bully love

chapter 1

"Look who decided to show up".....

"The fat, ugly cow."

The words followed me the movement i stepped into the cafeteria,sharp,and cruel, slicing through the morning noise.Laughter echoed behind me as if my pain was entertainment.I keep my eyes glued to floor, pretending the gray tiles were the most important thing in the world,and walked faster towards the counter.

"She's so ugly. "

"No wonder her parents hate her ."

Each comment landed heavier than the last.The voices blended together , growing louder , harsher , until they felt like they are closing to me .My hands trembled at my sides as my feet slowed to stop .

Fat Fat Fat .

Ugly fat cow.

I froze , unable to breath, unable to move.

I shot up in bed with a gasp ,my heart racing wildly . Sweat clung to my skin, and my chest rose and fell as if I'd been running.Another nightmare.That made three this week.

I reached for my phone on the nightstand 3:00 Am .

Sleep was gone.chased away by memories that never seemed to leave me alone.I slipped my feet into my fluffy slippers and quietly walked out to the balcony.The night air wrapped around me ,calm and cool.

The moon shine brightly in the dark sky, glowing softly . It felt lonely up there--- isolated , distant.just like me .I'd always loved nights.Even as a little girl,i found comfort in them. Something about the quite made me feel safe . Hopeful.

The moon reminded me of my mom .

She was the only person who ever loved me without conditions.

My chest tightened as my thoughts drifted to her-her smile,her warmth, the way she used to brush my hair before bed.she had fought breast cancer for years.By the time doctors found it,It was already too late . Stage four.She tried so hard to fight but life hadn't been fair to her.

After she died, everything fall apart.

My dad couldn't handle the loss .He started drinking -first occasionally,then every night.At the beginning,he was just distant.Quite.But soon,the alcohol changed him.The shouting started,Then the anger, Then the a***e .

Because I was chubby, because i wasn't "perfect".he called me names.

I swallowed hard, forcing the memories away,and went back inside.By the time I lay down again,it was already 4:00 A.M.There was no point trying to sleep,so I got ready for the day.I brushed my teeth and stepped into shower, letting the warm water calm my racing thoughts.

Afterward,i rubbed oil into my light brown curls, watching them shine in the mirror.I loved my hairs.It was long-so long it reached my feet.It was the one thing about myself i truly liked.

In the kitchen,i make omelette and a coffee.my phone was dead,so i plunged it in and started cleaning the dusty house.Silence filled the rooms, heavy and uncomfortable.

Then my dad walked in.

"Where is my coffee, you fatty b***h?"he snapped.

"How many times do i have to tell you?my coffee should be on table when I wake up."

I didn't answer .I just nodded and rushed to make it,my hand shaking . Once he left,I finished my homework.By 7:30 A.M.., I packed a sandwich and a chocolate into my bag .

Time to school.

Time to face another unfortunate day of My life.

The movement i stepped inside the building,Dyaln and his friends blocked my path.

"Going somewhere,miss universe?"he smirked.

The others brust out laughing.

"She can't even walk properly ." One of them said .And you are calling her miss universe?That is ironic."

I stood there, staring at floor, fighting the burning behind my eyes.

"Fat asses like you don't deserve to be here in this school," Dyaln said ,shoving me so hard.

I fell to a ground as their laughter followed them down the hallway.

Everyone stared . Whisper fills the air.I gathered my thinks as quickly i could and rushed to my locker,tears streaming down to my face.I was used to this.I had been bullied my whole life because of my weight.

"Hope".

I looked up and see Lynn running towards me.

Lynn knight -my only friend, strong, fearless, and kind.She never cared about how i looked.To her, I was just hope.

She wrapped her arms around me without saying a word.

"Don't be upset," she whispered. You are perfect. They're just jealous. Don't listen to them."

Her words didn't erase the pain, but they made it easier to breathe.

The rest of the school day passed slowly . Whisper followed us from class to class,but Lynn stayed by my side.

After school, Lynn mom dropped me Home.I threw my bag on the floor and collapsed onto the couch.The house felt dark and empty -gloomy since mom death.It was small,but it used to feel warm.

I changed into shorts and a oversized shirt and started cooking dinner.Dad wasn't home yet,and i didn't expect him before midnight.This was my routine -school ,chores and homework.

My phone rang .

I froze when I saw a name.

Aunt Stella.

My face lit up instantly.she was my mom's sister -my second mother .She lived in Chicago,never married,and took care of me from afar.She send money,paid my school fees,and make sure we survived.

"How are you bubble,she asked gently .

I'm fine,i said, smiling."How are you?"

I'm good,honey .Is james treating you right"?

"He's fine,"i lied softly.

There was a pause . Then she spoke again .I'm coming to Texas at the end of month.Your school year is ending,and I want you to come and live with me .I'll enroll you here ."

My heart skipped.

I was speechless .

I'm so happy ,i finally said laughing through tears."I've missed you so much ".

That night, after dinner and cleaning ,i locked my bedroom door and curled up in bed ...

For the first time in a long time,i fell sleep without worry.