Finding Connections
1128 Words
Rael’s POV
The next morning, I sat on the bed and stared at my hands, trying to feel it. The mate bond. The connection that was supposed to link me to Corvin forever and make us two halves of the same whole.
It had always been there before. Even when we fought or disagreed, I could still feel him like a warm presence in the back of my mind. I could sense his emotions, know where he was, and feel safe because we were connected.
But now, there was almost nothing.
Just a faint whisper. A thread so thin it might snap any second, like something that used to be strong had worn away until barely anything was left.
I pressed my hand to my chest, closed my eyes, and reached for it, trying to make it stronger, but it didn’t respond. It just stayed faint and distant like Corvin was a stranger and not my mate.
Doctor Lydia knocked on the door and came in carrying her medical bag. “Good morning, Rael. How are you feeling today?”
“Fine.”
She gave me a look that said she didn’t believe me but didn’t push. “I need to check your vitals and make sure you’re healing properly. May I?”
I nodded and let her examine me. She checked my pulse, listened to my heart, looked at my scars again, and made notes in a small journal she carried.
“You are still very weak,” she said. “Your body went through severe trauma, and it will take time to recover. You need to eat more, rest, and let yourself heal.”
“I know.”
She sat down in the chair and looked at me carefully. “There’s something else I want to ask you. Have you tried to reach your wolf since you came back?”
“Yes.”
“And?”
“Nothing. She doesn’t answer.”
Doctor Lydia nodded slowly like she expected that. “I suspected as much. The trauma you went through was severe enough that your wolf probably retreated deep inside to protect both of you. It’s a defense mechanism.”
“Can I get her back?”
“I don’t know. Some wolves who go through this kind of trauma never reconnect with their wolf. Others take years, there’s no way to predict.”
My stomach dropped. “So she might be gone forever.”
“She might be or she might come back when you’re ready, when you’ve healed enough emotionally and mentally. The bond between human and wolf is complex, and we don’t fully understand it yet.”
I looked away and tried not to cry. Losing Lyric forever would be worse than anything else they did to me. She was part of me, without her, I was broken.
“There’s something else,” I said quietly. “The mate bond with Corvin. It’s almost gone, i can barely feel it.”
Doctor Lydia ’s face turned serious. “How long has it been like this?”
“Since I came back. Maybe even before, i don’t know. Everything from those years is a blur.”
“The mate bond can weaken for many reasons. Distance is one. If you were separated a long time and couldn’t feel each other, the bond would fade but it usually grows stronger once you’re back together.”
“It hasn’t.”
“No. That means something else is going on. It could be because your wolf is silent. The mate bond runs through your wolf, and if she isn’t there, the bond can’t work properly.”
“So if Lyric never comes back, the bond will never be strong again.”
“That’s possible or it could be because so much time passed. Five years is a long time to be apart, especially with trauma. The bond might be broken beyond repair.”
Something twisted in my chest. “Can it be fixed?”
“I don’t know. I’ve never seen a case like yours but there’s one more thing we have to think about.”
“What?”
“Alpha Corvin bonded with Nyra. He made her his mate and Luna. That’s a new bond, and it might have damaged or replaced the original one with you.”
“Can someone have two mate bonds?”
“Not usually. The original bond should be the strongest, especially if it was true like yours. But if that bond was already weak from trauma and distance, a new one might take its place.”
I felt sick. “So Corvin is bonded to Nyra now, not me.”
“I don’t know for sure but it’s possible. The fact you can barely feel him suggests the bond is either very damaged or replaced.”
“What does that mean for me?”
“It means you might never feel that connection with him again. Even if you want to fix it, the bond that made you mates might be broken forever.”
I should have felt devastated by this. I should have been heartbroken that my mate bond was gone and might never come back. But instead, I felt almost relieved.
If the bond was broken, then I didn’t owe Corvin anything. I wasn’t tied to him. I wasn’t forced to forgive him, take him back, or try to fix things.
I was free.
“Thank you for being honest,” I said.
“Of course. I know it’s hard to hear, but you should know what you’re dealing with. Do you have any other questions?”
“No. Not right now.”
She stood, packed her things, and said, “I’ll check on you again tomorrow. Please try to eat something today. Your body needs fuel to heal.”
After she left, I sat thinking about what she said. My wolf was probably gone forever. My mate bond was broken. Everything I was before was gone.
So who was I now?
I wasn’t Luna anymore. That title belonged to Nyra. I wasn’t Corvin’s mate anymore, the bond was broken or replaced or whatever. I wasn’t even a full wolf anymore without Lyric.
I was just Rael, nothing more. Just a broken woman with scars, pain, and no place in this world.
That should have scared me. But instead, it felt almost freeing. If I had no bonds and no duties, I could do whatever I wanted. I could focus on finding who did this to me and making them pay. I didn’t have to worry about being a good Luna, mate, or anything.
I could just be angry, vengeful, and focused on revenge.
And that felt right. It felt like the only thing that made sense now.
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