QUEST FOR LOVE

Chapter - 61

Let me just see the television . I has been days , since I have not listened to any song. Listening to songs will rejuvenate me . Yeah! This is a better option.

What is that channels name where old songs are there? Ah! What music it is?  Shh… I am not remembering the name .

Let me just switch the channels I will get the accurate one.

Yes!

So many new channels have come , oh god!

I still like old ones only .

I should call Ananya she can help me out in this . She might be knowing better.

Ananya….

Where is she , this is the only problem . Until and unless I call her hundred times , she will not listen.

Ananya….. Ananya…..

Yes ! yes , papa coming …

Where were you ?

Habituated na…

No papa…..

Yeah! Yeah , now do not give me reasons . I am not at all interested in that .

Just switch the channel, I want to listen to the old classic songs .

This one papa?

Is it old ?

Yes , papa but here now new songs are being played.

I am changing  it ……

No,  no , wait ….

I just heard tere jaane ka gham …..

Yes , papa this is the name of the song …

Ok you go I will change the channels myself only .

But papa here , new songs are being played...

Shhh , did I ask you ? You just mind your business.

Man I just cannot handle myself . Why did he come again? If she was gone , then she should be there only . I have never felt like this before.  I just cannot , I cannot tell anyone about this . I want to share my feelings with someone but I am so helpless , I cannot . Dammed what is just happening to me?  

How to handle my emotions . I never knew , this day will also come in my life . I will cry like this for her . That is why I had wore that appearance of rude man . That is the best way to deal with the situation. No one will come to know about my emotions also .

Tackling with your inner feelings is so difficult . I had been struggling to tackle with my emotions before but finally I had learnt how to tackle with my situations .

All of sudden why is this happening with me . I cannot show my emotions . Everyone will come to know about this . I am not suppose to show my emotions to anyone . Hiding is difficult but not that much. As it is people think me to be very rude , cruel and mad . So let it be the way it is .

I need to pretend like this before everyone as usual . Yes then only they will not come to know about it . Once they see me so shattered they might have a doubt , which is not at all acceptable .