My eyes flickered as I slowly woke up, my blurry eyes blinking faster and faster to clear them up as I went to turn my head to survey my surroundings.
But a splitting pain lanced through me at the attempt and I groaned lowly as I forced myself to sit up with my left hand supporting my head.
Grateful for the wall close to me, I desperately pushed myself to it and relaxed on the cool hard exterior.
I sighed as my eyes moved painfully from side to side and found that the cell was pretty empty save for the occasional guards trailing in and out.
And many times as I tried to recuperate, I heard the distinct sounds of moaning and gagged breathing that bit at my ears unpleasantly.
These guards should take their business elsewhere, they were disturbing my almost peaceful slumber and I wasn't liking it at all.
My wolf senses were taking too much time to heal me but I was grateful for it, at first I never had a wolf and the chance to have one wouldn't escape from my grasp just because of a mere injury.
“You're awake, good.” A voice reached me and I startled, a groan of protest and pain leaving my lips as I clutched at my throbbing head but heard nothing so I glanced up to find a bored beta.
“What do you want?” I gritted out, my voice low and uninterested but he merely gave me a funny look.
“Don't overestimate yourself, love. My lord just doesn't want you dead before he finds a better use for you than torture which of course is my favorite,” he said, his voice growing dangerously low and enough to strike a tad bit of fear within my heart but I refused to let it show.
I knew how his lord was… the man parents told their children to scare them into doing the right thing… he was the monster in the stories of many wolf cubs.
It still sent shivers down my spine whenever I thought of what he had done…what he could do…
“And the little lap dog ran to pass the information.” I mocked and he lunged at the cell but stopped abruptly and I smirked with satisfaction.
“I might be locked up in here but you seem locked up within you. That will kill you soon enough and alleviate my worries,” I said with a calm and cool demeanor that betrayed my pounding heart and his nose flared as blue flashed in his eyes.
An elemental wolf, woah.
“You seem to love clashing with my Beta,” a voice reached my ears and my whole body went stiff as I glanced to the side to watch a man appear seemingly out of the shadows and my breath hitched once again at his extraordinary beauty.
His eyes were pitch black and intense as it gazed at me with the leisure that didn't suit his cold demeanor, his lips were blood red, a contrast to how it was when he came to torture me.
His lips curled as he gazed at his beta whose head immediately bowed and my lips twitched with the need to sneer, look how obedient he was now in front of his master like a dog.
“You've tortured me, you've beaten me while trying to extract an information that I have no f*****g clue about. What else do you want from me now?” I asked, my voice hoarse from lack of water and he shook his head, an undescribable emotion flashing in his eyes before he stepped closer to the cell.
“You see, I have done all that but none of them matters at all because when I lay hands on you, you will know what torture feels like.” his promise was a threat, his words were like poison to my ears and I instantly recoiled away from him as I laid my head on the wall and closed my eyes, a sad smile coming to my lips.
“I'd like to know how it feels like to be taken without my permission too but not everyone gets what they wish now do they?” I whispered, loud enough for them to hear and the beta spluttered as he began to cough violently.
“What?” He asked, surprise clear on his tone but I made no other movements, trying to limit my head from throbbing so bad.
“It's quite painful but it feels like home too, you can continue. Don't let me stop you,” I said, sorrow clear on my voice but I sighed internally as I prepared to try and sleep off the pain.
A scoff was heard. “Is that how you guilt trip your victims? Well, you're wrong. I'm not one of them and I plan to get the information I want from you one way or another” He hissed as a flutter was heard and I peaked through my left eye to find that he was gone, leaving the beta behind.
“I advice you to tell him what he wants. You won't like what next he will do to you,” he said, his voice solemn but I merely smiled.
“What exactly is your version of worse? Death?” I asked with pure curiosity and he shook his head, I had been through enough and death would be a reprieve from all my pain.
I wish someone could kill me though, last time I tried, it didn't work and backfired quite exquisitely.
Pesky death. When you ask for it, it doesn't come but when you don't need it, it chases after you like a curse.
“You're crazy,” He said like he just realized it and I chuckled, the sound hollow and grating, it echoed off the dark walls of the cell I was in and bounced back to my ears and I heard just how pathetic I really was at that moment.
“You just realized that? I told you you weren't smart,” I said with a small grin and his face reddened with embarrassment before he leaned in closer to the bars and stared at me– a look on his face as he continued.
“But you don't seem to be faking it, how about I give you what you want?” He asked and I instantly sat up straight.
“Death?” I asked and he nodded as he opened the cell door and began to walk towards me. Good, this was going to end. All my suffering for no just reason was going to end at that moment, and I would be free.
His claws extended and he lunged at my throat, his movements were fast and precise but still lacking when he moved, catching it and squeezing hard and my eyes widened as the life was squeezed out of me.
“How's that? Thinking of fighting back for your life now?” He asked, voice filled with thorough fulfillment as if he knew I would beg him but I smiled through my teary eyes.
His face contorted with surprise at the smile and I knew I caught him by surprise, that was what I was aiming for… he wouldn't have continued if he thought I would later beg him for my life.
This was the reprieve I was asking for, why would I be seeking a fight and begging him when I was so close.
So close to forgetting it all .. so close to ending it all. If there was a God as the mortals say, he wouldn't hold it against me because of course I didn't kill myself.
“Can you listen to yourself?” My wolf growled inside my head, her voice weak and full of sarcasm and I felt a smile almost creep onto my lips.
My eyes began to snap close as the last of my air was cut off and all I could see was black, all I could see was freedom, the faces of my family flashed in my mind and although I regretted not going back for revenge, I knew this was the quickest way to go.
Without any worries at all.
“Beta, I order you to stop this madness.” a harsh voice sounded before the beta was wrenched off of me and I slammed my head to the ground hard, my whole vision turning black and I faintly saw the face of the Alpha before I blacked out.
Fuck.. why did he come so quick.
“I hate you,” my wolf whispered, her voice ladened with pain right before I blacked out.