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Why am I so obsessed? Sometimes I can't understand myself. Actually, I can't understand myself, I just drift around aimlessly. For example, when I'm told it's not yours, I strive until it is mine. When I'm told not to take it, I take it. If I'm told not to do it, I do it. If I'm told not to go, I go. I'm contrary, or so everyone says.
So what's my worst obsession? If someone doesn't love me, I fall in love with them. I can't live without them. I cry over them because they rejected me. Yet, if they paid attention to me, loved me, or treated me well, I wouldn't notice them.
This is what my family did to me. I was cursed to love those who don't love me. I didn't know any other way. My father didn't love me, he beat me, cursed me, belittled me. I loved him. He pushed my mother, she le
