CLOSED
FOR LUNCHThey were
meant to go to France on holiday—or at least Spain, which was Daisy’s
preference. For as far back as she could remember, she and her family had
holidayed in France or Spain.
Tony, Daisy’s dad, loved France
and always used the holidays to practice his French. He insisted the children
spoke it too. Daisy hated that part. She could sense the French wincing as she
mangled their language. On the other hand, she spoke French much better than
most of her schoolmates.
This year, though, a foreign holiday was out of the question. “I just
couldn’t, Tony,” her mum had said. “I’d be so
worried. I mean, what if…” She looked at Daisy.
Debbie meant what if something happened to Daisy. Nine months ago,
Daisy’s life turned upside down. She had lost a stone in weeks, which was
fantastic, but she’d felt tired and thirsty all the time. Not so fantastic.
Her mum attributed it to anorexia initially—rife among Daisy’s school
friends, competitive under-eaters all—and began closely watching her daughter
as she ate. Satisfied that Daisy was eating enough and not throwing it up or
shitting it out afterwards, she took her to their GP.
He made her pee on a stick, announced she had type 1 diabetes and needed
to be admitted to the hospital as soon as possible.
Her mum started to cry. Daisy was none the wiser. “What is that?” she
asked. Didn’t her nanna sometimes talk about her friend, Dot, who had diabetes
and ate cakes even though her doctor told her not to?
“It’s a chronic health condition,” the doctor replied. “Your pancreas
has stopped working. It’s not producing insulin. You need insulin to break down
carbohydrates in food.”
Daisy still didn’t feel enlightened. “What’s the cure for it?”
The doctor sat back in his seat. The look he gave her was one of pity.
“There’s no cure, I’m afraid.”
She spent a week in the hospital,
a week where doctors, nurses and dieticians bombarded
her with information. These are carbohydrates;
this is an exchange. One exchange is an apple, one slice of bread or one
scoop of mashed potatoes. These are syringes. This
is insulin. You need to give yourself injections in the morning and at night.
One very scary doctor told her in detail what would happen if she didn’t
take care of herself.
“You will lose your eyesight. Your kidneys will pack up, and you will need dialysis. You will get
liver disease. Your nerves will stop working properly,
and you will live with pain. Your blood pressure will increase too much, and you will be at risk of a stroke or a
heart attack.”
Eventually, Debbie told him to stop. Daisy was white-faced, recovering
from the shock of yet another blood sample taken from her arm.
Life became a constant round of injections, measuring out food and
always carrying glucose tablets with her. All the activities she’d previously
taken for granted—going to school, walking there and back, meeting up with
friends, going to McDonald’s with those friends, hanging out in other people’s
houses, doing PE—they weren’t the same anymore.
Anything that involved being away from the house was now fraught with
danger, as far as her mum was concerned. In Debbie’s ideal world, Daisy reckoned she’d make sure her daughter never left
the house, schooling and Vitamin D exposure be damned.
Hence, the holiday in Kirkinwall. Tony chose the place at the last
minute. Years ago, before his children had been born, he and Debbie had visited the area and loved its peace and quiet.
It was the opposite of London, he said, and after the year they’d had, a
marvellous place for the annual Walker holiday.
Marvellous, it was not, Daisy reflected. As they’d booked so late, places to stay
were limited. Their only option had been the grotty
and grim Braemar B&B instead of the bijou cottage with its open-plan
rooms and garden backdropped by valley views and blue skies they usually stayed
in when they went to France.
In the hotel Mrs Burnett had mentioned, the Gordon Arms, the lounge bar was deserted, but
the public bar was open. It seemed to have no windows,
and smoke swirled around, obscuring the view.
A voice boomed, “We're closed for food.” Somehow, the brassy blonde barmaid
who materialised out of the gloom had worked out that two middle-aged people
with a teenager and a pre-pubescent boy entering a pub just after two, wanted
lunch.
Who knew?
Dad started his charm thing. “We’re so sorry we got here late–”
The barmaid looked unsympathetic.
“—and we haven’t had lunch! Sandwiches will do us just fine. We could
have ham or cheese. Whatever is easiest?”
He rubbed his hands together. The woman glared at him. She unpeeled
herself from her position behind the bar, her conversation with two young men
who sat on high stools drinking pints, so rudely interrupted.
