The Rogue

Chapter Two

I remember the first time I saw Jace Haymend, the heir of the Crescent wolf pack, my mother took me to see the Alpha I don't even remember the reason why anymore. But I remember him, I remember Jace standing next to his dad. Watching his dad as I watched him learning from his dad like I was trying to learn about him in those few seconds, the minute his attention was direct to me I was lost looking in to his emerald green eyes, a pair of eyes that seemed to make the world stop for me, a deep contrast to his ink back hair that was a mess on top of is head. He looks older than me but not by much. He frowned the first time he saw me like I was a puzzle he was trying to work out. I had not even talked to him yet, and I felt his eyes looking for a way into my mind. My mother was the one that introduced him, stating "Honey, this is Jace the young Alpha. I am sure you guys will get along really well." I just nodded my head still staring at the kid that was standing in front of me. "Remember to play nice Cas,," My mother laughed like it was not possible for me to be nice, I was not big enough to be mean what choice did I have.

I don't know what we talked about that day Jace and I, but I spent all day talking to him. I knew that I had found my best friend in the pack. I felt a need to be everything he wanted to be his strength and be there for him. Though I could not put words to it, he was the first person I had every trusted apart from my mother. He made me feel safer then I had felt since I had left my old pack, it was the best feeling in the world. After that day we were inseparable. Being my most trusted friend I told him everything, how I felt about being weak. How much of a disappoint I was to my family that my mother left to protect me because I could not protect my people like I was born to do. It was the first time I felt like I could cry to anyone, and I did, I bawled my eyes out that day with him leaving me open and free from all judgment that I felt would have been directed at me. He held me that day as I cried comforting me as I needed it and wiping my tears away. A moment outside time it felt like to a someone twelve and fifteen. To be that open and honest with each other. Jace told me all the pressures about being the new alpha, how he feared letting down his people and his parents how everything in the world seemed to be spinning by so fast and he could not keep up. It was a perfect day, a day that I thought I would hold to my heart for the rest of my life.

When I got home that night, I had a smile on my face like no other, and when I tried to stop, I would smile more. It was a curse that I had been given for the blessing of a fantastic day. The minute I opened the door my eyes found my mother in the kitchen cooking a blush already creeping across my shoulders knowing full well that my mother would see right through me to the happiness I was carrying around with me, my mother had already seen my smile and had a smile of her own on. "Ohhhh. I see someone was with Jace again today." She laughed rest her hands on her hip as she does hinting all too much there may have been a crush behind my smile. Something she has been hinting at a lot and though I deny it every time she knows that I am lying. "He is a friend mother that is all," I laugh full well knowing that she would not be fooled but I was not willing to admit it yet. She holds her hands up in the air in mock defeat, shaking her head like she had given up, but the smile on her face implicated a different story very much telling me that what she was presenting was only an act like mine. She knew the truth as much as I did, I really liked this kid. I blush as the confession seizes my mind like a small school girl on the playground, my mother looks over a small warms her faces and then turns her head away only making me blush harder. Making me prove to her all too well that she was right in regards to assuming my feelings for Jace. I quickly rush to my room, in my escape to avoid further embarrassment to myself. I rush through my door and close it behind me swiftly in a stupid attempt that it might protect any secrecy that I might have, I launch myself on to my mattress, look up to the roof of this house and smile to myself. Ever since we have been a part of this pack life has been nearly perfect, the members accepted my mother, and I like old friends making us a part of this pack and never asked any questions about why. They were even so kind as to give us a place to live on our own a small cottage, just a little bit away from the alphas own house. When they first gave it to us, I thought it might have been so they could keep an eye on my mother and me, but this has seemed not the be the case. They have sent me to the nearby school with the rest of the younger wolves here, I have not made any special friends there, but everyone always makes me feel welcomed. It was still better being able to go with Jace, enjoying the bus ride together, since I have come here he has yet to really have left my side. Whenever he is able to, he always comes over to play, invites me to every event. With everything that we have gained with moving here, he would be the best.

Being so lost in my thoughts I almost did not hear my phone go off, I quickly pick it up and have a look at the message. Looking at who sent the message my face breaks out into a smile, it was from Jace. He was not one to message a lot despite how much we like to talk to each other he prefers face to face, he thinks it to be more real. You want to sneak out tonight? I smile to myself, I have sneaked out of the house a few times to see Jace, we go on a late night walk that my mother would never let me go on, but it helps Jace it's his release from the role of a to be Alpha. Not wanting him to be alone when he likes to go on his midnight walks I have been going with him. 'Sure' I message back, his response being that of a smiley face. I could not help but smile again, like a small school girl I was hopelessly in love with this kid.

