His little mate

Chapter 9

Marcus POV

I woke up with the light shining in my face and feeling someone lying on top of me. I looked down and I saw my beautiful mate passed out on top of me, I figured that she did not fall asleep on top of me because she is too shy and scared for that, but I am happy that she wants me, even if it is in her sleep. I forced my eyes away from her and I found us sleeping on the sofa where we were watching the movie. I looked at the table and frowned, it was the same as when I went to sleep, she had not eaten any of the snacks I brought up, she did not even drink some water. This worried me. Why did she not eat or drink any of it, maybe she thought she was not allowed, I will tell her she can eat it next time. I looked at the television and I saw that there was more than one movie out of his box and this made me smile, she watched more movies without asking, she did something she liked, without asking. I looked back at her and I could not keep myself from smiling, I kissed her on her hair, she shifted a little and I froze, not wanting to wake her up. She did not wake up and I relaxed. I looked at the clock it was only 8 am. I looked at Anna and I figured that she had not much sleep, so I gently picked her up, walked to the bed, and laid her in it, she tossed a little like she was missing something because she was not near me anymore, but after a minute she got back to sleep. I just kept looking at her, not wanting to leave her alone today. I silently walked away into the bathroom to have my shower. I took a quick one and when I was finished, I took a peek into the bedroom and Anna was still asleep. I dried myself and got dressed, I silently walked out the door and went downstairs to get some breakfast. When I came down, I saw that the night patrol was eating their breakfast before heading to bed. I said hello to them, and they greeted me back with “Good morning Alpha” and the ones that were standing bowed their heads, it was a sign of respect and I appreciated it, but I did not mind if they did not do it, they were loyal to me. I at my breakfast fast, without chocking or looking weird, when I was done, I left the table and went to my office, on my way there I checked in on Anna, but she was still asleep, she did move a little and was whispering but she turned around and was silent. I went into my office and took the paperwork I had for the day and I went into my room, I had a desk here, but I did not use it because I have my office, but I want to be close to my mate so I figured that I could use it for this time. I went to work but after 30 minutes Anna began to whisper again, and toss in her sleep, I looked at her and that moment she began to scream, like she was in pain, “NO, NO, NOOOO, Please don’t do this, I will be good, please!!!” and another pain-filled scream came from her “AAAAAAHHHH” and she began to whimper, I rushed myself to her trying to wake her up, but she would not wake up, I yelled her name at her telling her that it is just a dream and that it is not real but she tried to get me off of her. I tried a different approach and I picked her up in my lap and began to whisper sweat words at her. This worked she slowly calmed down and for a moment it looked like she was going back to sleep, but then her eyes fluttered open and she looked really scared like she was still in her nightmare, she had not realised our position yet and that made me a little happy because she was still in my lap. Once she woke up completely and looked around her she noticed our position and began to blush hard, her face looked like a tomato, but I found it the cutest thing ever, I love how she blushed. She looked up to me and once she saw me smile down at her she looked down. I placed one finger under her chin to get her to look up to me. Once she looked up, she blushed even harder, which I did not think was possible. She gave me a small smile to let me know she was OK, but I knew she was not alright, and I wanted to keep her close, but I knew that she was a little uncomfortable in my lap because she began to move, this had a not so good for my little friend there. I kept having a straight face while she kept moving, I saw a small frown on her face, she felled it and she was trying to figure out what it is she is sitting on, but before she could do anything I spoke. “Are you alright now, you gave me quite a scare again, with your nightmare, I do not mind waking you up, I love being near you?” I told her, she blushed “I am al-al-right,” she told me, this made me a little happier because she spoke almost without having to stutter. I smiled at her, I looked at the clock it told me it was already 10 am. “Are you hungry, it is already 10 am, maybe we can go down so you can eat, or I can bring something up for you if you prefer that.” She looked at me with a little wrinkle on her head, she looked down at her stomach, like she was debating with herself if she should say yes to the food or not. I kept looking at her debating with herself, at some point her eyes clouded over telling me she was talking to her wolf. After five minutes she looked at me, “I am n-not re-really hun-gry, b-but Hope is telling met-to go w-wi-with y-you an-and eat some-something.” This made me a little happy and sad at the same time because her wolf needs to tell her into eating something and I did not like that at all, but she did agree on eating something so I should not be complaining. I smiled at her and I let go of her so she could get off my lap, but she did not move, I looked down at her and she was having her head on my chest and looking into space like she was at peace and this made me smile, I took her in my arms again and whispered, “What has you deep in thoughts, love, are you thinking about me, or about your nightmare?” I asked her. She jumped a little and she blushed again, I smiled even harder at the sight of it. She looked at me, with a little guild in her eyes telling me it was a combination of the two. “Do you want to tell me?” I asked her. She nodded her head yes. This surprised me, and I told her to continue, she looked at me and said: “I was th-think-ing a-about h-ho-w y-you w-woke m-m-e u-p, n-o one has ever-ever ma-man-aged t-to do-do th-that… wit-with-out hur-hurting m-m-me.” She looked down after she was done, ashamed, I think. I lifted her chin and made her look at me. I kissed her on her head and smiled at her, she blushed, again. “I love that you want to share things with me, this tells me you are starting to trust me, and I love it, I love you…” I said it, I love her. She looked at me with shock written all over her face. She could not say it back, and I knew that, and I did not want to force her to say it. “I know you are not ready to say it yet, maybe never, but that is alight, I will wait till you are ready to say to me what you feel and want.” I saw that she was relieved, and it made me a little sad, but happy at the same time, and I did not know why maybe because this meant she was thinking about it. “I-I l-l-li-like y-you, If-f-feel s-a-ve w-with you. B-b-but I do n-not kn-know w-what the o-other t-ting i-is I f-feel.” She whispered, if I were not a wolf, I would not have heard it. This made me happy because this meant she did feel the mate-bond and that she felt something for me. I smiled at her, “I like to hear that from you, and you do not need to worry too much, I will not leave you alone, I will protect you and I will try everything I can to keep you safe.” This made her smile at me, like a real smile, nod a small one to tell me she was OK, but a really beautiful smile. This made me even happier. I looked at her, it must have been a few minutes, but it felt like hours, but then I looked up and saw the time, it was already 10:45 am, she had to eat something. “Alright, how about, you go and have a shower so I can get you some clean clothes and after that, we can go down for a late breakfast/lunch”. I looked at her and she was still smiling a little, but also nodding her head, I let her go so she could get off and into the shower, this time she did get off my lap. When she got off, she whimpered a little and she had to take another step, I quickly took her hips in my hands to balance her, this worked but without looking I knew she was blushing. I did not let go of her hips, “C-c-can y-you pl-please l-let m-me g-g-go?” she asked me. “Only if you are sure, you did not hurt yourself and that you can walk to the bathroom yourself,” I told her, she nodded her head telling me she could, “I want to hear you tell me you can so I can be sure,” I told her. “I c-can w-walk, I-I am not h-hurt”. She told me, I let go of her and I watched her walking to the bathroom very carefully. I went out of the room to get her some clothes, I came back 5 minutes later, and I heard the shower going, it went on for a few more minutes before it was turned off. I knocked on the door, “Y-y-yes?” she spoke through the door. “I have some clothes for you and the medicine for your wounds, do you want your underwear so you can put it on and so I can take care of your wounds?”

