What He Left

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There's a loneliness that doesn't come from being alone. It comes from knowing they're watching you, waiting for something to happen that they haven't said out loud. And the worst part is you don't even know what it is. I walked out of the council meeting with that feeling sitting on my chest. The lie had cost something. I'd be living with it now, measuring every answer against the one I'd already given. Rhys hadn't believed me. I'd seen it in the way he held his eyes on mine a beat too long after I spoke, like he was giving me a second chance I hadn't asked for. I didn't go back to the cabin. Instead, I walked the long way, through the cold, toward Caleb's old place. The snow crunched under my boots, and the wind cut through me, carrying the feeling that something wasn't right. I didn't know what I was looking for. I just knew I wasn't ready to sit alone with four walls and a fire yet. His door hadn't been touched since the pack sealed it after the funeral. I had a key. Nobody knew that. Inside, the part of the cabin the fire hadn't reached still smelled like him. Pine and something faintly metallic, the smell of a person who spent more time outdoors than in. His jacket hung on the hook by the door exactly where he always left it, as if he'd just stepped out and planned to be back before dark. Two years and nobody had moved it. I stood there looking at it for a long time. Then I put it on. It fit the way things fit when they were never meant for you but somehow are anyway. The lining felt strange under my fingers, thicker than it should be, with a stiffness along the left seam that didn't come from the fabric itself. I worked at the stitching with my thumbnail until it gave. A small piece of paper fell to the floor. I picked it up slowly. Caleb's handwriting. The same loose scrawl he used whenever his thoughts outran his hand. The first few lines looked exactly as I remembered. Then the writing changed. The letters grew tighter. Sharper. The last lines looked hurried, the ink pressed so deeply into the paper it had nearly torn through. 'I know what you are. I'm sorry. I thought we could stop it. I thought there was still time. Don't let them decide who you become. Remember what we've always known. The Hollow can't stay dea—' A jagged line slashed across the rest of the sentence. Beneath it, cramped and uneven, as though written by a shaking hand: 'The Hollow can't stay dead.' I read it again. Then again. The beginning sounded like Caleb. The last line felt different. Not because of the words. Because of the hand that wrote them. I ran my thumb across the grooves the pen had carved into the paper. A knock echoed through the cabin. Three sharp knocks. My stomach tightened. He found me again. I opened the door. Rovan stood in the dark, snow dusting his shoulders. This time he reached up before saying anything and pulled the mask free, tucking it into his coat pocket. It was the first time I'd seen his face. A few years older than me. Dark hair falling across his forehead. Calm eyes that revealed almost nothing. "Just checking on you," he said. "You knew things about Caleb no stranger should know." "I knew enough." "Enough to talk about him like you'd known him." He held my gaze. "Ask what you really want to ask." "You stood at Caleb's funeral." "I did." "You talked about him like you knew him." "I talked about grief." "You knew about the letter." His eyes settled on mine. "I never said that." "You didn't have to." Silence stretched between us. I tightened my grip on the folded paper. "Who were you to Caleb?" "I wasn't." "Then how do you know so much about him?" "I know what happens to people who go looking in the wrong places." "What places?" He didn't answer. Instead, his eyes drifted toward the pocket where I'd hidden the note. "You found something." It wasn't a question. Every instinct told me to deny it. Instead I asked, "How do you know that?" "You have the same expression people wear after reading words they wish they'd never seen." My stomach tightened. "So you do know." "I know enough." "Then tell me." His jaw hardened for the first time since I'd met him. "I can't." "You won't." "Both." Anger rose faster than I expected. "You keep showing up at funerals. Outside my house. Now here." I took one step toward him. "You speak in riddles." Another step. "You know things you shouldn't." Another. "And every answer you give raises three more questions." The wind swept between us, tugging at Caleb's jacket around my shoulders. "If you know something about Caleb," I said, "then stop talking around it." His gaze dropped for the first time. Not to me. To the pocket. "The note," he said quietly. "What about it?" "Did every word look the same?" I froze. "...What?" "The handwriting." I said nothing. His eyes lifted again. "Look at it carefully." "I already did." "No." His voice remained calm. "You read it." He took one slow step backward. "I asked whether you looked." A chill crawled through me. The last two words. The Hollow. I hadn't thought about them beyond what they said. Only that they'd been there. "You noticed something," he said. It wasn't a question. My fingers found the paper inside the pocket. "The ending..." I heard myself say. "It isn't like the rest." He didn't confirm it. He didn't deny it. "It looks rushed." The words left my mouth before I realized I'd decided they were true. "The letters." I swallowed. "They don't even lean the same way." Rovan's face didn't change. "Good." One word. Quiet. Certain. My pulse climbed. "What does that mean?" "It means Caleb was trying to tell you something." "And?" "And someone, or something..." For the first time since we'd met... ...he hesitated. "...didn't want him to finish." The wind carried snow between us. Neither of us moved. "You're saying someone... or something... wrote the end of Caleb's letter?" "I'm saying..." His eyes stayed on mine. "...don't trust every word written on that page." I frowned. "Okay, that's enough." I dragged a hand across my face. "Tell me who's behind it." "I don't know." It was the first answer he'd ever given that sounded frustrated instead of careful. "I only know I've seen it before." My heartbeat stumbled. "You've seen this before?" A shadow crossed his face. "More than once." Silence settled again. Finally I said, "Who are you?" He looked past me, into the cabin. "Someone who's already too late." He stepped backward into the snow. "I'll be around." He took two more steps, then stopped. "Whatever you do..." He looked back. "...don't let it feed." "Feed on what?" He didn't answer. Then he disappeared into the trees. I stayed in the doorway, the cold slipping through the opening. My hands shook as I unfolded the note again. This time... I wasn't reading the words. I was looking at them. And once I saw it... I couldn't unsee it. The last two words looked wrong. The strokes were heavier. Sharper. Like the hand holding the pen had changed before the ink dried. I stared until the letters blurred. I didn't know what Caleb had been trying to tell me. But I no longer believed he'd written every word.
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