Never Again

Chapter 6

I am at the balcony of my room; currently sitting on a chair while looking vacantly at the slowly setting sun. Painting the sky with an orange shade.

On my way home, I came to realize something.

I thought that if I stay far away I will forget about him.

I thought that if I didn't see him anymore, I would lose all my feelings for him, that I would be able to move on.

But I was wrong. Very wrong.

It's all just my thoughts.

Even though I was away from him for the past three years, but I was actually still stuck to the time that he had dumped me.

At the time... He broke my young heart.

I am still stuck with those hurtful memories.

The reason why I still haven't been able to move on.

Maybe to others, they can move on by distancing themselves.

But I guess not for me.

However, what happened earlier brought closure to my feelings. Well, maybe it was a blessing in disguise.

Because I had the chance to look back at the past. I just poured all my time and attention into studying so I didn't really have time to think about those things. Besides... I don't want to.

But at this moment, deeply reminiscing those memories. I realized that I really don't have any reasons to hate him though.

I mean, he was just being honest with his feelings. Since he doesn't have any romantic feelings for me, so he chose to hurt my feelings directly than to give me false hope.

I'm really just delusional and blind. The man made it clear that he didn't want anything but was still insistent. Then when he was scolded, the former cried.

At that time, all I could think about was what I was feeling.

My only mindset is: to those who wronged me would automatically turned into villains.

So I hate him for hurting me.

I didn't even consider his feelings.

Nor crossed into my mind what he would feel.

I was too immature.

Too narrow minded.

Hating him for being honest.

On the contrary, I should be thankful to him for choosing to wake me up back from my delusions instead of playing with my feelings. At least he's not a scumbag.

Well, you can't blame me either because who would be happy to be bashed, right? Then I was still young. I was still fifteen back then. Still unripe.

Besides, I'm just a human with many flaws. It is inevitable that you will make mistakes and wrong decisions in life.

As they say, learn from your mistakes. You just need time to think it through.

So Allison, be open-minded. okay? Think things through.

Great, Allison. Did you just realize that now? After three years of being away?

You just have to see him again to realize that?

Really?

I couldn't stop laughing out loud.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA."

It's my s**t.

I just shook my head at the end.

I couldn't help but smile big while looking at the sun that was still setting.

I can't help but to give a heavy sigh as I felt much more relaxed than ever; as if a huge rock was finally being lifted up within my restless heart.

All that left was peacefulness.

Finally.

I'm free.

"Such a big smile you got there lil' sis."

I was slightly taken back, and immediately turned my head in the direction of the voice.

There, I saw my brother Aspen grinning at me.

I raised an eyebrow.

"Are you still alive?" I said sarcastically.

What's the matter, as of Wednesday, this bug didn't show up. I have not even visited the mansion here. I thought he might have become a real ghost.

After brother Archer's shoot, I will be left alone because he has other things to do besides that. Brother Archer had planned to take me but I didn't want to because I didn't want to bother him.

Our two helpers were also not there because brother Alexander sent them home so they could be with their families this summer vacation.

I also don't like to wander too much—'only when I travel—so I can't do anything else but stay here in my room. Which is not a big deal to me. In fact, I much prefer it.

"Of course, why can't I live?" He was confused.

Thank you

I just made him suffer together.

"They're here," suddenly.

Then looked at the distance.

Although I still can't see a thing, I can hear the sound of the helicopter from far away. I had a pretty sharp hearing, and I'm sure it's them.

At the corner of my eyes, I saw brother Aspen also look at the distance.

He smiled and said, "let's go."

Then we left my room to go to the back of the mansion, where there is a wide space with lush green grasses.

After a while, my brother Aspen and I saw the helicopter slowly descend but before it landed, a white figure suddenly jumped out of it.

"Sissy!"

It quickly ran towards my direction as soon as it stepped on the ground and hugged me tightly.

I felt like I was going to suffocate because of his tight embrace.

"S-s-is-ter A-Av, i c-can't b-bre-ath. " Difficult to say.

He immediately let go of the stranglehold—he hugged her.

"Hehehe sorry, sorry sissy. Your big sister just missed you so much, and got a little too excited." She said with an embarrassed smile while fixing her crooked glasses.

I don't know whether to laugh or cry at aunt Avery's antics.

"My darling."

I turned to the direction of the voice and saw mom and dad walking towards us while brother Alexander was following them behind.

Mom smiled at me tenderly as they finally reached us.

"My sweet little baby." Mom said as she also hugged me lovingly.

I couldn't help but be shocked at what mom called me.

Mom! That's so cringe!

"My little princess." Dad also hugged me gently.

I winced.

Brown Alexander just ruffled my hair with a doting smile on his thin lips.

"Am I late?"

We all turned to the source of the voice and saw brother Archer smiling widely as he walked towards us.

"Very late," brother Aspen answered with a displeased look.

"It doesn't matter. Aly still loves me the most," brother Archer said immediately.

Eh. What does that have to do with me, I'm just keeping quiet here.

"Hey ship! Don't daydream! It's obvious that I'm Aly's dearest and most favorite! Heh" Sister Avery suddenly snapped with a mocking grin.

"Pfft. You? How could Aly even be close with you when you don't even shower? Monkey." Brother Archer also replied mockingly.

"What!" Sister Av gave brother Ark a deadly look. "Why don't I help you gain more popularity with a ruined face. How's that?" She said threateningly.

"Enough! There's no need to fight at all, because obviously, it's me who Aly loved the most." Brother Aspen chimed in in matter of fact.

"Ehem," brother Alexander suddenly faked a cough. "No. Me."

"..." I.

Well...

"No." Dad suddenly interjected. "Me."

"..." I.

Um...

"No. It's naturally me—the mother—who my darling loves the most." Mom said with finality. Her tone filled with confidence and certainty while giving them a very sweet smile.

Although, it looked sweet, yet it was giving a very chilly feeling.

"..."

Actually, there's no competition for such things... Aren't you guys being ridiculous?

They were all silent for a moment but after just a few seconds they immediately agreed.

"Yes. Yes. Yes." Brother Archer, brother Aspen, and sister Avery promised at the same time.

While brother Alexander and dad nodded.

"..."

It's like I'm looking at a bunch of puppies with their tails tucked between their legs while being submissive to the wolf in a sheep's clothing.

Heysss...

My family and their exaggerated-ness. Tch.

But...

I love it. Hehehe.