Daring in a Blue Dress

Chapter 2-1

TWO

“Hallelujah, you’re leaving! Oh dear, I didn’t mean it that way, Mercy. I just meant hallelujah. You know, kind of a lesser hallelujah. Hallelujah minus a few points of exclamation, if you will. Erm. You know?”

I smiled and stuffed the last of my clothing into the duffel bag that had gone through many years with me. It was faded in spots, was torn on the end flaps, and had many stains acquired from various roommates and the inevitable accidents that come with living in confined spaces with numerous people. In other words, it was a good visual representation of myself: a bit worn, having seen a lot of life, and definitely not stylishly attractive. “It’s OK, Kim. I know what you mean. You’ve been nothing but accommodating, letting me stay with you and Rafe when I know you’d rather be by yourselves.”

“It’s not that we don’t love having you here—lord knows, you do the bulk of the housework, and it’s going to be a nightmare having to do all that again—but I’m thinking of you, I really am. You need to find yourself, really find yourself. Find what makes you happy, and what you want to do with your life.”

“Well, that’s the big question, isn’t it?” I smiled at my friend. I’d met her a year ago, when we both were attending a criminal justice class at a London university.

She made a face. “You have been to enough universities. . . . Couldn’t you pick a degree and find a job doing that?”

“Doing what?”

“Whatever your degree is. Would be.” She sighed, and made a frustrated gesture. “Whatever job would be pertinent to the degree that you don’t yet have, but would have if you stuck it through to the end.”

“It’s never quite that easy,” I said, cramming the few precious books I had left into the bag, grunting a little as I forced the zipper up its pregnant, bulging length. “Technically, I have a lot of credits in a number of subjects, everything from English to medieval history, phys ed, and of course criminal justice. But that doesn’t mean I’m qualified to get a job that pays more than minimum wage.”

Kim raised an eyebrow and looked doubtful.

“OK, OK, I could probably get a job, but not one I’d like,” I said in response, hating the fact that people didn’t understand my need to learn everything there was to be learned. “If only I could get your universities to give me more financial aid, everything would be groovy.”

“Groovy?” Kim snorted. “Your liberal arts are showing. And do you really think that more time at uni is what you need? Look at this temporary tutoring job you found.”

“I didn’t actually find it—an old friend did,” I interrupted. “She knew I was desperate, and I didn’t like the other option she found for me.”

“Regardless, it serves to illustrate my point—you could become a teacher, a proper teacher, not just a summer tutor.”

I shuddered. “Those kids . . . oh, Kim, those kids! Their mother was bad enough at the interview with her pretentious sneering, and trying her best to impress me with all the money her husband has, but her kids! They were hell spawn.”

“I’m quite certain they’re not that bad,” Kim said with gentle chiding.

“You didn’t see them. Natalia, the seven-year-old, spent the entire time her mother and I were chatting racing around on her Rollerblades, screaming at everyone in the park. And not shrieks of laughter—the kid has a worse potty mouth than my father does. And the nine-year-old Jocelyn was even worse. He actually threw a tantrum, an honest-to-god tantrum, when some other child dared to do a skateboard flip or twist or whatever that Jocelyn couldn’t duplicate. The child needs desperately to be in therapy. Both of them do, and those are the little monsters I’m supposed to spend three months tutoring. You know why they need tutoring? Because they’re so out of control not even their expensive private school can cram learning into their thick heads.”

“Ouch,” Kim said, flinching, but I wasn’t sure if it was in response to my attack on the kids I’d agreed to teach or to my situation. I hoped it was the latter. “Still, it’s a job, and you never know what doors it may open. If the parents are as rich as you say—”

“The car that picked her and the monsters up had its own driver.”

“—if they are that well-off, then perhaps they can help you find a job that you will enjoy more. I agree that the children don’t sound pleasant, but perhaps they just need a firm hand. A sort of Mary Poppins figure to come into their lives and turn them into pleasant little people.”

“Mary Poppins I am not, but thanks for the pep talk.” I checked around the small spare room that I’d been occupying for the last three months—much to Kim’s boyfriend Rafe’s growing unhappiness—and hefted my bag. “And thank you for letting me stay with you while I tried to get my feet under me. It was a nightmare having that bastard scammer wipe out my bank account, feeble as it was, and you made all the difference.”

She gave me a knowing look. “Next time, don’t fall for a hard-luck story and let someone have access to your personal information so he can steal money out of your account.”

“Oh, trust me, lesson learned,” I said, giving her a hug made awkward by the approximately fifty pounds of bag slung across my back.

“Although it certainly would have been easier for you to simply call home—”

I lifted a hand in acknowledgment, and staggered out of the room, down the stairs to the exit of the building, Kim accompanying me as far as the street. “That is not an option. Happy two’s-companying, Kim. Be sure to thank Rafe for me—I appreciate you guys putting up with me more than you’ll know.”

“You’re very welcome. Now go turn those poor children’s lives around, and enjoy not trying to force more facts into your head.” She smiled, giving me a little wave as I started down the street toward the nearest tube stop. “And network with your new bosses. Maybe they can help you find the perfect job. You need to do something more with your life than just go to school!”

