New Alpha

The First Journal

March 16th, 1963

My name is Curtis Ward. I turned sixteen not too long ago and my dad said I would finally be going through my changes. Dad said the signs were all there and the pack was alerted. I'm a part of a long line of Alpha's. My training will begin after my transition is completed. I don't know if I'm ready for this... My hearing, smell and sight have gotten better. My dad says if I focus real hard I can focus in on things normal people can't further away. Hunting and fishing would be a piece of cake if I honed my skills...

March 30th, 1963

I have dreams of running through the woods with wolves. The pack surrounds me, and I don't know what we are running for? My dad says it's the way of the wolf to surround and accept the new member on their first run. Sort of like when someone guides you and shows you how things work. It's a forewarning of the days to come and very soon this will come to life. The full moon is coming, and the transition is upon you. Very soon you will go through what every werewolf has, then you will go on your first run to initiate your coming of age....

April 6th, 1963

Tonight's the full moon and I'm scared of pain. Dad is sending me off into the woods, so I can have room to change. He tells me that he knows I'm scared and that he wishes he could be with me through the change, but he can't. He told me that when it was over he would join me and help me adjust to the change. He assured me that I was strong enough and that I just had to be brave. This would be one of many tests that I would have to endure alone. He said,"I can't always be there to protect you, son, but just know that I would hold your hand through it all if I could. I believe in you!"....

April 17th, 1963

Everything finally stopped hurting. I've been running every night with the pack, forcing myself to change. They call it releasing the moon. It's supposed to keep you from being a prisoner to the full moon, and you don't have to be a slave to its charms. It's meant to protect everyone around you and your family. It's important to keep this secret from humans and nobody wants them to know they really exist or the rest of the magical world. Dad says he's proud of me and that this was the fastest anyone has ever stopped hurting. It usually takes a couple more weeks from what I've heard.

May 4th, 1963

I've been through so much in two weeks. The first test after my change was speed and I have surpassed my own father, the pack leader. Possibly the fastest ever in the history of the pack. Strength was my next test. I've been fighting for two weeks now. I'm one of the strongest in the pack. Survival is my next test. I have to prove myself to the pack. Bruit strength and speed are great without knowledge, self-ingenuity, you are just another dumb i***t. The Alpha, our pack leader, is the last one of my tests.

May 18th, 1963

My trip has been planned, and my dad is telling me everything that I have to bring. He gave me a list of things I can and can't have. He keeps asking me if I remember all our camping trips and how to fix a busted line. He mentions something about rope and knots. It's more stressful getting ready than it seems to be heading out. This could be my last entry for a while. Nonessential stuff must stay home. Right after this trip, I asked my father to join the pack.

August 26th, 1975

It's been a minute since I've felt like I needed to clear my thoughts in a journal. I found this old one and thought it might come in handy one day. As you can tell, I made it in the pack, but it's been so busy around the pack with my new friends and training to take over for my father. I met a nice girl in town, but she was not a pack member. I feel like I know her, but we haven't really talked. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.

September 12th, 1975

I'm going to be the pack leader soon. My dad's sick, and he's not going to make it much longer. The doctor's give him a few more months. I've been going out with that girl for a couple of months now, and I'm certain that she's my mate, but she's not like us. Her name is Linda. She's human, and I don't know how I'm going to tell my dad or how that would even work with me being the leader. I need to tell him before I become Alpha.

November 9th, 1975

At first, my dad seemed angry that I'd chosen a human as my mate. He has a lot of regret and sadness behind that stern voice. He told me in a low and sad voice that my mother was human too. She died giving birth to me because of complications foreseen by the pack. Sometimes, on very rare occasions, we don't always get another werewolf as our mate. It would have been easier for me, he said, with him dying. I can't tell her my true nature, and it will kill me inside to have part of my life forever a secret to my one true love. Our secret must be kept at all costs. He follows with how he used to keep both his lives separate until the day I was born. He never found another after her either. Those bonds are very strong. It's just so much to take in.

January 21st, 1976

I married her two weeks ago. It was a beautiful ceremony, small and quaint. The pack was there and so was my dad. He died today... I feel lost without his guidance. I just want to let Linda know about everything and all the weight I feel, that seems to be suffocating me. The pack tries to help, but I guess only time will heal this wound of mine. My dad had been talking me through this transition because he's been there before. He knows how to juggle it all. He said it's going to be difficult at first, but it gets easier through the years. I really hope it does, because this feeling really is killing me. Linda is so sweet though and she tries so hard to make me happy every single day.