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Zaid had already stated that what she’d done in the alley wasn’t about s*x, but Whisper hadn’t elaborated on her reasons for going out there with that guy. At the time, it hadn’t made a whole lot of sense, even to her.
Having her husband’s trust allowed her to be more honest with herself, which brought other things into focus.
“I went out to get trashed,” Whisper said. “To forget life, I guess… The guy wanted me and I wanted to get it. I wanted to understand what was so damn good about screwing around.”
“Did you figure it out?”
Mesmerized by the sight of her small fingers on his face, she lost herself to her thoughts. “It didn’t feel good… It makes no sense… We didn’t marry for love. Being faithful to you shouldn’t have mattered. We hadn’t even had sex.”
“Maybe you just didn’t wan
