mam. And my mam does not lie to me. She told me that is my father. I am very happy to see my father. I run to my father he aslo pick me up. He give me kisses. We both are very happy to see each other. My mother is also happy to see me happy. No matter What my mother does not want to separate a son from his father. That's why she allowed my father to meet me. I thought that my family is complete now. I complain to my father why he cannot come early. I want to talk to him more. But he told me " son don't now on you are always live with me". I thought that now we are live together. But suddenly my mum snatch me from my father. She pull me to her embarance. Both of my parents are starting arguing with each other. I am only three years old. I don't it understands half of their.  

only I hear my father voice -" listen to me Elizabeth. Don't make any travel. I don't know about my son before. But now I want to take his custody. Right now I have no successder for my family. My present wife is again unsuccess to give me any child. Give me my son. And also he is your son then give some properties to him. it's not for me for the sake of your son".

"Ashok I really thought that you come here to see your son. But I am wrong you are literally shameless. You come here to use my son from getting money from me in future. I know very well what is your plan. You can take his custody always demand money from me for his upbringing. You no need to be fell in this type of level. I can give you money as much as you want. But I never give you my son custody. I never want a shameless Father Like you for my son."  I saw that my mum pick up some money from her handbag and threw it to my father face. My father pick up the money from the ground and go from the place. I shout in my father back. But he'll never give me any response. This day my mother told me everything about my father. A 3 years old child is suddenly become a mature men this day. from this day I am start hating my father. And my hate for him increase day by day when I saw him come to my house every 3-4 months later , not to seeing me because of the money which mother give to him. my grandfather does not like him but for the sake of my mother he tolerate him. No matter what my parlour done to my mother but she always love him. She always care about him. The time is past very fast. At last the day come when I lost my mother. I lost my last hope. my life is depend on my mother. But suddenly she leave me. I love her but she leave me. But before taking her last breath I saw that she and my father talking something important. After that my mother told me to fulfill the last wish of my father. She also told me to take care of my father to his old age.

After my mother death my grandfather does not allow my father to see me. My father wants to take my custody. But because of my grandfather power and source he cannot success. My grandfather raised me. He teach me about business. Because I am the one and only grandson of him. He told me that everything which is him all belongs to my. He told me to take care everything has soon as possible. In this time when I am completely alone July is come in my life. She Fulfill the Emptiness of a sister. I am happy to play with her. Soon I am become her big brother. In this time I meet a noble lady who is coming with my father. She is none other than my father mother that mean my grandmother. She just come here to see me. I hate my father but I never hate my grandmother. My grand father also allow her to see me. From this day I going to India several times to meet with her. After that I know that I have one brother and sister. You know I always love them but I never show them my soft site. When I am just 10 years old my grandfather also passed out. My  Ex-nanny take care me after that like a mother. She is July's mother. Mother Lily is also like a mother for me. All the Ne nice to take care me they are very honest and royal for my grandfather. My grandfather friend Oscar help me to taking care the business. When I am 14 years old I am joining my company completely. I am keep myself busy to the business. I am make myself so much busy just for recovering my loneliness. But my loneliness can not stop chasing me.

You know the first day when I meet you I cannot believe you. I told you that you must be want to marry me because of my money. It's not that I don't believe you. Is just that I cannot easily belief people. My life teach me so much lesson.I...... 

--------------- when I told this to her I saw that she blast out with tears. She hug me too tightly and just wisper ------- I will Heal you. I promise I cover your all wounds. I never leave you. 

She kiss me  all over my face. I also want her support today. I hug her and cry. I do not want to let go her. I place my head to her chest. 

Emir  I never thought that Ashok uncle have this type of past. Truly I never saw his Evil face. But I hear some gossip about him from the family friends and neighbours. I also ask my father about Ashok uncle past. But my father always told me that he is changed. He might be have a terrible past but now he is changed.---- she told me.

Yes I also see the change of his behaviour. I also feel sometime he may be changed. You know when I hear that he cannot continue his treatment just because he want to punish himself for what he done to me and my mother and the other persons to his life I realise that he changed. I want my this father who care about me. does not matter how terrible my childhood was but the reality that he make one of the the best decision to choosing you as my life partner. He is the one who choose you for me. And I cannot deny that you are the best choice for me. But you know sometimes I am afraid that you may be leave me like the way my mother leave me ------ I said her.

Never. ----- She said.

I know. Making yourself part of my life is in your choice. But you cannot leave me by your own choice. I will never allow you to do this. ----- I told her this that mean I mean it.

Ok then chain me . ----- she said.

We kiss each other. She told ----- let's sleep for a while. You need rest. And I want to give you rest. 

 you really want to give me rest. ----- I ask.

Hm. Come with me. I help you to take a shower. ---- She said.

She dragged me to the bathroom.  taking of both of our clothes.  she wash my body with her soft. she changed my clothes and take care me like a little boy. After come out from the bathroom she told me to sleep on her lap.  I sleep obediently to her lap.  she lovingly touch my hair. Her soft hand is feel so much warm. I don't know when I fall asleep.