Zeynep
Do people know what desperation is? What do they truly understand? Which emotion do they feel most deeply? For instance, what emotion was the fire in the middle of my chest a sign of? Or how heavy is the return of the paths I resorted to out of desperation? Was anyone aware of this?
I was desperate!
I prepared myself to get beaten. I put a smile on my face. That’s how desperate I was. I needed to keep the strongest man in my life by my side. I would do anything for that. I needed to protect my brother and myself. In the past, it was just Feyyaz and my brother in front of me. I couldn’t even defend myself against them, and now I don’t even know who is in front of me.
What are these men doing with Ağa? They are both his enemies and sit at his table to eat. Such treachery is rarely
