FORBIDDEN FEELINGS

A Glimpse Of Misery

“You need saving right now, don't you?”

Ryan's deep voice called from behind.Emma felt an engulfing sense of uneasiness and shame the moment she turned to face him.Obviously,he had noticed the trail of her teardrop.

She attempted to refuse but couldn't,as a phycologist,it would taint her, people bring their private problems to her doorstep,she had to practice what she preaches.

“Mr Connor,I …I didn't know you attended the party too”, she said with a forced smile.

“Yes, despite I was forced to,as expected,the first hour of my entrance was boring except I had to deal with unwanted stares and feminine disgusting winks”

Emma laughed in spite of herself, funny how Ryan's sense of humor always overwhelms his conversations.

“Not until I saw you walk in,I must say,you look really stunning in this dress”.

He said nonchalantly but Emma felt a tingling sensation in her mind.She had expected to hear this from Micheal but all she got was a straight okay.

“Why did you follow me out?”

Emma knew she shouldn't be afraid of the inevitable,how much Ryan saw,she had to be sure.

“I saw you fighting back those nasty teardrops and watched your stare at your good looking companion’s retreating figure”.

Damn! He saw it all,she thought inwardly and bit her lower lips.

“Are you pulling out of our sessions then?”

“Why should I? Aren't you human? Are you supposed to be immune to problems?”

His word melted her heart as she had not expected it.Solving other people's problems leaves her drained sometimes that it gets difficult to deal with hers.Michael had initially been a good spouse from onset until…until the sparks faded away completely.

“You care for more wine? Or the fresh breeze has enough power to heal your woes?Or maybe a drive around town?”

Emma almost laughed, Ryan sounded like a therapist with bad advice at the moment.

“The breeze would do with a companion”.

Emma's words made him smile,he had never been happier when a woman requested his companionship but right now.He had to heal his proposed healer,she needs to be in a good shape to save him too.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

No! Was what her mind keeps screaming,one look at Ryan's face she despised Michael at that very moment,here she was talking with a mere patient while her husband had been whisked away by his ex girlfriend.

“There is nothing to talk about,it is obvious we are hitting a rock bottom”.

“You are sounding like a woman who already has the divorce papers printed”.

Emma's heart skipped a beat,Ryan had actually guessed right just as she had with him on their first encounter.This was really surprising.

“You could make a phycologist yourself,how come you haven't tried self healing Mr Connor?”

“I witnessed something traumatic as a child,it conquers me everytime”.

Emma knew if they kept up with this,they were going to dive into each other's lives and her professionalism would be in jeopardy.

“Enough about the sad stuff,let us go in and enjoy the boring party”, Emma said playfully and Ryan followed her without questioning anything.

They were about to turn a corner when her eyes caught something,the red gown Selena had on,it was quite dark but obviously she wasn't alone.Emma quickened her pace desperately praying it wasn't it.

Ryan sensed her uneasiness and followed her stride till they got there and both witnessed it, Michael fervently kissing Selena.She staggered backward and Ryan held her.She tightened her grasp on him but Ryan didn't bulge, the betrayal in front of them was enough to shatter any mind.

Ryan managed to drag her gently out of the view as Michael and Selena were so engrossed in each other that they failed to notice their presence.The moment they were out of earshot, Emma turned to face Ryan who had a confused expression on his handsome face.

“I think I need that drive around town now”.

Ryan nodded in understanding and led her to his car.He sped out of the parking space and Emma felt a cold breeze slapping her face,awful scenery replayed all over in her mind.This time around,she didn't fight back tears as she didn't have any to shed.

She knew all she needed at that moment was escapism.She reached out for a bottle of wine Ryan had kept in his car and showed it to his face for an unspoken permission which Ryan granted with a nod.

Emma gulped down the bottle of wine and Ryan didn't bother to stop her,she wasn't a fragile hearted woman,he knew that,and venting out her frustration by getting drunk wasn't a bad idea to him.

After driving around for about thirty minutes in silence,Ryan noticed she was already dozing off.He made a stop at a hotel and booked two rooms,he carried her into one and switched off the light.

He was about to turn the doorknob when he heard her scream and rushed back to her.To his astonishment,she threw him on the bed and climbed on top of him.

Before Ryan could react,she started kissing him desperately,he tried to get her off himself but she held a higher advantage.Her profile had said she was a black belt champion in her prime.

Ryan felt it too,the electrifying attraction between them,he couldn't resist longer as he kissed her ferociously.Their tongue danced in sync and so did their bodies.

Emma could feel Ryan's erection through his bulged trouser,but she didn't care,she was drunk enough to do something dumb and deal with the consequences when she became sober.

She started unbuttoning his shirt and her hand traced his bicep.Ryan inhaled sharply her intoxicating scent and was fondling with her breast.They were so unbelievably pecky for her age let alone a mother.

After successfully undressing his upper body,Emma moved to uncurl his belt,as her hand grazed his bulged erection,he stiffened.

What the hell are you doing Ryan Connor! his subconscious mind screamed at him.Taking advantage of a vulnerable married woman is beneath you, your therapist at that.

Unexpectedly,he threw Emma off himself and rushed out of the room bare chested.Series of emotions passed through his mind,shame being the most dominant.He wasn't drunk like she was,he should have stopped earlier.

He looked down at his erection which refused to lay low and felt terrible.He walked into his own rented room despite he could hear less audible tears from Emma's room.

He managed to convince himself to sleep despite the consistent prickling of his conscience.He closed his eyes and the usual awful dream started again.In the most heated moment of it,he heard that strangely frightening voice.

“I am back in Los Angeles best friend,I will find you!!”

“Alex!” He shouted breathlessly.