“We’re closed for–”
Debbie cut her off. “For food, yes. Come on, Tony. Let’s see what the chippie can do.”
“If it’s still open.”
The brassy blonde exchanged a sly grin with the two pint-drinkers; no doubt anticipating the Walkers’ trudge to the fish
and chip shop only to find a closed sign swinging from its door.
They left the Gordon Arms. No-one had dared ask the barmaid how to get
to the chippie.
“Harbour direction, surely!” Tony made strides that way. The rest of
them followed. He was right. Five minutes later they discovered a fish and chip
shop, ‘open’ sign reassuringly hanging from its eaves. The smell was
incredible, hot batter and malt vinegar that created a welcoming cloud around
the doorway and the few tables and chairs placed on the pavement.
Her dad stood outside the door. “Right, orders then! Tell me what you
want I’ll go in and get them. Over and out!”
Daisy hoped no-one had heard them. Nobody, but nobody said, ‘over and
out’ these days. She surveyed their surroundings. The only people who might
have heard were an old lady pushing a two-wheel shopping trolley. She didn’t
count, but what about the young guy
sitting on the car park wall, a bicycle leaning next to him? His deafness was
far more critical. Luckily, he wasn’t
looking in their direction; the
dark-haired head turned towards the sea.
“I don’t know, Tony,” her mum darted looks at Daisy. “I’m not sure we
should be eating fish and chips.”
By ‘we’ she meant Daisy again, worried that her body wouldn’t be able to
cope with the overload of carbohydrates.
“Well, needs must!” Tony refused to let go of that first-day-away-from
work enthusiasm. “And we are on our holidays. Daisy, you will need to do an
extra blood test or two. Is that okay?”
He put it as a question, instead of what it was—an order.
She nodded, and he smiled at her,
winking when her mum wasn’t looking. He took their orders and vanished into the
shop, its door chiming melodically as he
entered.
“I’ve never seen a castle in the middle of town before,” Debbie remarked
as they waited outside. She pointed at the castle behind them.
“Can we go there?” Matthew asked. His school was doing a project on medieval
knights. Castles and battles featured
often. A castle meant he could pretend to be gallant Sir Matthew, armed with a
bow and arrow, shooting off the approaches of an
evil baron.
“Mmm, of course.” Daisy’s mum had resorted to toe-tapping and darting
anxious glances at the chippie. She’d be worried the food was taking too long.
Daisy made sure her mum couldn’t catch her eye. The constant fussing got on her
nerves.
Tony emerged a few minutes later, holding steaming parcels of
newspaper-wrapped food and cans of juice. He pointed at the grassy mound to the
side of the Harbour car park. “I can see
tables and chairs. Let’s eat up there. The views are terrific.”
Daisy wished she’d put on an extra jumper under her coat. It wasn’t that
warm.
Her dad homed in on a table under the huge beech tree in front of the
small church that looked out onto the river. There were fishing boats anchored
all the way up to the bridge on the left and the harbour smelled of dried out
seaweed. The family sat down, and Daisy’s
dad handed out each parcel.
“Sausage and chips for you, Matthew, and a can of coke. A fish supper
for you, Debbie, and one for me. You can share my coke. Battered fish for you,
Daisy.”
“Is there anything for me to drink?”
Tony bit his lip apologetically. “Sorry love. They didn’t have any Tab
or Diet Coke.”
Debbie rummaged in her handbag, emerging triumphantly with a flask of
water she had filled in the B&B.
“Here you go.”
Matthew had eaten half of his sausage supper already. The chips looked
especially good, doused with malt vinegar
and salt.
Daisy sneaked her hand out and nabbed a couple.
“Hey!” Matthew’s protest came out at the same time as her mum’s, “Daisy
love, not too many chips.”
Daisy poked her tongue out, a gesture her mum pretended not to see. God,
it was only three chips. Fish and chips without the chips were…well, not fish and chips. She compensated
by eating all the batter and just half
the fish. Her mum delved back into her capacious handbag, emerging this time
with an apple. She handed it to Daisy.
The meal finished, Matthew repeated his request to visit the castle.
“Oh, let’s!” Tony leapt to his
feet, gathering up the empty papers and
cans and disposing of them in the nearby litter bin. “I love a good castle! And
this one is Dhoon Castle, once the seat of the MacLellans. Fancy that! When I
researched my family tree, a few years ago, I found MacLellans on my mother’s
side. Maybe my great-great-great grandfather built it.”
