I’m already awake for an hour but I just let myself staring on the ceiling, holding a book that I’m not even reading. It’s been my hobby ever since I accidentally entered the library. Could you believe it? They have one room that full of books, Nanay Lydia and Jonas told me that I can borrow books from there. But nothing enters my mind even I’m trying to read peacefully. All I could remember is the scenario yesterday, on how I let myself feel humiliated in front of him and worst, what ran in my mind while watching him. Geez! I don’t have plan to eat dinner anymore that night but I know Nanay Lydia won’t allow me and she will just asked me why I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to worry her anymore. I don’t even know how I finished cooking the dinner because of what happened and I do

