Money can't buy happiness and love

Disgusted attracted attention

I have to admit this household does run very efficiently... every servant has their own uses.

I feel useless, that never bothered me in the past. Money was my flag that I waved like a regular bull fighter. Obstacles as big as the worst aggressive person could be bought over with money.

The origins of my money has also become my biggest problems. My money was inherited, from my mother who was a tough battle axe of a woman. My father knew he had to tread the line or else...

My mother was probably battle weary as she had to fend off the rest of my large family to keep her wealth.

My mother was from the renowned Renata family who owned most of the southwestern parts of the great city of Calpac.

Our planet was populated a few thousand years ago from a planet that has since become extinct.

There is great catacombs of scrolls and ancient texts that describe the origins more clearly. I have read through many of these scrolls but it all seems pointless to me as the people described in them has long since past away. They have all become dust under our feet.

If anyone had looked for me, they would probably find me as they have now started to do once more as evidence of me being alive has resurfaces. I have not gone to the authorities to say that I Carmelita Renata is still very much alive.

I am being audited for tax evasion as well as money laundering to a militant organization. I myself do not know what the name of this organization is...

I was probably framed or set up by someone who intended to tear me to peace in a literative sense.

Yesterday I had cleaned what was my greatest crushes room.

Or should I say personal quarters. I have definitely not expected the amount of pent up emotions I would feel.

The head chef Castello was also in charge of the kitchen had me serving the important family members of my previous crush of the Damien family...

Jordie Damien had naturally not lost any of his super goodlooks since yesterday. I have been the one who lost my emotional attachment for him. In other words I now loathe him as the pest that he is.

My disgust of him was probably showing clearly on my face as I was violently pulled to one side in the kitchen when I went to retrieve a platter of food destined for the dinner table of the Damien family.

"How dare you look at our master with disgust... who do you think you are?" he all but screamed at me.

Fortunately the kitchen is quite far from the dinner table. I don't think the Damien family can hear us speaking or at least I hope they can't hear.

How can this man be so callous and probably get us both into trouble. He forces me into a standstill position as he has me pinned with one hand holding me still as he has my clothes in a tightfisted grip.

"Young woman, you have some nerve looking at the Masters son the way you have. I hope you have a good explanation for your audacity." he is now very agitated.

I try to lie, but eventually I explain what had happened the day before. I just touched on the subject when his face seemed to soften for a moment.

What followed was a few smacks on my cheeks. He said that I would thank him later for the rebuffing I had just received. Personally I do not think that would help me to like or ever want to be part of Jordie Damiens life again.

I think all this posturing from my new boss was making waves with the Damiens. They were glancing my way.

Or maybe I was so mixed up emotionally that I could not do anything other than serve and stand against the wall waiting for my next instruction.

I was very glad when the evening finally ended and I could go to the kitchen. I don't know if I would even have an appetite to eat anything right now. I eat as much as I can stomach as I have no appetite at the moment. I do not want to become sick as I need my strength.

As I walk past the security computer in the center of the guard room, I am waved at from a distance by a red flashing light. I have to go past this little room to get to the stairs. The stairs leads to the attic where my room is.

When I stupidity stop to take a look I am so shocked when to my surprise Jericho the computer system flashes me a message. "Carmileta are you ok girl?" I must be going slightly soft in the head or something.

I only saw the message for a second and I could have sworn that the Jericho computer system was trying to communicate with me.

I have now closed my eyes and I am trying to navigate around this corner safely without actually looking at the computer. I have to keep my head together right now.

I have to do the right thing for myself as I immediately go to my tiny washroom to wash my face and seek relief from my hallucinations. I feel quite strange as I have never experienced so much emotional feelings as today.

There is a com system in each room of this house that is attached to the Jericho computer system. Mercifully there is no such system in the attic where I am staying. This makes me feel really safe.

As I fall asleep that night I realized that I have to try to control my emotions at all times.

I now know in this house I could not be showing my emotions so clearly. I have to control myself and not show anyone how I am feeling. It could get dangerous...