Just like Daddy

Did I just say that?

Jessica pov 

He rejected me and i wanted him more.  I get what I want and how dare he reject me? I know how to please him? He was different he said no despite how hard he was. Usually guys just. Ahhhh.  I can't believe I said I loved him. It was the weekend and I thought it would be awkward but, he treated me like the same. As a sister as a friend. I just couldn't take it anymore. He was keeping his distance. "I like you" I said randomly. "no you don't" he just reply. "Yes I do" "no I'm a phase it happens. You just have a crush on me" he smirked but, he just move again before I touched him. What the hell? He knew I love him? I love him? Right? No I know I don't love him I must love him? Why ain't he just like those others? I ignored him I tried to but, maybe he was right. Kiss him. Kiss him.  Kiss him. I just walked up to him sat on his lap and I straddled him and kissed him again. I stopped again. "See I love you" I said and I grinded him. He tried to stop me. I took his hands and held them as he fought. I kissed him again. I felt him stare at me and I didn't want to look at him. "just take me Mark" I asked as I felt him get hard. He pushed me off him.  I was surprised. He was angry at me. I looked hoping. Just then he walked up to me but, he paused and he turned and  walked out of the room. I chuckled. He be back? Right? He was fighting it. His body wanted me. I didn't understand why he didn't give his body the needs.  I wasn't that strong. I fight but, I gave in. I wanted to know how he did that. I needed to go. I can't hurt his pure soul. I felt defeated. One more try.  

I was determined. I waited for him to come out but, he didn't come out. So I went to his room. "Mark"  I felt awkward. "Yes" "are you mad at me?" He looked up. "No" shook his head "no why?" I walked in and sat on his bed. He was lying right? "Look I know you had a rough life and..." She cut him off upset. "my father has nothing to do with my feelings for you" "yes he does and if you want to talk we can" "about what?" "Anything" I bite my bottom lip and smiled. "About us?" He chuckled "us?" "Yes" I laid down. "How do you know?" "I just know it's another sense I just" I shrug my shoulders. "I get these feelings and it is always right... Right now I know we will marry" "marry?" "Yes" I sigh. "How can you ignore your body?" I asked. "It's called temptation" he replied. "so I'm tempted why?" "Yes.. by the devil" "does that make me a sinner cause I love you?" I asked. "No" I looked at the ceiling and his question shocked me."can you talk about your father" "why?" "So I can understand you more" I looked at him. "Are you going to snitch?" "No" "so o promise you won't tell anyone." "I promise" "are you lying?" "Don't you trust me?". "well..." " Look Jessica if you want us to be together you have to trust me" "ok so are you giving us a chance?" "Yes" I grinned. "Just don't be inappropriate though" "ok what do you want to know?" 

"Everything" 

"Everything... I..." I get up quickly and leave. How could I tell him everything? He won't like me? 

I went to my room and paced back and forth. If I tell him everything will he tell his mom? If I don't trust him will he end it? I couldn't lose him.