Not enough greats, Dad. Daisy didn’t bother to say it out loud. Her dad still thought she was
as gullible as Matthew, ready to believe anything no matter how unlikely just
because he said it with such authority.
Close to, Daisy didn’t think it was a good castle. It wasn’t that big
for a start, and it didn’t have a moat. The person who took their money told
them that MacLellan had taken the stones
from another nearby castle to build his. That cemented her opinion. The castle was a cheat, a second-rate fortress.
The visit didn’t last long. There was not much to see, the bare bones of
a place that had once housed master, family and servants and almost impossible
to imagine. Matthew loved the supposed dungeon; his dad was a pretend prisoner jailed by the wicked Sheriff
of Nottingham. Matthew as Robin Hood rescued him triumphantly.
“My mother’s family were MacLellan’s,”
her dad said as they left. The money-taker nodded, asking questions about where
and when they had been born, polite, rather than interested questions.
They walked around the town. It did not take long. Daisy took stock: two butchers, one grocer, two
newsagents, an ironmonger, a chemist, and a supermarket so tiny it didn’t seem
worthy of the name. Not one of them looked inviting.
There were two sweet shops, but her mum hurried them past those. Daisy
spotted the jars of boiled sweets and brightly-coloured sherbet. Before her
illness, sherbet was her favourite sweet
treat. She liked to buy bags of the blue-coloured stuff, the kind that turned
your mouth bright blue for hours afterwards.
The rest of the day stretched ahead. Two hours until dinner time. And
then after dinner, what were they going to do?
Everything Daisy had thought about this holiday was right. s**t place,
nothing to do and miles away from anywhere or anything exciting.
Tony stopped in front of the newsagents. “Right. Well, I’ll need my
newspaper.”
As he bought a copy of The Times,
Daisy’s dad asked the newsagent his recommendation for dinner. The newsagent
took the question seriously, firing off questions. A family of four, yes? Were
the children fussy eaters? Daisy took
offence at being labelled a child. Did they want Scottish food or something
else?
Tony finished the conversation and looked pleased with himself. “Right. The newsagent told me there’s a very nice
Italian restaurant just over there.” He pointed to a building above a coffee
shop. It didn’t look like a restaurant from the outside, but there was a sign
hanging in the window: Bella Italia. Italian Home Cooking.
“Now, the man in the newsagents suggests we go for a drive. Debbie, are
you happy to drive? I’d rather not do any more driving today.”
Debbie nodded, and the four of
them made their way back to the Braemar Quality B&B, as their car was
parked outside. Daisy dragged her feet, hoping that Tony or Debbie would change
their mind before they got back there or that
they might let her away with not coming. A drive to look at yet more
bloody boring trees and fields. Whoop-de-doo.
Approaching the house, she spotted a lace curtain twitch once more.
Seconds later, Katrina opened the front door, bumping into them almost
accidentally. She raised her arms up as soon as she saw them in an “oh, it’s you again!” way. She didn’t fool Daisy.
But her appearance triggered another reaction. Katrina had put on a
black denim jacket over her print dress. Daisy’s heart contracted with envy.
Black denim.
She had spent a whole Saturday months ago trying to find a black denim
jacket in London and hadn’t seen one she
liked. Now, she stared at the perfect example,
slim-fitting, the cuffs worn and studded with gleaming metal buttons.
Embroidered red roses covered the pockets.
“Did you get lunch?” Katrina called out.
“Yes, we did. Say thanks to your gran for the recommendation. Best fish
and chips I’ve had in years!” To Daisy’s dismay,
Tony jumped in with a reply first. As Katrina seemed to be her age, Daisy felt
answering her was her prerogative.
“Aye, I’ve heard folks say she does the best fish and chips in Scotland.
If Alison had a bit more money, maybe she could advertise a bit more. Get
people in and all that.”
Business advice given, she lingered, scuffing her feet against the pavement.
“Do you want to come with us?” her dad asked. “We’re going to look at
the countryside.”
At times, Daisy hated her dad. He was totally,
totally embarrassing. No self-respecting cool girl was going to–
“Okay.” Katrina skipped over, smiling. She stopped beside Daisy and
nudged her side with her elbow. The smile she exchanged with Daisy changed from
the polite one you gave adults to a conspiratorial grin.
Maybe Daisy’s dad wasn’t that bad after all.