I did not realize that it was dinner time until my stomach growled at me, surprisingly after you change your stomach does nothing but demand food. Giving in to it with a sigh, I head towards the kitchen.

"What do you want me to tell her, it's not something that is so easy to lie about Katherine." Someone harshly whispered, I scoot behind the wall not wanting to break into the conversation but not wanting to miss it either, I know my mother has many secrets, many she does not tell me, "Well I don't know Markus, maybe rogue wolves or something. Just make sure the job is done, and she looked after." My mother snaps back clearly the alpha has pushed my mothers' buttons with something. Being the former Luna of our last pack, she does not back down, if it was a matter of safety for the people that are worth protecting. A growl escapes the alphas lips aimed at my mothers' harsh tone that we being directed at the leader of this pack. "I don't want to do this Katherine! We can find another way," He growled again at my mother. "We don't have the time for another way Markus, I can feel them pushing already." she snapped a long sigh breaks the silence that was surrounding them. I waited for a response but was not expecting the sound of a door closing, Markus must have left the house, I stepped out from behind the wall walking in the kitchen trying to attempt the act of innocents that I must portray after ears dropping on their conversation. My mothers head was in her hands looking as if she was in despair, a look that I have not seen on her face since we had changed packs. "Are you ok mother?" I ask worriedly about what the alpha might have been talking about if it made my mother upset. She immediately perked up, "oh honey I didn't hear you come in, I was just thinking about some of the stuff that we have to replace here, some parts of the room are quite old." she laughed. Why did not hear me come in wolves have excellent hearing, though in the moment of being flustered my mother has seemed to forget this. Thinking about it know she lacked a lot of qualities this week that shows you are a wolf I wonder why. "So why are you here love and not messaging that lover boy of yours?" My mum giggles wiggling her eyes brows as she does, I groan in frustration "Mother!" I whine, "it's not like that."

"Sure it's not." She continues wiggling her eyebrows at me laughing at the mortification on my face as she does.

"Mum can we not do this now I am so hungry," I laugh in an attempt to sway her from the conversation. As soon as the words escape my lips through her eyes go as big as dinner bowls and her mouth starts moving like a fish... having seen this face before I let a sigh of despair... "You forgot about dinner again." I cry. Crippled in pain at the thought of having to wait any longer for food. Mother laughs, "I am sure you can wait a little bit longer, you can help with dinner tonight make it go that bit faster." "Fine, only because it will make it go faster." I huff, not liking the idea of me having to cook.

Dinner was awful, I fall on to my bed in despair. I have no idea why mother suggested that I help in the kitchen I burnt everything that I tried to cook tonight. This happens every time, why does she even try. I shake my head, my mother, trying to teach me how to be a wife has never seemed to work, everything feminine that I am meant to do, I have never been able to accomplish. I hope that my destined to be mate out there is a better woman then I am I chuckle to myself. A knock on my door takes my attention away from my current women dilemma. Mother pokes her head in then walks into my room, her hands twisting around one another, like a knot trying to tie its self up but never seem strong enough to hold. "I just came in here to make sure you are ok," She whispered standing in my room like she was a stranger. "Og course I am ok, why would I not be?" I ask, confused where this was all coming from. My mother nods then turn to leave, opens the door but then closes it again, before she has even taken a step out the door. She turns on the spot and walks over and takes a seat on the bed. "You know I love you right," She whispers as her lips find themselves to my forehead in the lightest of kisses like a butterfly fluttering past. "I know, I love you to mother," I whisper back. Her hands find the sides on my face and she looks straight into my eyes her green eyes glistering with unshed tears. "Always believe in yourself, know that everything I have done is because I love you, you are stronger then you could ever imagine and more special to me then you could ever know." She smiles the tears threating to spill over, and just like that she stands and rushes out of my room. A rare sentinel moment between mother and daughter that we share. I lay down in bed, my mind going over every word she just said trying to remember them forever. A rare moment that I don't want to forget I close my eyes, thinking of this moment while I wait for the phone to ring later on through the night reminding me of my midnight stroll with Jace.