I am Broken

Chapter 9- Willow POV

                    My body felt weak, and my head was spinning into an abyss of darkness, the last thing I remembered was being held safely in Jakes arms but when my eyes peeled open, I was in my bed, well the one I was given, I noticed the door slowly opening and a part of me wanted it to be Jake. I felt confused and shamed I was wanting him but to my relief it was Mia, even though I didn’t know her, she was a friendly face, and I knew she wouldn’t harm me in my weaken state.

                  She rushed over to me when she realised, I was awake. “oh, Willow how are you feeling?” she asked, I almost didn’t know how to use my voice it felt so sore, “tired and sore” I managed to whisper, she smiled and handed me a mug, the liquid inside looked like tea but it defiantly didn’t smell like it and after what Marcus had given me I was wary of anything I drank from anyone here, she saw my hesitation and smiled “it’s okay Willow, it’s my special blend of tea, it’s like a strong pain killer without the side effect”

                “No offence Mia, but after what Marcus gave me, I don’t think I should drink anything but water” she sighed taking the drink from my hand and taking a sip, “if I wanted to poison you, I could have done it without making you drink something, that is so obvious” she laughed and I couldn’t help smiling a little at her weird threat, remind me to never get on her bad side. Once again taking the mug I took a good gulp, I didn’t want to be in pain anymore though it was nothing compared to the other day, the thought of Alex cheating on me was breaking my heart and I didn’t want to feel that anymore.

                “Where is Jake?” I asked her, hoping to get an honest answer but from her hesitation I knew I wasn’t going to get the truth “please don’t lie to me Mia, I can feel it in your aura, my powers may be weaken but I can still tell a lot about someone” she sighed knowing I had court her “well, I was going to tell you he was called away for business but since you probably can tell that is a lie, there is no harm in telling you the truth, he’s flew back to America to confront Alex, though I don’t condemn his chivalry towards you but when he gets back he’s going to be in deep s**t with Marcus”

             My heat beat quickened at the thought, he could kill him “when did he go?” I asked in a hurry, I began to wait for the excruciating pain that comes when your mate dies but It wouldn't come much to my relief when Mia told me how long he had been gone “he’s been gone a few days but he called me about an hour ago to check on you and said he was flying home, I will tell you now you won’t see him for a few days as Marcus will have him punished” I sighed but I was grateful that no blood had been shed, a part of me was happy that Jake was coming back to me and that confused me, all my emotions were haywire and its exhausting.

                   I sat back on the headboard of the bed and let the tea do its work, my body was to tried to talk any further but it seemed I wasn’t done with visitors “babe, Marcus is here to see the Luna, and our son needs feeding” Gray was stood in the doorway and didn’t step any further, I gave him a half-hearted smile to be polite but I really wasn’t in the mood “I shall leave you then Willow, I am down the hall if you need me and we are having a family dinner with the whole pack this evening, we hope you will be able to join us” 

                 I appreciated her invite and felt she was trying her hardest to make me comfortable but after everything I had been through, I was still cautious of her “thank you, for all you have done if I am feeling up to it, I will be there” she smiled gleefully and left my room hand in hand with Gray. The two seconds I was alone was peaceful, but the room suddenly darkened, and I knew who was about to enter, Marcus.

                 He looked a little more kept since that last time I saw him and there was a weird sensation of calm, I couldn’t tell if it was what he gave me a few days prior or was it just myself, I was so confused and my head started to spin, he could instantly tell I was feeling funny as he was by my side before I could even blink, “are you okay?” he asked as he brushed his hand against my cheek and sat me back up “thank you, I felt a bit funny” I explained “that’s understandable you have been out a few days, I came and checked on you as much as I could, I even stayed by your side as you slept, one night it seemed like you were having a nightmare, I had Mia do a small spell to calm you but I just couldn’t leave you”

                   I didn’t know what to say or how to react, the man who is wrath itself showed his gentle side as he sat by my side. I really took his features in, his eyes were like pearls, white with a blue tinge and his hair was now shaved back and styled, I remembered before it was long down to his shoulders but he had cut it and it suited him well, and the scar across his face looked like a lightning strike, but it weirdly suited him, I realised I had been staring at him for a while so I shifted my weight to get in to a better position slightly further away from him but he still felt close.  

               “Do you like what you see” he chuckled as he noticed me becoming uncomfortable, I continued to star not knowing what to say “you really calmed when I kissed you” I felt instantly sick “you kissed me while I slept” I said in disgust “yes, I planted a small one on your lips and to be honest I wanted your little mate to feel even a fraction of what you felt the other day, so I don’t regret my actions if that’s what you were going to ask” I felt suddenly wordless, I wanted to scream and shout and talk about my consent but I was in his clutches, if he wanted me he would take me, he shown that kind of behaviour before but this felt different, almost caring, god what is wrong with me!

                 “I want you to be my wife Willow, I want you to rule the underworld with me” he question made me mad and finally I had words to say, “you have to be f*****g kidding me right, I mean you were at my last wedding and that didn’t end well, what the hell makes you think I am going to marry you let alone anyone at this rate!” if I had strength in my legs I would have stormed out of the room but I was stuck and his weird smile told me I was in for more marriage crap. “you mistake me Willow, I am never going to force you, you will want to marry me, you will come to me and beg for me to take you completely and at that point I will not hesitate” his words sent shivers down my spine, it felt like my life was on repeat.

                 Why does everyone think they can control my life, it was getting tired and repetitive “I don’t think that is ever going to happen Marcus, at this point if I live to escape from here, I’m going to go somewhere no one is going to find me, I am tired, so tried” he chuckled “I will always find you Willow, now that you have my blood in you, I have started our mating process, even though we have no one to govern us, we have no god or goddess like all other species, we make our own rules and our own rituals and with a little bit of witchy help our life partners are created, my long life may be a punishment but we certainly make the most of it” 

                 “Wait there is more than one goddess?” he smiled at my naivety “I will tell you in time Willow, there is a lot you don’t know about your destiny, now get some rest, we have a dinner to attend tonight” he held my cheek and kissed my forehead, if this is my life is it really worth living?