RAY

Chp 17. I can't put Ray in my s**t load of trouble.

POV:

Ash Thomson

Yesterday, sleeping with Ray was amazing, never in almost one year, have I had this beautiful peaceful sleep. I like her a lot.

I don't know why all of a sudden I snapped at her, I was hell lot confused, and immediately without a single word went to my bike and ride us back home.

I know I felt complete holding her, against me but I can't do this.

I can't put Ray in my s**t load of trouble.

These two days with her, made me forget my problems and misery, but I don't want her to be in trouble, she already has faced a lot. I can't be selfish.

I will have to start keeping a distance from her, I know she feels something for me, but I hope she doesn't, cause I'm not good enough for her. 

But I will find what  has happened to her, before three months, that has shifted her personality rapidly, and as I prom promised myself earlier, I'm not going to make her sad and help her cope up, but all this I will do keeping some distance from her, She is like the opposite side of a magnet, that attracts me to her, but I have to make sure she is okay and happy.

I will always be here for her, always help her.

I am not going to tell her what am I going through, or what has happened to me before and why all of a sudden, Christ is acting like a manwhore. I trust her, Yes but I want her to be happy.

I will have to draw the line, and not let her get attached to me, For me, I'm already so attached to her, and that is the reason why to keep her safe, I will have to make her stop liking me.

I will soon have to make a plan for her to start hating me. But before that, I have to speak to Christ.

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