Her words stuck with me for the next hour as I took the train that would carry me off to the coast of Cornwall, where my much-dreaded summer job awaited.

“The problem is,” I said aloud, staring blindly out the window of the train, where it sat in the bustling station, the noises of thousands of people passing through the confined spaces thankfully muffled by the windows, “I like learning.”

“Oh, sorry, is this taken?” A woman paused at the open doorway to the compartment in which I sat.

I glanced around the empty plush maroon seats, three of which faced another bank of three, and said, “No, not at all. I was just talking to myself.”

“I do that a lot, too,” the woman said, hefting a couple of suitcases onto the white metal racks arranged above the seats. She gave a quick look around the compartment, adding, “I haven’t seen a train like this since I was small.”

“From what the ticket person said, I gather they had some mechanical issues, and had to pull a few old compartments out of retirement. I think it’s kind of fun, actually. It’s very Agatha Christie, don’t you think? I half expected to find a body under the seat, and a box of stolen jewels hidden in the luggage rack.”

She gave a tight, brief smile and took the seat opposite me, pulling out her phone and moodily tapping at it before setting it on the seat next to her. Distantly, a metallic voice droned some instruction or information, wholly incomprehensible. “They are different, aren’t they? I suppose these old compartments let people talk more than the row seats we normally get.”

“Exactly. I’m Mercy, by the way. Mercedes, actually, but everyone calls me Mercy.” I didn’t offer my hand, not because I felt she’d spurn it, but because she was tapping at her phone again, clearly preoccupied.

“Janna,” she said abruptly, then looked up, a frown pulling her brows together. “Sorry, that’s my name. Are you Canadian or American?”

“Both, actually. My mother was from British Columbia, but my dad is a Californian. I was studying history of law here in London, but ran out of funds, so now I’m heading to Cornwall to start a new job.” I stopped, realizing I was doing the oversharing thing that caused so many Americans to be the butts of jokes by folks less willing to blab out every little nuance of their life to strangers.

“Oh?” She looked up from her phone. Her face was tight with some worry or concern. “Sorry, I’m scattered today. Geoff, my partner—well, ex-partner, I guess you could say—he’s gone off to Ibiza to work at a resort, and now he’s telling me that he made a mistake leaving me, and I should go out there with him.”

I settled back into the well-worn (but still oddly comfortable) seat, prepared to enjoy the human drama that never failed to intrigue. “Goodness. Ibiza sounds exotic and sunny.”

“It is.” She glanced out of the window, her lips a thin line. The train gave a lurch and then started forward, rolling us past the mass of humanity that filled the station. “I wish I knew what to do. We were together for four years, and one day it all fell apart. . . .” She stopped and gave me a chagrined look. “Sorry. I’m babbling.”

“No, not at all. I don’t mind if you want to talk. I’m told I have a very sympathetic manner, probably due to the two years of psychology I took back at the University of Calgary.”

She looked a bit doubtful, but evidently the promise of a sympathetic ear was too much, because within five minutes, she was telling me about her life, her hopes, and especially her plans of life with Geoff, which had been dashed when he ran away from her growing demands of commitment. “And now,” she finished up some twenty minutes later, “now he says he can’t live without me, and wants me to throw away everything and go to Ibiza with him.”

“That’s a tough situation,” I said slowly, not wanting to give advice that wasn’t desired (or needed). “I suppose there’s pros and cons to consider.”

“Not so many cons, that’s the problem,” she said miserably, glancing at her phone. “I really have nothing keeping me here. My roommates will replace me without any trouble. I haven’t even started the job I’m on the way to, and it’s only for the summer. And the resort where Geoff works sounds like heaven. He said I won’t have any problem getting a job there.”

“Sounds like your mind is already made up,” I said.

She bit her lip. “I hate to leave Vandal in a lurch. That’s the only bad part.”

“Vandal?”

“The man who hired me for the summer. He’s nice, if a bit of a flirt, and I hate to run off and leave them without the help they need.” She eyed me for a minute. “You said you were going to Cornwall for a job, also?”

I made a face. “Unfortunately, yes. A friend set me up as tutor for a couple of spoiled kids with an impossible mother, and you’re not thinking what I think you’re thinking, because if you are, I’m quite likely to take you up on it.”

She laughed. “Those must be some really spoiled children.”

“You have no idea. What exactly is the job you’re talking about?”

“General dogsbody, really. Taking tickets at a summer attraction, helping with costumes, fetching and carrying, that sort of thing. It doesn’t pay much, but you do get room and board, and can keep any tips that float your way.”

“How much is ‘doesn’t pay much,’ if you don’t mind my asking?”

Her phone chirruped again, instantly drawing her attention. She read the incoming text, and smiled. “He’s so sweet now that he realizes what an i***t he’d been to leave.”

I gave her a benevolent smile of my own. “Sounds like he’s seen the error of his ways.”

“He has.” She looked up, her expression solidifying into one of determination. “I can’t miss this opportunity. He’s absolutely right in that we only have one life, and to dally in might-have-beens is just a waste. Here, let me give you Vandal’s mobile number. I’ll text him that I’ve had a change of plans, but that I’ve found a replacement.”