QUEST FOR LOVE

Chapter-55

Until when will I hide this from papa? One day I will have to tell about this to him.  For what am I waiting . Before things become serious , I should tell him.

I think I should tell him. There are possibilities that she would have only touched the files. As it is she was telling that she is searching for documents. I  guess she has only taken.

I am not doing this right . She has been here two times , and I had not said about this yet to papa. He has full right to know about this . I have gone mad in her love that I kept this with myself only .

I should make papa know about this before things worsen . Who knows she might have taken important documents . The way she was behaving it was clear from that , she is least interested in our family. Now even I think papa is right .

Yes , I will tell papa that mum was here few days back . I know he will scold me , even can beat me for this . But I just cannot hide this from papa. Enough is enough already days are gone .

He might be there in the room, if I will search for correct time I will not get it . So I should go now only .

Papa…..

Ananya’s father’s point of view:

Where the hell are the divorce papers . No one knows that we both are still not divorced. It is she and me who are aware about this . Then it is quite clear that she might have come here to take them . I did not wanted to give her divorce , she did too did not wanted. So we never divorced. For the whole world we are divorced , they do not know we are still married. Yes she is living that guy but even if she is married to him it is not at all legal . We have not said about this to anyone . I do not know why she has not said about this to anyone but I personally did not wanted things to be known to people . So it is better we not get divorced I decided that time . it was not my sole decision. Even she seconded me.

Why to create fuss out of what happened.

If she had agreed on what we decided years back then why is she behaving like this now .

Am I wrong or what? Might be the file is there inside and I have not searched it carefully. Yes, yes! This can happen .Why will she come here after years? She is happy there with her new family. I had seen her recent photogram posts too, she was damn happy with them . It was quite clear she does not needs us any more . So yeah , why will she come here and take those papers . I am pretty much sure she might not have said about we not divorced to her new hubby.

Why will she ruin her new marital life by telling the truth? She loves them a lot . So it is not at all possible.

Is she planning to get married to him again? Might be this can also be true. Coz once the divorce is done she can be hitched to him forever.

I should text her about this and talk to her too. Yes , yes! I should talk to her.

But what if when I talk to her I get to know what I was thinking is absolutely right and she is planning to actually get married.

Anyways I should not get worried about this. Why am I getting worried. I should not pay heed to this . Even if she has taken the papers , I should leave it . As it is we do not live with each other . How does it even matters , whether we are apart or together. I should leave it .

But what if she really marries him. Legally we are still married. The whole world is not aware of it but at least we know about this. I just pray she does not marries him.

Why am I getting so tensed learning this. Everything is over now . We are not going to be together anymore . Then why this feeling. I should not feel for her like this now.

I am the one who insults her like anything. I keep saying bull s**t about her . Why is it bothering me then? I do not like to talk about her . whenever I say anything about her it is ill only . So it should not bother me . Whenever Ananya talks about her , I get irritated . I rarely listen to what she says about her mother. How come I am getting hurt now. I also do not want to live with her . Then I should be happy about this what is going to happen.

But I am not . Not at all happy.

I think I am thinking too much .

Am I getting jealous or what? Is there anything left between the two of us? No nothing. That divorce which is not done yet is also a formality now . As it is our heart are apart , we are no more together . She is no more mine .

Then why am I getting so hurt. It is quite difficult for me to believe what is this happening to me .

Do I still possess feelings for her? No this cannot be true . It has been years since we are not living together. Having feelings for her does not makes any sense. I think I am just getting possessive . might be it is because of my male ego . yes, yes!

I just do not want her to get married to him coz this may hurt my ego. Yes .

Nothing more than this. I  cannot possess feelings for her . Yes! I cannot . She is no more mine . I need to forget her . She is someone's wife now . I cannot think about her like this . It is so wrong.