Anna’s POV

Last night was amazing, I watched movies and I slept sort of great until the nightmare came, but I had the feeling that I got it pretty late, like I had a guardian with me, until a couple of minutes before I woke. I had a nightmare about him again. Max, he was beating me again, before raping me, it was the same as always, pain, pain, and more pain. I tried to wake up, to listen to Marcus his voice, I could hear him in the background, but I could not reach him, the pain was too much and I screamed it out. But suddenly I felt safe, I could not feel the pain anymore. I slowly opened my eyes; I was still coming back from my nightmare but weird enough I felt safe. After a few minutes, at least I think it was a few minutes, I felt a pair of strong arms around me. I looked up and I saw Marcus. I felt really happy then, waking up in his arms. Then he told me he loved me, I did not know what to think about that I was too confused about him, myself, life, everything. And he just drops such a bomb on me, he loves me, but I could not say it back, and that saddened me. He told me to not overthink it and just say it, or not when I was ready. He then sends me off to shower, what I am about to do, he told me he wanted me to eat, and I know I have to, even Hope tells me to, but I really cannot help it, I am fat and ugly, that is what they always told me. And eating too much will get me even more fat and ugly. I sighed and took my clothes off, I did not dare to look into the mirror, I would only see trash, someone not good enough for living. I looked at the shower, remembering all the torture that happened in showers. I took a deep breath and stepped in, it only took me 5 minutes tops to shower, I hope I will get over it and that I will be able to have a real shower someday. I dried myself when I remembered I did not have any clothes, I thought about putting my old ones back on, when I heard a knock. “Y-y-yes” I spoke through the door. I have some clothes for you and the medicine for your wounds, do you want your underwear so you can put it on and so I can take care of your wounds?” he spoke through the door. This made me nervous, he wanted to give me the clothes, but also, I knew they had to be checked, and the medicine had to be put on them. So, I decided to be brave and tell him he could give me the clothes and after that check my wounds. “Y-you c-cc-can c-come i-i-in, b-b-but c-can you f-f-first gi-give m-me th-the clo-clothes?” I told him. “I will give you the clothes, if you can come out when you’re done, I will be sure to not walk in on you changing.” He told me and then he opened the door a little with his eyes closed and his hand in front of him, which had the clothes. I took them and he closed the door without peaking. I put on my underwear, took a deep breath and stepped out. He looked at me with lust in his eyes, which scared me a little, but I knew he would not do anything. He took a deep breath and walked to me. He did the same as last night, asking me permission to touch me and being very careful. When he was done, he insisted on helping me with my clothes. When we were done, I was looking down, because he had just helped me dress, he saw all of me. He put his finger under my chin and lifted my head. He gave a kiss on my head and smiled at me. “You have nothing to be ashamed of, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Do not think otherwise.” I blushed at his words. I hold my exposed arms, which had a few scares, and tried to hide them from him. He took my hands away from my scares and said: “You scares only tell me how strong you are, you are a fighter.” He gave me another kiss. “Alright, it is already 11:30 am, let’s get some food into you.” He told me smiling, and he gently pulled me with him downstairs to eat something.