The Alpha Bartender

Chapter 6

‘Yep! Too busy being a slut to remember to take your pills, not that I am complaining’ Lilac stated with a sensual purr.

Fuck what am I going to do? He is going to think I am nuts if I accidentally start talking to myself.

‘Oh, Honey. He will definitely NOT think you are nuts. He will totally understand. Tell him about me’ She goes on.

Dr Montgomery warned me of this. She said if I was to ever miss a dose more than a few hours the voice may convince me to do things I normally wouldn’t. She meant like jump out of planes and the like. But this is something I am not ready for to tell him. I just stood there frozen not knowing what to do whilst Lilac hammered on and kept purring. It felt like a cat was running around inside my head.

‘If I have to tell you again that we are not a f*****g cat I swear to the goddess LEX’ She growled at me.

I looked into Dan’s eyes and noticed him staring at me in confusion? Or was it curiosity. I didn’t have to move because he walked to me and cupped my face.

‘Lex, we are not going to do anything. Watching you these past few moments I think there is something else I can help you with’ He told me whilst looking into my eyes.

‘Nooo, I want to see what he can do with that huge looking c**k of his’ Lilac wines.

‘Come sit here with me’ He pulls me to the small sofa in the bedroom. I sit down whilst he pulls on a t-shirt and joggers. I feel so embarrassed, I ruined the moment and now he was turned off of me. I could feel myself wanting to run and cry, all because of this f*****g disorder that is ruining my life.

He heads back over to he couch and pulls up a chair, he doesn’t even want to sit next to me. I let out an audible sigh.

Smiling at me ‘Alexandra, now I will ravish this goddess like body one day. But for now, I want you to talk to me about the voice in your head’

I sat there with my eyes wide, mouth wide open and in a state of pure shock. How on earth did he know, I never even hinted that was my problem. Only that I was in a fire as a child and had memory issues. I tried to think back, but I couldn’t remember everything I said to him. Maybe I slipped up.

‘You didn’t tell me Lex. I know you hear a voice. And I will tell you why I know. But you have to be open minded, you have to have faith in me’ Taking my hands in his he continued….

‘You can feel this right? Right here in our hands the tingles, they might be a little stronger than an hour ago or not, but you feel them right?’

Looking at our hands, I did feel them and like he said they were stronger. I don’t know what or why that is, I know you can get butterflies from being attracted to someone, surely this here wasn’t normal?

‘He is mate’ Lilac chimes in. I really need her to shut up right now I think. And for once she does. And oddly it feels like she has vanished. Usually I can feel her, but I can’t at the moment. It helps me focus. Looking back up to Dan’s face I say

‘I can feel it. And it is stronger’

‘Can you be open minded with me Lex’ He asks

Looking into his hazel eyes, I knew then that I trust this man completely.. I nod in response.

He stands up and walks over to the other side of the room and takes off his t shirt. Confused with his actions I just sit there staring.

‘Now Lex, the reason I know and the reason we feel the way we do about one another already having only met a mere week ago is because of some destiny set out for us in the stars. You may have been convinced you were crazy, but you are not. Tell me Lex, does the voice in your head have a name?’

‘Y-yes, she calls herself Lilac’ I say barley able to control my emotions

‘Lovely name’ He smiles at me. ‘Now Lex, the reason you have just that one voice is because she is a part of you. I have one too, his name is Midnight. And I would like you to meet him’

I just sat there not really understanding where this was going but he continued…

‘Lex, you told me you had an open mind. So now I am going to shift and I don’t want you to scream or run. I am just going to lay on the bed and give you space to understand what I am telling you ok?’

I nod. What does he mean shift? I really feel lost right now. As I am trying to understand anything he is saying I hear a slight crack of his neck and see his eyes turn that midnight black I find enticing. More cracks come from his body and I sit rigid. He crouches down and before my eyes I see this man somehow develop hair all over his body. I can feel myself starting to shake, I look around the room for an exit but he is close to the door. Looking back I see his arms and legs have changed they are now animalistic with large paws, he face starts to contort and take another shape. I blink thinking I have drunk to much this evening. With a few more cracks he vanishes down the side of the bed and I can not see. My heart is racing, I am sweating but I stand and slowly walk towards my side of the bed.

Before I reach the bed, a pure black wolf bigger than that of a tiger pounces onto the bed. I stand frozen staring I feel like my heart is going to explode from my chest. I must be f*****g dreaming I think to myself.

‘No you are not Lex. He is my mate’ Lilac comes back and speaks.

What, what does she even mean. Her mate? She usually says ours. Wait. Is he trying to tell me I am like him? Can I do that? Can I change into one of those things? Surely that isn’t what he is suggesting, things like this aren’t real. But yet I just saw, I don’t even know what I saw but it’s there.

The wolf before me is laying on all fours looking into my eyes, I swear he looks concerned, He lets our a small whimper and shuffles towards me ever so slightly.

To my surprise I don’t step back. But I am also no longer frozen. Something takes over me and I reach out my hand towards the animal laying on the bed, on a boat on the River Thames. Which now I put it that way sounds absolutely insane. But I keep reaching, the animal shuffles closer to me and before I realise it is nuzzling my hand. It’s fur is the softest thing I have ever touched. It purrs in my hand. Looking into its eyes I finally speak remembering what Dan said

‘Are you midnight?’ I ask the animal in a tone way higher than my own. I am going crazy I just know it. But why did this feel familiar.

The animal lets out a happy howl and rolls over exposing his belly panting like he wants to be petted. I step even closer so I can reach and tickle his belly. He purrs under my touch.

I can not help but smile at him. He rolls back over making me step back, but only slightly. He stands up a little and comes nose to nose with me looking into my eyes. Before I can react, he licks my cheek and jumps back off the opposite side of the bed.

Within a few moments and more cracking sounds, I watched as the wolf changed back into a man.

I was now looking into Dan’s eyes, I could see he was happy, but I was just confused. My head was starting to hurt and I think my throat has gone dry. I try to grab onto something because I start to spin. Dan rushed to my side and catches me and lays me on the bed. He looks deep into my eyes, what I see is pure love, desire and hope. But there is something else, he looks kind of scared.

One more thing was in my mind before I fell into darkness, I was not crazy. Somehow I knew what this all was. I was realising what was happening, I knew deep down.

I am a wolf.