JENNY
I let myself fall on the couch: it was only 10 AM, but I was already exhausted - more emotionally than physically.
Being away from Reed was torture: after months in which he had been the only thing I had lived for, the only thing that had kept me from committing something irreparable ... not having him near me, not being able to hold him, was horrible. I could feel the empty void in my arms, the absence of his familiar weight, and it was a constant pain.
I'd called Ravi to say hello to him earlier, and seeing his sweet little face, his smile with those two little bottom teeth, and his round pink cheeks had been both soothing and heartbreaking. Being able to see him but not to hold him ... it didn't feel good.
Violet and James had also rushed over to greet me: they were a joy t
