Chapter 10: Reflection
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MARINA
Gone!
Abandoned!
Lonely!
Disappeared without a trace.
I feel so.....empty
Urrgh! Words cannot describe how I feel right now.
Last night, when Javier and I kissed under the stars, I felt something I've never felt before. I felt a spark,a connection, there was fireworks and explosion. It felt as if we belonged together and together we could conquer the world. He was my first kiss and I enjoyed it.
When we kissed, I felt that we could be together. But now reality stares in my face and he's gone.
I was disappointed when I went to his room this morning and he was not there. His room looked cleaned out. But I didn't think he was gone. I thought he was avoiding me. I thought he was ashamed or maybe, I was a terrible kisser.
I was shocked when Mr Barnaby called me to his office. He told me that I was getting a new roommate. When I asked why, he said it was because Javier was gone. Apparently his dad came to pick him up, very early in the morning, something about basketball.
I get it now. He must have realized that by kissing me, he had complicated our friendship and his relationship with Britney. Or maybe, he was just testing how loyal I was to my best friend. Or maybe, I was just a fling. I felt used and heart broken, mostly heart broken. But this won't happen again. Once bitten, twice shy. Despite my resolution, I still felt heartbroken.
Julya turned out to be my new roommate. She was a nice person to have as a roommate but I still missed Javier. I moved to his room, since it was bigger. His scent still lingered in the room and I drugged my senses with his sandalwood and vanilla scent. Sometimes at night, I replayed the kiss, wondering if I will ever be able to taste his lips again.
First few days without Javier, Scarlet and her clique bothered me with their snarky comments and insults until they decided I wasn't worth their time. The remaining two weeks of camp passed by in a blur. The awards ceremony came and went and I was shocked Gwen received the prize for Well-behaved kid. Best camp coordinator went to Bianca, no surprise there. Nick and Julya also received prizes. The kids left after the ceremony but we had to stay behind to clean up.
As we got ready to go, everyone exchanged Contacts, I realized I didn't even have Javier's number. I guess that is fate's way of telling me we were never meant to be. I better forget about Javier, he's dating my best friend. And forget him, I will. I said my farewell to Julya, Nick and the others I had gotten to know
We still have about a month of summer break to go. I know most people would take it as a time to relax and enjoy the holiday but I have nowhere to go. No one invited me for any parties or any of the sort. Besides, I planned I'm gonna volunteer at the animal shelter and get a part time job. I know it sounds lame but that's my life.
As I got into my car, I remembered when Javier sat there. I pushed the thoughts out of my mind and turned on the radio. I tuned the radio to get some music playing. After a while, 'Perfect' by Ed Sheeran began playing. That was the song that played while we danced under the stars. I turned the radio off, it seems I have a long way to go to forget about Javier.
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