Things felt so weird for a very long time for Lydia and some reason all she felt was constant fear inside of her, a very itchy impression, scared feeling, and the feeling of being alone, sad, upset. All of it together horrified Lydia and she was too close to let her emotions completely take over her. She didn't know what was next for her and that not knowing bit had the power to shake Lydia's ground, her reality.
Although she knew that she should stop all this overthinking about things that she had no control over and this she was doing to herself. Lydia knew she had to stop or else this was going to blow her mind up and maybe suffocated her. Lydia didn't need all that to happen, she just needed a while to herself and maybe sit down and calm down. She hoped her mind could just listen to h
