I do not know what came over me. I felt lighter inside after crying, my body felt like jelly as if I had no bones left. I could breathe again. All the pent-up emotions, what Ruslan said was, gone, I had a look of content, I do not know what that feels like or looks like, but if this is it, I am all for it. Ruslan passed me some tissue for me to blow my nose, and we went through everything. One at a time Ruslan taught me what was what. He done it in a way that made me feel in control again and not stupid.
Growing up the way I did, as I have said before, I do not regret it and if I went back in time, I would choose to do it all over again. Now I am in the real world away from my world, my bubble, what I got taught, it has been hard. Ruslan was beaming I was getting emotions and being more
