I couldn’t grasp the reality of me being happy and acknowledge that things were shifting for me. The negative voices in my head weren’t silent. They were still living inside of my head. Telling me to watch my back and not get too comfortable with how things were turning out for me.
I know we are all well-informed to always go with your gut feeling when it tells you that something doesn’t sit well. There wasn’t a single doubt in my mind about Jared. I was more concerned about me hurting him because of the bad and hurtful things I’ve experienced. What if my father’s bad manners rubbed off on me and I turn out just like him? I am scared for my kid’s safety when I decide to have any. I am scared for Jared’s sake when something has to happen that will trigger a bad memory and I do something t
